Thoughts From the Inner Sanctum...

Just comparing this deployment to the last one...
Only 3 kids last deployment.
Worked on Saturdays at that time so I had Fridays off to do as I pleased while kids were at school. I made it to the beauty shop every two weeks. My hair got so long and healthy.
We were in an apartment. Paying about half what we pay now for rent. Our debt was a bit different. Only one car payment as well.
Hubby bought me a treadmill and I had time to get on it every single day. I lost so much weight. Bought so many cute clothes.
This time...
I have 6 kids. Daycare is taking a huge chunk out of our budget, along with the other debts.
I work Monday-Friday so it's hard to find free time away from the kids. And with so many little ones it's so hard to get everything done that I need to do. No time to work out. I feel like a fat blob. I have lost some weight but it's probably stress related.
I haven't been to the beauty shop but once. My hair looks like crap. I have had a couple of pedicures. I have been able to sneak away to the movies every now and then.
This is not a complaint. Just an observation. My goodness how times have changed.
I can also say that this deployment has been different emotionally. I have to deal with more personalities missing daddy. I have gotten so much more attached to my husband since last deployment in 2005-2006. So the pain is a bit greater than last time.
I don't have as much help as I did last time it seems. I rarely get phone calls from people just to check on me. I know everyone has their own lives, but I just feel totally isolated from everyone. Work is ok. It's getting out of the house. But these folks are in it for them for the most part.
On another note... I have been eating tons of ice lately. It's becoming an addiction. What's up with that? Big, huge, gigantic cups of it.
I got to Skype with my hubby for about 20 minutes on lunch at work today. That was nice. Luckily I brought leftover pizza from home from last night so I didn't have to go out for lunch. I was so happy to see his face and hear from him. Seems like we have been instant messaging forever.
I know I should be saying, "Only 2 more months(-ish)" and being really excited. But all I am thinking is, '2 more months of this sh*t'... And I am not excited. Wish my scales would tilt the other way.
Watched a really cute movie with C and L last night... Cirque Du Freak- the Vampire's Assistant. It was really cute. Wish I would've bought it. Still have time to catch it on sale. :)
I have been really tired lately. Getting a lot done, yet still falling behind... I really hate deployment. The only good thing I can say that will come out of it, I will get to know my hubby all over again...
And TGIF... I so need a couple of days off...