Friday, May 7th, deserves it's own belated post...

I experience every now and then extremely dry eyes. It's been something that has plagued me for a long time. On top of that, I have an old injury to my left eye that reoccurs occasionally. I can't remember the technical term for it but it's basically a chronic erosion of the corneal tissue. What that means is, the injury was basically a scratch or tear in my corneal tissue. It will honestly never heal without some new surgery. Very new... I dunno...
When my eyes get REALLY dry, while I sleep, my lid sticks to the tissue that is torn and when I wake up and open my eyes, it basically tears open. Sounds painful, yes? You have no idea. The first time it happened, I just knew someone had a voodoo doll somewhere and was poking a needle in the eye of the stupid thing. Not really, but that's how it feels.
Anyway, it sometimes is a gradual thing to where I can function but it's really irritated and drops or my eye lube will do the trick. Depends on how dry my eye was I guess. Other times it's something that makes it difficult to function.
On Friday, it was difficult to function. I went to work with it extremely irritated, watering, and worked for 2 hours and 15 minutes before the needle stab started. I had to take FMLA time off for the rest of the day. I went to the doctor at 11. He is so excited about having to fill out new FMLA paperwork to Att's satisfaction... That is supposed to be oozing with sarcasm, by the way. I hope they don't give me any grief. It's the last thing I need. I went home and laid down for about an hour and a half. He gave me lots of sample drops. One to help heal my eye, one for pain and one for lubrication. The only one that he gave me a prescription for was the one that heals and it's 111.00. I don't think so. I know I need it but I am going to have to call him on Monday to see if there's any other option. The ones his associate prescribed last time were like 60 bucks. And these are 5 ml bottles! Ridiculous!
I have a follow up appointment on Thursday so we will get the paperwork done then. My eye has been a bit better through Saturday. Still watering all day and extremely sensitive to light. Using my drops and pushing on. What choice do I have?
I told hubby I had been a single parent for the last 10 months. I think he kind of took what I meant out of context. I hope not, honey... If you are reading this. I am just ready for him to be home...
I am still going through deployment. Hubby is still in GP going through check out. We are hoping Monday or Tuesday he will be home. It's almost time to change my blog heading! Am I ready? For him to be here? Yes. For him to see the house in it's condition? No. I have so much cleaning yet to do. To be able to look in his eyes, touch him, wake up to his face in the morning? Yes. Have him help me with the kids? Yes. I am hoping with an extra parent here, we will be able to turn Cici's grades last 6 weeks around. She is having a really tough time this year and it looks like summer school is in her future. (What sucks about that is the only week available for vacation, which I have already scheduled, is during summer school. We planned a trip to Sea World and the beaches of Padre Island. I hope and pray either she passes or someone gives up a week later in the summer I can take instead. Priority though is her going to 8th grade. Praying...) Ready for his wonderful cooking everyday? Yes.
I don't know if I am having some anxiety about him coming home because I feel like he will be putting on the white glove. I don't know why I feel that way. He has constantly told me I am doing a good job and thanked me for handling the house and my job in his absence. Just my weird back of the mind paranoia. I already know the parenting/discipline is about to change. If we played good cop/bad cop, he's always the bad cop. I am just no good at it. I am so glad hubby will be home. I just don't know how much more I can take...
Anyway, my eye was feeling better but still not 100% to where I could sit at a PC all day and take calls so I didn't go back to work. When I picked the kids up from school, I took the little ones to get new shoes. It was way past time. When they got their feet measured, everyone but Bruiser had gone up a size. So then I felt like a terrible mother. I last bought them shoes around February. Jeez! Growth spurts are amazing. Anyway, everyone got a new pair of tennis shoes for school. And I still need to find more. When I get time and am feeling better. Hopefully tomorrow I can look so they can have at least 2 pair each for now.
I really plan on dedicating tomorrow, my mother's day, to cleaning the house so it will look nice for when hubby comes home. Fun.
I priced the replacement remote control for my Bluray DVD player in the bedroom and it's 38.00 including shipping. Gonna have to get it. I'd hate for hubby not to be able to watch movies in here if he wants. It drives me nuts as it is. I have been looking for it for months. I can only conclude one of the kids threw it away on accident.
Oh well. Guess I will try to go back to sleep. I have a splitting headache and at the same time my mind is racing so I thought blogging would help. Just pour out some thoughts, you know? More to come...