Feels like just another day. I have a case of the blues...
Yesterday, I took off 4 hours from work unpaid. I told hubby in advance that I was taking off so we could take advantage of some free time while the kids were in daycare. I wanted him to go to the movies with C and L and I. I offered to go shoot pool with him if he didn't want to go to the movies. ANYTHING to get out of the house. He had no suggestions of things to do and he picked that day to grill so he couldn't be too far away from the grill. Dinner was delicious by the way.
Needless to say, I ended up crying, mopping the kitchen floor and folding clothes before going to get the kids. I did, however, go on a bike ride with Elliebear around the neighborhood for about 20 minutes. It was hot but the breeze and shade from the trees were nice. I started to get tired. We have lots of hills and inclines so I feel like I got a good workout. I worked up a sweat. That was a nice part of the afternoon. I could've taken the girls somewhere but I was so down in the dumps, I just changed my mind.
I do want to point out that hubby is not being mean about anything. He just wants to hang out at home... I guess I get that since he hasn't been at home for so long. He's very sweet and loving and is constantly making me laugh. He takes very good care of us. I am happy with him. Just having my own usual personal issues... Been there before he came along so...
The kids definitely make me smile. They are characters. Pinky just randomly bursts out in dance. The way they all interact and play together genuinely warms my heart. And now all of them have coughs and runny noses. I hate it. They are getting meds and breathing treatments. I hope it clears over the weekend or I will have to take them to the doctor.
Another thing I forgot to mention. The girls had been telling me they saw my stepson on a commercial for Hawaiian Falls Water Park and I was like yeah, probably looks like him or something. Didn't really think about it too much. Then I saw the commercial... Sure enough, it was him. How exciting... The feeling in the pit of my stomach I always get when I think about hubby's ex wife flared up. What is wrong with me? I was so pissed! All I could think about was her getting free time to take her kid to a waterpark while I was stuck at home AND getting so much child support AND just being a beast. Oh well. What can I say, I'm nuts I guess.
I am going to try to make it through this work day. Hopefully no tears. Hubby just kind of left me alone last night. I guess that was for the best. I went to bed @ 9:30 PM. Guess I needed the sleep. I was tired. I felt a little better this AM. But I still feel like I need a happy pill.
Friday, June 25, 2010
It's Friday... Should I be excited?
Posted by SeabeeWife4Life at 08:30
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