Tuesday, a Bluesday...

Well, I must say to start off with that today had both it's highs and lows...
I made it to work, barely. I hate rushing but sometimes it happens. I still have one hour of appt time I can take this month. I am going to take advantage of it. Surely there's something I can catch up on in an hour. Even if its sleep.
At work, baby called me but I was stuck on the phone with a customer. I picked it up while customer was holding just to hear his voice and say I couldn't talk right then. Baby sounded so sad or maybe he was just tired and my sadness was reflecting off of him. I was so disappointed that I couldn't talk to him. He didn't get a chance to call me back, apparently.
I did have training the whole second half of my day. Amazing! I love being off the phone. One of my work friends had to go to an asset protection meeting today because one of the managers saw her at the store on a day she had called in to work. That sucks. She thinks she will get fired and I will really miss her if that happens. Ate at McD's again for more game pieces.
They sent out an email regarding those bogus movie tickets they gave us. We haven't been given the correct ones. Just kind of a promise of movie tickets to come. And Jobeth wants to go to a haunted house with me sometime this week.
I don't know where all of this laundry is coming from. Driving me crazy. Anyway, after work. I went to pick up kids and got their pictures. Just wait til you see them. They are sooo adorable. 197.98 for the whole set. 50 sheets. Not bad, but GEEZ!
came home and made chicken helper for dinner. Made a salad and put carrots and peas into the mix. Sure was good. And I will have left overs tomorrow for lunch. Went to AAFES also. Got the new Tinkerbell movie. Putting away for Ellie and Cici for Christmas. I got myself The Orphan, which was an excellent movie. And I found a red devil dress and pitchfork at AAFES. We were planning on dressing up on Halloween. I also got 2 boxes of diapers
MM and RW have both invited me to their children's school carnival this Saturday. Small world. I work with RW (Rita) and MM is of course a seabee wife. But the funny thing is that MM's mom teaches first grade at the same school Rita's kid is in PreK at.
Well, I am off to bed. I am sitting here dozing as I am typing. Hoping I have made some resemblance of sense. I am hoping that my honey has an excellent day/night whenever he reads this and hoping he knows how much I love him. Good night.

just another manic Monday...

I was reminded of this song by a friend (facebook/work) today and have been humming it ever since. Perfect. Today was not a bad day however the mix of rain and Monday never works well with me.
Made it to work on time despite rain and traffic. Kids off ok and I was so worried about them walking home in the rain. They cant afford to get sick again. I made an appointment for 11-18 to take them in for tamaflu and seasonal flu shots. I take them at 1:30 then go to my doc at 2:45. I am going to call my doc to see if I can make that appt later in the day.
I honestly fell asleep while blogging in bed on my cell phone yesterday (Monday) and honestly, I can't remember all that happened. I know i didn't go to sleep until 2 AM. I was catching up on laundry, including folding it. And time slipped away from me.
I do remember going to eat at Mc Donald's for lunch. Had an Angus burger. Man those are good. I am playing Monopoly with gamepieces from there. I also found out from USPS that we must wait 45 days to set up the insurance claim on honey's laptop. Got a sports Illustrated I will be mailing to him.
I am trying to get my baby's box ready for his birthday. I know it's going to be late but I haven't found everything I want to put in it yet.
I went to that little store called D D's discounts or something like that and found Bubba's new coat. It came with some of those little pants you pull over your clothes (like when you go skiing) and it still had the JC Penney tag on it. 69.99 and I got it for 10.99 brand new! It's Navy blue and red. So cute. I love my handsome fella.
We had chicken tacos for dinner. Yummy! No TV at all on Monday night for me. Didn't even turn it on. Have no idea whats going on with the news. Have no idea what football team played or won. I would have been clueless if we were under attack.
Thats about all I remember from Monday.
But I do remember how much I miss and love my sweetie...

Another Busy Weekend

Well hello there fine folks! It's me, the seabeewife4life! And I am closing this fine weekend out with a bit of rain and severe thunderstorms. It's raining buckets out there right now!Thunder, lightning, the whole stormy bit!
I am sorry to have missed a blog entry from Saturday night but I was POOPED in all caps once my evening ended.
Saturday started off like any other. Waking up, getting twins cereal and getting laundry started. Bruiser and Princess up and at 'em a bit after. Cici and Elliebear being their usual Early AM lazy selves.The afternoon highlight? I got to talk to my baby for almost 17 minutes without the phones cutting us off! Eventually we got to a point where we could get dressed and head out to Boo @ the Zoo.
Princess was in a kitty cat suit complete with tail and she had her hair all afroed out and had little kittie ears on. Brusier and Pinky were both ladybugs. Bubba had on his little monster outfit, also with a tail and the feet fit over his shoes to look like little monster paws. Too cute! Elliebear was Alice in Wonderland and even had a blonde wig. I wore my purple wig and cape along with my fairy earrings and pendant (with purple glitter) along with a black dress, black boots and tights.
The Zoo was packed! It was a figurative zoo with all the people packed in there. I knew we were cutting it close, but the traffic getting in was so bad we almost 30 minutes late. We met up with everyone though, got our tickets ($46) and went in...
There was little room to manuver the stroller and keep everyone together. The tickets had 6 coupons each to turn in for handfuls of candy at these little stations and the lines were long to get the candy. All the Seabee families kind of broke off into their own groups so I didn't get to spend time with any of them. Found out later MM left early (she doesn't like crowds.) And I don't blame her.
We got to take a few pictures though. All the animals were put to bed. We only got to see some kind of antlered thing and some ducks and flamingos. All in all I think the kids had fun. And I came home and had a beer. :) I was in bed and asleep by 11 PM.
I woke up Sunday AM at about 4:30 AM with a splitting headache. Too tired to get up and check blood pressure or take a pill even. Just kept praying I'd fall back asleep and I did a little after 5 (last I remember looking at the clock.)
When I finally got up (Bubba crying and ready for breakfast) it was 8:45. More cleaning and Mom called and asked me to run errands with her. Ended up going to Thrift Town and the grocery store and Dollar Tree. I found Princess a pair of black cords and a sweet little turtle neck, Bruiser got a shirt with a guitar on it that says "My Dad Rocks" and I found her a big coat! Way better than the ones I priced at the other retail stores and about 60% less $. I also found another seat for one of the kids to move to the table in. The kind that attaches to you kitchen chair. One of the trays on the highchairs is broken from Bruiser or Bubba usually trying to get out when they are done eating. One too many falls I guess.
Came home and made breakfast for dinner. Bacon, grits, eggs and pancakes with OJ. Watched Desperate Housewives this week. Still never went back and watched last 2 weeks I'd recorded. Missed Dexter cause Cici wanted to watch Drag Me to Hell, that cheesy scary movie. I'll catch it on demand later this week.
Had to call newspaper AGAIN about subscription. They charged me last week but still no paper. Got credit through today and they had today's peper brought out to me so we will see what happens next Sunday.
My brother called me today and told me he bought a puppy for 60$ that already has 1st round of shots. From an individual outside the mall. He said it was a husky and German Sheppard mix. Gonna get big. He was going to bring it by but I was gone with Mom.
Highlight of today was that I brought joy to my hubby. He finally set up a skype accnt but the PC he was using had no webcam. He watched us sitting at PC in my bedroom for 30 minutes. Kids took turns sitting in my lap saying hi and just being random while we emailed back and forth to each other. Oh, how I wish I could've seen his face! He told me he had warm fuzzies and he was smiling ear to ear and that's good enough for me. I love you, Honey!
I just hope and pray by some miracle his laptop will make it to him. He said he thinks he's gonna like Skype. :)
It's about 12:30 so off to bed I go with the rest of the household. Seems like its gonna be a long day tomorrow. But we are one day closer to hubby getting home!
To be continued tomorrow...

The Mad Dash

Well, that staying up til 2:40 AM last night got to me in the morning! I remember the alarm going off and laying my head back on the pillow, for just a few minutes... Next thing I know, I roll over and look at the clock and its 7:20! So I jumped out of bed, woke everyone up and got them ready. We all missed breakfast (thank God I took the old coffee pot to work) but we all made it on time. I didn't have to be there til 8:15 today! Whew! And sooo glad it was Friday!Had an excellent day for sales. There was a United Way kickoff, so they served us hot dogs/chili dogs and gave us 30 minutes off the phone to ask questions about United Way. I am still going to contribute my 1.00 per pay period. It's all I can really afford to let go of. At least it's something!
Made it to the post office at lunch. Got honey's latest package sent off. His camera, gloves, mouthwash, soap holder and some other goodies are being sent out. I got an email from him at like 4 something (of course I was asleep and didn't hear it) saying the phones had gone down last night and he was unable to call me back. So, I felt much better. Hubby has been trying so hard to get us out of debt. I love him for his efforts. We have always seemed to make it when sometimes it seems a miracle. We have never really been deprived of anything we wanted. Sure big vacations and things like that. But on a regular basis, we have fun with what money we have and we take care of our family. I had so many bills to pay. So many responsibilities. It's crazy madness!
Picked up kids from daycare. They are going to have a Halloween party and want the parents to contribute 4.00 per child as opposed to having you bring something in. They are going to provide all the snacks and goodies. We just have to bring the kids. Said they can wear their costume for the party and to bring a change of clothes for afterwards. I don't think I want them in their costumes there though.
Made spaghetti with Italian sausage instead of hamburger meat. Oh was it good. Linguine noodles, mushrooms, olives, can of peeled tomatoes and some hunts. I also warmed up some garlic Texas toast and green beans with it. It was messy but all the kids enjoyed it. Gave kids a bath and off to bed they went. They were so tired. For the most part, fell asleep fairly quickly. So, I decided to get out of the house. Cici was up on the computer in the living room. Ellie was in my room watching TV. And since all the little ones were asleep and they were going to stay awake, I went to the movies.
I really had to go for a brief escape. I found when I got there, the tickets I won from work the other day are no good. They had an email posted up in the box office saying that those tickets were not supposed to be distributed by their vendor so they have been denying entry with them. I had to buy my ticket! However, with my reward card thingy, I earned a free ticket this time that I can use next time.
I went to see Paranormal Activity. It's not scary enough to keep me awake at night and all the hyped up stuff about it wasn't really worth it. The acting was good considering it was filmed like Blair Witch. I laughed because the story had lots of funny parts in it. The main character was this girl who had been haunted by this demon on and off since she was 8 years old. Well, she moved in with her boyfriend of 3 years and it decided to come back. He was like, "you could have told me about this." She was like, "what was I going to say? 'Hi. I've been haunted by a demon since I was a kid' on our first date?" He goes, "well maybe on the 15th date or the 30th date or damn sure before we decided to move in together!" He was hilarious. The movie was kind of freaky, don't get me wrong, but I wasn't as scared as I hoped I would have been.
Came home and put C and L to bed. Got home by 11:45 PM. Been doing laundry and paying bills ever since.
And now it's almost 3. Gonna put this last load for tonight in the dryer and call it a day!
I love you husband, if you are reading this! I miss you and I hope you get some mail soon. You should have some envelopes coming as well as this box I sent today! Enjoy!

Scooby Doo, Where Are You???

Ok. I am totally on edge. Hubby called me probably now about an hour ago. We were cut off mid sentence and he hasn't called me back...
Where are you, Daddy? My tummy is in knots cause my imagination is trying to pack its bags and run away...
Everything is fine... (exhale) All is right in my world... (exhale)
Dang! That didn't help... Well, it's on to the muscle relaxers...
Well, let's just run down this day...
Went to work. Nothing exciting there. It stopped raining. Just kind of yucky. Went to Walmart to pick up some more things hubby requested for care package I am sending and to bank. Didn't have time to make it to post office afterwards so will mail it tomorrow. Sorry, honey! Put up a collage in my cubicle of pics of my family. It made me happy. I love looking over at my hubby's smile. Even in photos, it's dazzling. Now I have warm fuzzies... :)
I forgot until tonight that there is a FRG Thanksgiving "lunch" planned for the 2ND weekend of November. I need to figure out what I am bringing...
Today is Mom-In-Law's Birthday. I totally forgot until hubby reminded me in an email. I got her a card today too. I will mail it when the kids pictures come back. Hopefully not too much longer. I did send her a text. That's so sad and informal, I know. But at the time, I was at work and I have had such a busy evening...
Elliebear remembered that she had a project due tomorrow. She had to make a hat that represented a vocabulary word. Her word was weight. So we made a giant dumbbell out of aluminum foil and the cardboard thingy from a Christmas gift wrap. And I sewed it basically onto an old hat and we attached an index card with the title on it. It's super cheesy but I think it will work.
When I was a patient last summer at Baylor for my depression... we called it being in "recovery". I was writing lots of poetry at the time. I came up with this: R E C O V E R Y=
Recording Every Conscious Observation, Visualization, Experience and Realization (for) Yourself. I have not shared that with anyone. But we depressed people are always in recovery. Just like alcoholics or drug addicts. It's not something that comes and goes. Symptoms may lighten up, but you are still depressed. That's why I like blogging. I don't have time to finish all the poems my crazy brain has started. I get ideas and I don't have time to sit there and move on them. And I have always kept a journal. So as long as I can release something through blogging... I will be good, I think.
I am recording every conscious observation I have of my behavior. I am recording every crazy thought I visualize. I am recording all my experiences. And I am recording what I realize about myself and how it sums up ME...
It's not as creative as I think I can be. I would love time and privacy to write some poetry. Even if it's dark and dismal, I feel better writing it. Just because it's blue poetry, doesn't mean it doesn't tickle me pink.
Anyway, I made nacho-salad for dinner. The kitchen was such a mess. Princess told me Bruiser has been getting her plate taken away at daycare because she throws her food on the floor. She has been doing it at home and I pop her hand and after the 2ND or 3rd time, I take the plate away. But I want her to eat. It's so hard to be a parent. No 2 weeks notice for this job. I am an indentured servant. It's like one of those senate jobs or whatever where you are hired for life! But the smiles these kids put on my face makes it worth all the frowns.
I love you husband. I wish you'd call me back or email me or something! But I will be patient and continue my positive affirmations. One more day down. This will all be over soon.

Here Comes the Rain Again...

Falling on my head like a memory... Falling on my head like a new emotion... :)
I like that song... And it's pouring in our neck of the woods. All day long with the rain. However, it didn't have such an impact on me this time. Sure it's yucky. But I was in a darn good mood. Did I get some sleep last night?
I enjoy sitting next to our backfill. He is married with 7 kids, 2 are from an ex, he calls her an idiot when he gets off the phone with her. He told a customer today on a manager take over that what they were saying doesn't even make sense. And sometimes, when they are really crazy, when he gets off the line with them, he'll call them a "suck egg monkey" or an idiot. Or when you ask him a question about something another rep did wrong, he'll go, "well first off, they're an idiot and secondly"... the answer to your question. He says it all in fun, he takes no crap from credit hogs and crazy people, but he knows the job and for the most part he's genuinely nice to the customers... Today he was in a mood. So I was cracking up all day.
I won 2 free movie tickets for selling a Direct TV also. And I had some revenue today. No really bad customers... Brought tuna fish and crackers from home for lunch. It was an OK day at work. Best part... Hubby called me, perfect timing. I was at lunch so I could actually talk to him! :)
When I got off at 4:30, went to the post office to check mail and double check on setting up claim for the laptop I mailed to husband. Said I have to call 1800 number to get help and fill out form online. The seat belt ticket is 200.00 and if I don't want it to show up on my record, deferred adjudication is an extra 30.00. I can do a payment plan, I just have to show up in court and sign the paperwork. Pediatrician left me a message, the kids flu shots are in. So I can take Princess, Cici and Elliebear to get them now. Bruiser and twins have already had theirs.
Stopped and got Long John Silvers for dinner. Since that Sam's fiasco, nothing to take out but hamburger meat (not in the mood for) and I didn't want to go to store in the rain. Now I will have to but, not today. Picked up kids from daycare. No potty accidents today! Everyone had a good day. And I am sending some of the kids artwork to Daddy in his next care package. They make some cute stuff. Paid for next week's daycare...ouch! And that cell phone bill with the international calls on it... double ouch! But it's done.
I was hoping I would get to go to the union contract meeting today at the coliseum downtown. But my Mom didn't get off work in time to come over and I didn't want to leave C and L on a school night with the kids. It was supposed to start at 7:00 and by the time we got home and finished eating, it was 6:45... Hopefully someone who can make sense of the information will have gone and will tell us about it today.
Did some laundry. Watched Transformers 2 with the kids. I was dozing off during some parts but I have seen it so... I really love the movie. Just tired. Right to bed after the movie. (that's why I am blogging the next morning again)
Pretty normal day... Thank goodness. No drama, no tears... I can't wait to see what the kids pictures from daycare look like... LOVING and MISSING my husband more than ever... HATING he is MISSING out on so much. Hang in there, baby! It'll be over before we know it!

What Doesn't Kill You...

Will make you stronger??? Well, I must have the makings of a superfriend! As hubby puts it, I have been burning the candle at both ends and in the middle and I my first thought is , "this is killing me", but maybe, just maybe, it's giving me buns of steel!
Tuesday... we cut it close. Got everyone off to school and made it to work with 9 minutes to spare. Cici couldn't find her school ID so I had to give her 5.00 to get a new one. I had a decent day at work. Better than yesterday- sales wise. Stan made it a point to announce to everyone as a reminder we only had one person yesterday who wasn't over 100.00 in revenue... That would be me. I was kinda pissed off about that but I tried to sweep it under the rug with all the other At&t crap. I know the pile will get so big under there that one of these days, nothing else will fit. May have to get a new rug... Still want to do the nursing thing.
I was actually typing this blog while Princess and Bruiser were fighting over who got to sit on my back and comb my hair. Nice thing is I was blogging on my cell phone in bed. How great is technology for lazy people? I didn't have the energy to sit at the desk or to break out the laptop after my 8.75 hr shift at work and all that happened afterwards.
Everyone seemed to have a good day at school. Princess wet herself for like the 3rd time in the last 2 weeks. I had a talk with her about being a big girl. We'll see what happens. I don't know whats up with her doing that. Called OBGYN. Got appointment set for Dec 4, Friday at 3:45 PM. Yeah! Getting off early that day to go get my insides poked around in. :)
Went to a total of 3 Walmarts in last week as well per hubby's request to find work gloves. I can not find them in an XL, so I am sending a L pair that seemed a bit big on my hand so, hopefully they will work. Got the Transformers 2 movie on bluray... when I will have time to watch it is another story. I still haven't seen the last 2 weeks of Desperate Housewives I recorded and I missed Dexter on Sunday. I forgot to take something out again for dinner. Tired anyway. I know that is awful but cooking really really is a lot when I have hungry kids surrounding me at the stove and Cici and Elliebear are trying to do homework and every one's crying or arguing with each other. I just avoided the stress today and got Little Caesars pizzas and bread sticks. They were happy. We ate rather late though.
After going to Walmart, I stopped at Sam's to use the 300.00 gift card hubby sent me in the mail! Yeah! Thanks baby! But... for some reason the card wasn't activated and the receipt, which I didn't think I'd need, was at home on the kitchen table. So after walking around Sam's with all the kids and getting a basket full of meats and veggies, the card didn't work! I was so super annoyed. The only way to fix it is to bring the receipt in and have them transfer the balance to a new card.
So added to the list o' shit to do is a redo on Sam's plus standing in line at customer service. I also have to call Pantego tomorrow about that ticket to find out about the fine or court or whatever they do. I put my contact lenses script in at Walmart today. Picked up hubby's as well to send off. I got the kids all some new pillows. Just the little cheapos, 2.50 each marked down for now. I will have to wait for JC Penny's to have another white sale so I can get everyone some good ones.
I have Boo at the Zoo this weekend. I am excited about it because of the opportunity to get out with the Seabee wives again. But I know it's gonna be work with the little ones. It's from 5:30-8 so not too bad. Just have to make sure they are fed before going and hopefully it will be fun. I was happy for MM and JW today. They got flowers from their hubbies. I love it when our guys find the time in their long crazy days to do things for us. Care packages both ways. It's awesome. Thanks to all the hubbies that are loving us from afar and showing it!
Got a phone call from husband's sister in GA. Gave her hubby's email and mailing address. She just wanted to see how he was doing. Hope she is able to mail or email him. That may be nice. I told her I would send her some of the kids pictures when I get them.
Let's see... what else...I changed my sheets and did laundry. Got trash out for tomorrow morning. Filled up the truck today. Ate at Taco Cabana for lunch. They had a 3.00 Cabana Bowl. Beef fajita meat and fixings in a taco shell. It was ok. Cici and I want to start running together. I still haven't found a dance or gymnastics class that both Princess and Ellie can attend on the same day. But Princess shows some potential already. I think with a little help, she can get on beat but her moves are not that bad. I would love to see that string bean in a ballet recital. Honey!!! She is just at my bust line and she is 4! Tall, beautiful girl! The twins are their usual crazy selves. Did I mention Pinky has eyeteeth coming in on the bottom? And she and Bubba are in cahoots now when it comes to sleeping, or not...
That's all I can remember from today. I wasn't too bummed out. Wasn't overly happy either. Just kind of tired. I didn't get to hear honey's voice... That stinks but otherwise, I am glad another day is down and I am one day closer to having the love of my life home.

What a Weekend!!!

I broke a promise I made to myself! Blog every day. And much to my surprise, my other half, Mr. Hubbyman, actually missed it! Who knew he'd look forward to it each day. So I shall try not to do that again, my love. We don't need my baby worrying about me. I got an email and a phone call, "there's a disturbance in the force" because I haven't blogged! I love you honey. It was a busy weekend, but I'm back on track!

Let's see if I can remember it all...

Saturday...
started off pretty normal. Got to email with hubby in the morning. That is always nice. I went to liquor store to get the vodka to go with the pomegranate martini mix and went to get some more laundry detergent... Lots of laundry done.
At&t came to check the land line. Said we have inside wiring problem originating from jack near TV in living room. He was going to charge time sensitive charges to come in and look which was ridiculous... $99.00 first 30 minutes and 15.00 each additional or something retarded. I was like my phone is only 20.00 a month. I will add a maintenance plan and wait 30 days for it to kick in. It will only be 5.00 extra on the land line and I still have dial tone on the other jacks in the house. Or at least on the fax machine. I haven't had time to check the bedroom yet. He had to clip some wire at the box outside...

Mom came over that evening to help keep the kids while I went to Jo's party. I had invited Dasia to go, but she didn't show up. So, whatever... But I did have fun anyway with Jo... while she was away playing hostess, I also ran into Dana (the one I went to lunch with the other day) and Karen from 1st floor. Had lots of laughs and the pomegranate-tinis were delicious!

I dressed up as a vampire, black "pleather" dress and boots and had fangs (which kept falling out of my mouth) and pale face with fake blood... It was awesome. There were some strange costumes there... Not all Trublood, but lots of vampires. I went as a Fangoria patron... :)

Left at midnight. Went home and was sooo tired that I didn't feel like blogging! Sorry, Babe! I stayed up til 3:30 in the morning watching TV with my Mom, who spent the night. Got up early to take her home (8 AM) cause she had to go to work on Sunday.

Sunday...
Planned on going back to bed after dropping Mom off but ended up starting some chores. I had to get dinner prepared fairly early because I had an engagement to attend... I can't tell you, honey, everything about the day just yet... I hung out with several Seabee wives. They are a cool bunch of ladies. So many different backgrounds and personalities but we all got a long... I have a surprise for you! So you will hear about it later...
Anyway, this event lasted much longer than I anticipated so I was really tired by the time I got home... Completely wiped out. Michelle and Samantha had come by for a bit.
The weekend was kind of a blur. That was the major stuff. I may not remember everything I was thinking and feeling which is why I am mad at myself for not blogging. I will try my best not to make that mistake again. I must say though that for the most part... I had a good weekend. I was too busy to let the Blue get in. I was really tired but my spirits were up...

Monday...
Today was extra crappy. I am not in a funk per se, mostly just really tired. I had a horrible sales day at work. Stan observed my calls. He didn't say yet I did anything wrong but I am sure he will look for something. I took the old coffee pot to work. It's under my desk. :) Everyone could smell it and they were like man it smells strong. I was only making it the way hubby does. :)
I am sitting now with Pinky in my lap. What a change! Princess and Bruiser had melatonin after McDonald's and are out... Pinky has lower eyeteeth coming in. So I think she is not feeling well. I gave her some baby aspirin as well. But she doesn't want to sleep.
I forgot to take something out again today. And I totally didn't feel like cleaning up after a dinner mess at home. We went to McDonald's and ate there and I let the kids play for about 20 minutes or so. I must say though I was tired, the sound of their laughter made me smile. Home by 8:00. Baths for little ones and Elliebear and CiCi both washed their hair so I helped them blow dry, etc.
Cici lost her ID badge... It's somewhere in the house but she thinks one of the little ones put it somewhere. Maybe in the trash. Who knows. I am going to just give her 5.00 to replace it. I am tired of looking for it. Told her to keep it in her locker at school at the end of each day instead.
Ellie practiced her violin tonight. She has been slacking recently. Little ones had a good day in school. I forgot to add inline on the home phone. Must remember tomorrow! I also need to call about that ticket I got for C's seatbelt or lack there of as well. And my OBGYN called to say my appt needs to be moved so I have to call them back. And I just realized I forgot to start up the BC again to control Mary... UGH. I have so much to do!
Well, I am still much in love with my wonderful husband. I am still missing him leaps and bounds. I am still praying for his safety and I am still trying to stay positive.
I may be able to get to sleep before midnight! I guess I am done with this 3 day blog.

Cry Baby!

I was so upset and emotionally drained today. Today started off to not be a very good Friday. But it had a great highlight.

L forgot it was picture day... I scrambled to get her into something decent and then lost the first check I wrote to pay for the package so had to write another. True enough it's somewhere in the house or car, but where? who knows?
Then got a ticket for C not wearing her seatbelt AS WE WERE PULLING INTO THE SCHOOL DRIVEWAY!!! I friggin' hate Pantego's police! They are always out drumming for business! UGH! Stupid cop made the me late taking the kids to daycare so they missed breakfast. I got to work on time though. I don't even want to talk about that anymore.

I sat in the car and cried for about 2o minutes before going into the building today.

Work sucked... No good calls. Stan listened to me. Not too much he could say after hearing what I was dealing with.

The house is a mess... again. I am so tired of the sweeping and scrubbing and mopping and dishes and cooking and laundry. It's just starting to seem like too much. Bruiser is in my ear crying right now because she is sleepy and all I can do is ignore her or I may really snap. She won't stay in bed. She just wants to sit on me and I am not in the mood right now. But I picked her up anyway and now I am typing with a heavy 2 year old sitting on me... I'm uncomfortable but at least she is quiet.

And now Princess has joined her on the other leg...

I fried talapia for dinner with mixed vegetables and tater tots. I am so very sleepy. I have so much to do. After today, I just want to ball up somewhere and cry myself to sleep. I don't want to clean. I don't want to be bothered.

The best part of my day... I went to check my mail and I had the best letter from my husband. It was sweet. So very sweet and romantic and I cried while I read it. But happy tears. I miss that man sooo much.
I also went to Walmart today. Found the soap dish, work gloves and a Cinderella "Barbie" doll that I am giving Princess for Christmas.
I am so glad it's Friday. I really don't think I could take another day with work and home combined into one shitball. I am going to try and savor the weekend as much as I can because I know it will be over before I know it.
I am glad time seems to be flying by. I can't wait to have the husband in my arms again.

And in this corner... wearing the black trunks...

I am in the fight! I am feeling pretty good mentally. I am physically tired as all get out... what does that mean anyway... "(blank) as all get out"... who came up with that madness?
Anyway, I had a busy busy day. Got to work on time. Yeah! This is an accomplishment with all I go through in the morning. That's why I must mention it every day. Work was OK while I was there. Time did seem to drag a bit though. I got off at 12 PM with appt time. Went to both post office boxes to check mail. Stopped at husband's bank, then my bank to deposit money. Went to get Bruiser for her doctor's appointment. Got there and was told that because she is sick (still fighting that cold), they didn't recommend doing it today. So she still has the tubes. Dr. Tong said it won't hurt to leave them in a couple extra months but he didn't want them to close up since she is congested right now. Said mucus will clog up the openings and may cause infections. So we left them in.
Took her back to school. Went to Wally World and ordered your contacts, hubby. They have changed their system. They now order through 1 800 CONTACTS and will keep expiration date on file, etc. 139.98 for a 6 month supply. I forgot the work gloves but I will get them when I pick up lenses. Still looking for right kind of soap dish for hubby. Also the cameras hubby ordered came today. Will be sending him a camera. It's cute! Thank you Thank you Thank you! You know how I love to take pictures! That was an awesome gift!
I got some emails from Hubby. He tried to call me but the connection was sooo bad that I could only pick out some I love yous and the rest was just muffled sound or dead air. I was happy with the emails back and forth though. Hubby makes me laugh all the time. Oh, hubby, if you are reading, Lolita says hello.
I debated on going back to work after leaving Walmart. Decided against it. Had alot to do. Went home and did some cleaning. Thinking about rearranging furniture. The radio by the back door has "gone out" or something. The volume shuts way down on its own. But I think the radio originally belonged to Moses. He was listening on the arc so it's about time it pooped out on us.
I was listening to music while cleaning. I got the paperwork done for the child care subsidy program and then realized ATT hasn't fixed our no dial tone problem. So I can't fax it off just yet. That ticked me off. I want it done so they can pay all or part of the day care bill! Att says because of all the rain they are behind on tickets.
I gave L permission to join "beach club" which is a non-school affiliated and non-denominational Christian group for 3-6 grades @ their school. They are supposed to learn about the Bible, sing, play... She came home and told me she enjoyed it. It's on Thursdays from 3:30-4:30 after school in the cafeteria.
C was supposed to go to tutoring after school today but she came home with some excuse about the football players being in there or something. I am going to have to email the teacher to find out what the f she's talking about.
Made chicken helper with peas for dinner. Also cornbread. Easy and they liked it. Princess kept saying "I hate peas" though. She did a pretty good job considering.
I have had a muscle relaxer and a naproxen. My back hurts and my head was pounding. And the kids were soooo clingy tonight. All of them wanted me to hold them and they kept climbing on me and I was getting so frustrated. I yelled at them and I felt bad afterwards cause I know they just want to spend time with me but GEEZ, sometimes I just can't... I just need to breathe.
Twins were in bed by 9 and Bruiser and Princess about an hour ago conked out in girls' room.
SO I MAY HAVE THE BED TO MYSELF TONIGHT!
Back to the day... At about 5:00 I remembered the brake light on the truck my brother had told me was out. I went to his place and he tried to get it to work but the bulb just wouldn't come on. So, I am thinking it is a fuse or a short or something that would cause it to not work even with a new bulb. Brother also suggested that since the bulb was supposed to be universal and didn't work, to see if they have to be factory bulbs or something. Any suggestions hubby?
I will send out the funnies since my first paper came today! I had to call them before my shift started at work today but I think she got it all taken care of. I hope so. Then went to get kids from daycare. They had fun as usual and made some things for Dada.
Once home, we ate. They had a bath. I sat my butt down and watched Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice. My Thursday night TV. This guy asked his girlfriend on the prior, says: Are you in a dark and twisty place? Do you have the dark and twisties? That made me smile. I love it! Cause I get the dark and twisties sometimes... Just never would have put it that way... Just would have called it blue...
After TV time was over, dishes and sweeping. You know, the usual. And a load or two of laundry. washed, dried, folded and put away... So now it's after midnight. I finally figured out how to change the time on this blog so it accurately posts. That was driving me nuts being on some Eastern time zone or whatever before... And I am ready to go to bed. I love you, my beautiful, wonderful, sweet, kind, thoughtful, romantic, amazing, handsome and generous husband. Thanks for taking care of me from afar. I wish you were only 9 hours away too.
I got at Wally World my fangs and some purple glitter makeup and some white facial makeup and some fake blood. Gotta get ready for Jo's party on Saturday. But first I must make it through tomorrow. It's Friday!
Ring the bell... I am ready to kick ass and take names! I am going in! DING!!!

Hello Darkness My Old Friend...

I am not really in a dark place today. I just have that song by Simon & Garfunkel stuck in my head. I am really trying to get it out, it's just not working... So, since it was on my mind...
I must say today was exhausting. More so than normal. Or maybe it was yesterday that was exhausting and that's why I feel like this today...
I hit the snooze button, no actually I turned off, the alarm this morning and I guess my body was like forget that, I need some sleep. Then the trusty old blackberry email indicator went off at 6:48 and I was up and at 'em!
Made it to work on time. Luckily didn't have to be there til 8:15 this AM. I pigged out today. I had two crab salad sandwiches, small ones, but still 2! I had a huge bag of sea salt and vinegar chips and a Pepsi with it. I ate a snickers for breakfast with my coffee and I had two helpings of hamburger helper for dinner with a big salad. I think that the sleepier I am, the more I eat. I must do something about that!
Jo's Halloween party is on Saturday. I haven't the makings of a costume yet. She actually found some bottles of Trublood she is serving. She said she thinks it's just like red soda though. We are supposed to, as always, bring a dish. I think I am going to bake a butter pecan cake. Or maybe I will just buy something.
I found L's blonde wig to go with her Alice costume and I got her some thigh high black tights to wear with it. It's gonna' be cute. Will be sure to send hubby some pics. I also got in the mail today the DVD of husband reading the Dr. Suess book "oh the places you'll go". At the end of the story, there was extra time on the DVD so he just said some sweet random things to the kids. Princess and Bruiser were GLUED to the TV and so happy! Ellie Bear was having a blonde moment. I laughed so hard because I was explaining SKYPE to her, if ever we get to use it, a few weeks ago and she didn't see me put the DVD in, so when she entered the room, she was like, can he see us? LOL. It was too funny! I was like, through the TV L? C'Mon... She finally got it.
Oh, and cousin M says to tell you hi... In case I forget when I talk to you again, hubby!
Went to the library after work before picking up kids from daycare to print that application out. I gave the daycare their part to fill out so I can fax it in. Getting things done slowly but surely.
I remembered to take something out for dinner. That was an accomplishment I must say I was proud of today.
They have come to an agreement on our contract at work. It is going to be decent. They are making us pay health care over a 4 year period. Free 2010 like now, 30 a month/pay period (not sure which right now), we are getting pay increases though over that 4 year span so it will help with the costs. It goes up each year though... It has been suggested that we do flex accounts for medical by the union. They are also going to have a deductible... I believe 700.00 annually for a family. I will have to get the link so you can read it, hubby and post it on next blog or something. All those temp reps who got hired are going to 60/40 pay. So they will be totally reliant upon SMITS. There's more. Let me find the site and send to you, hubby. I am just glad all this threatening to strike and bargaining is over.
I have cleaning to do. But I figured I will get some sleep so tomorrow will be better for me mentally and physically. I can't function properly when I am this sleepy and I just want to go off on ignorant people, which unfortunately is the bulk of my contacts each day.
I have to take Bruiser to get her tubes taken out tomorrow at 1:30. Simple in-out office procedure so I figured I will just come home after and clean. Or I may go back to work so I can have that little bit of extra appointment time in case I need it later in the month. Either way, tomorrow is Thursday. One day closer to Friday! I am ready for the weekend though I am not ready for all I have to do this weekend. It's gonna be a busy one.
Melatonin is not working tonight. Bruiser and Princess are both in my bed fighting with each other and crying and it's making me so frustrated so I guess I will turn off the lights and fight and cry with them...
I love you, hubby. Hope to hear your voice soon. Thanks for that DVD. It was a great idea and the kids really loved it. Bruiser actually tried to follow along in the book for a bit. And it was sooo good to see your face! You need a haircut by the way! :)
Off to bed I go... to enjoy "the sound of silence"... (they fell asleep and the song is still stuck in my head! too perfect!)

No Rest for the Weary...

It's only Tuesday and I am so wiped out. It wasn't a bad day. We had training at work most of the day so not too many nuts on the phones. I was so sleepy though. I just haven't been getting enough sleep. I am up late right now filling out that child care subsidy application because if I put off till tomorrow what can be done today... You know the saying.
Everyone got off on time again today. That is always a blessing because I am so stressed about getting there on time. Mary was nicer to me today as well. Still a nuisance but a bit nicer none the less.
We had chili dogs and chips today. Quick and easy. And some left over roast. Husband called me this evening. I was so happy to hear from him. I just completely lit up! I got flowers from him today! Finally, they showed up. They were absolutely beautiful! Multicolored roses, red, yellow, peachy-orangish, and hot pink. I love them and I love the hubby!
It rained today. A lot! We had an hour lunch today so I went to Pei Wei with Tara, Angelica, Lolita, Shelly and Dana F. It was a nice ladies lunch. Tara drove some of us and she drives like a lunatic. :) I said "I like the way you drive" when the others were talking about it. And she said "thanks for thinking I drive good" and I said "I didn't say anything about it being good. I just said I liked it" and everyone laughed.
Got Ellie bear her Halloween costume this evening. She is going to be Alice from Wonderland... It's a cute costume. Cici still hasn't said she wants a new costume so... I have no idea what I am going to be this year. Guessing still that black dress for Jo's party. I don't have time to shop for a costume for me right now.
I finally got that childcare subsidy application done and must print the application and fax along with check stubs and orders and the adobe and my printer are not jiving. UGH.
On that note. I am going to bed. I hope hubby has an excellent day wherever he is and whatever he is doing. I am hoping he gets his laptop soon. And I am loving him from the other side of the world.

Some Mondays just stink...

Today was not so hot. It had one good point. I got to talk to the hubby tonight. It was about 7 PM here, 3 AM there. Said he was having a weird dream that he bought a boat from a guy and could never use it cause the guy was always on it. So he woke up and went to the bathroom and saw the phones were free and I got my call! I was so happy to hear from him after the day I had.
I got everyone off to school on time. The kiddos all looked so cute in their white turtle necks and jeans. My little troop. I love those kids. I can't wait to see what their pictures look like. Bubba had chocolate on the neck of his shirt by the time we got to school. I broke down and gave him a cookie this morning. I was trying so hard to keep him out of the way while I got everyone ready. Same goes for all of them but he was the only messy one. Ms. Tish (the assistant director) said that it went well with the photo shoot though.
I went to Target tonight. Bought a beautiful new coffee pot. It was on sale. I had to. Its black! Yes! A Black and Decker. It matches our other small appliances now. YAY! The other highlight of my day...
There was the whole fiasco with the roast. I DID forget to put it in the crockpot this morning... Luckily CiCi remembered though so dinner was ready! I tried to call home several times today but the phone kept going to voicemail. Then when I got here, L tells me that there is no dial tone. I check all house phones. Sure enough. It's dead except for the Spanish radio station I hear in the background. So they are supposed to have it repaired by Thursday.
Today was awful for me at work. I had a bit of revenue but I swear 9 out of 10 of each of my customers was inbred. It was ridiculous how incredibly slow they were... Or were at least pretending to be so I would give them credits or something... Let's hope the latter. If not, I am so going to lose faith in humanity... At least we have training tomorrow from 8-2:30 so, no idiots to converse with for most of the day.
My cycle is here and it was sooo heavy today that it made it so uncomfortable to do anything. I am cramping something terrible. I have taken a muscle relaxer and a naproxen tonight so hopefully that will help. I am getting terribly sleepy right now though.
Nothing good is coming out on DVD tomorrow. Drag Me to Hell, which I saw at the theatre... But I can live without seeing that one again. It was ok... Maybe I will get it. Next Tuesday... Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen! :) Can't wait for Bluray on that one. There was a romantic comedy, The Proposal, that I wanted to see but I cant watch those when hubby isn't here. It makes me depressed. Is that selfish or sad or something? Not wanting to see other couples happy and together? :)
I got an email from my friend BC from Baylor. She is having string of bad luck occurrences and she titled the email... A nap in the dirt. I worry about her. However, she did want to make plans to go to a pumpkin farm in the Metroplex and offered to help me watch the kids. That's an idea. MM wanted to go to one as well before Boo at the Zoo.
Anyway, I can't think of anything else of importance from today. It was a pretty shitty day for the most part, but the kids were pretty good. Melatonin tonight so they are asleep, though Bruiser and Princess are in my bed right now.
Goodnight, sweet husband. Or Good morning... I wish you could fly away with me... You have given my heart wings. Whenever you get a chance to read this and start/end your day... I am hoping you're left with a huge, warm fuzzy... I love you! And your huge, warm fuzzy too!

Your mission, should you choose to accept it...

I am a military wife... A Seabee wife... I accept this mission... And this message will not self destruct... :)

I must say that this weekend was different. I was around so many people. I feel a bit overwhelmed but I feel good. I just drank a whole pot of coffee in the last 3 hours. I recorded Desperate Housewives to watch later... Yeah right. But I gave up my Sunday TV and drank coffee so I would have the energy to clean. Yes, it required time and caffeine.

I went to the grocery store this morning. Had to buy a paper today... So gotta call them and ask them if they are stupid or something. Bought a couple of roasts and Kroger had a good deal. If you bought a thing of their precooked beef baby backs, you got a free lb of potato salad, a free 2 liter of Big K soda, a free bag of Dole salad ( I had to add onions and tomatoes), and a free 4 pack of Hawaiian rolls. The ribs were 9.99. I got 2 of them and dinner was ready! I also put one of the roasts and all the fixings in the crock pot and its in the fridge, ready to go on in the morning so dinner will be ready when I get home. That is, if I remember to put the crock in the pot... :)

I swept the kitchen, hall and living room. Did I don't know how many loads of laundry. Dishes. Baked some cookies with L. Chocolate chip walnut... Delish! Cleaned the little one's room. New sheets for everyone, etc. Cleaned up dinner mess- high chairs, etc. And I am not tired yet... But I bet as soon as my head hits the pillow, I'll be out!

I got some emails from honey this morning. That was nice. I was telling him about the FRG meeting and some of the goings-on... He is glad I am getting involved I think this time. Last deployment, I just put myself in a box and waited for it to be over.

I got to see the "compound" (didn't even know that's what it was called) where husband works. Or part of it, I guess. I was telling him how I felt like I didn't know as much as the other wives because husband doesn't tell me anything. And his response? "I don't know what you're talking about"... Silly man!

If you are reading this, husband... I can fit into your blue scrubs now! :) And Mary is here to visit. Great. It's gonna be a great week I see. I am so not excited about the overtime.

This morning was crazy. My Grandpa had a street named after him. I tried so hard to make it on time to the dedication ceremony. It is also my family church's 100 year anniversary. They have kind of been celebrating all year. But today was a biggie with special guest speakers and stuff. Pinky spilled a cup of water on herself the first time we tried to get out of the door. This was after the whole fiasco with Ellie only being able to find one of her dress shoes and Bruiser taking off her shoes and socks and having to take the little braids out of Bubba's hair and breakfast and finding clothes for everyone and...

Then Bubba decides he wants to relieve himself in the worst way... All the way up his back... So had to change him completely. Needless to say we got there right at the end of it.

I did however get to see lots of family from all over the place. I got to hear lots of people say good things about my Grandpa at the service afterwards. I got to meet a city councilman and some other folks that are supposed to be pretty important. It was a nice thing. The kids behaved pretty well. Bubba thinks he can sing gospel music and Pinky, Princess & Bruiser like to dance and clap to it. I didn't get to spend as much time with my aunt from California as I would have liked. Maybe I will get to see her tomorrow or something but I was really tired and ready to get prepared for tomorrow.

The kiddos are taking pics at daycare. They are all wearing the same color blue jeans and white turtle necks. All I could come up with on short notice and short funds. :) But I am sure they will look super cute. The photographer is going to take pics of them separately and one of them all together (that one with a Christmas background.) Just hope they don't mess up their clothes with breakfast before the pictures are taken. I have all their clothes laid out. C and L are out of school again tomorrow. So far everyone is asleep and hopefully will stay that way. Only Bruiser in my bed right now.

I forgot to mention that I won a door prize at the FRG meeting... a window decal that I actually almost bought the day I got hubby's tshirts at the military clothing store. That was too funny. It must have been destiny. It's so cute. I says "1/2 my heart is in (where hubby is)"...

I will end on that note... Half my heart is with my hubby. As half of his heart is with me... And today I remember! We are one!
Being this military wife means that there are times when the hubby will miss out on important things. I wish he could have joined me today. Not only because it was important to me. As I loved my Grandparents more than he may possibly know. It was special. But I also could've used his help as well getting all these munchkins out of the house on time. Today was just kind of chaotic for some reason.
Being a military wife means emails or phone calls instead of sleep. I gladly gave up my extra 45 minutes of sleep this morning as those emails started rolling in. Thank Goodness for the Blackberry phone and it's loud ass email notification beep! :) Call me or email me anytime you can, baby!
Being a military wife means spending cold and rainy nights cuddled up with their 2 year olds instead of their husbands (as I am about to do). The rain is pouring down, Daddy and we miss you!
And now that I am overly emotional and the tears are falling like the rain... I guess I will cry myself to sleep knowing in my heart that this will all be worth it someday... I love you, husband. So very very very much.

A long and lovely day

I had a really good day. It took a lot out of me... But what day doesn't. I didn't get to hear from Daddy today. But it's ok. I know he's thinking of me. I don't have that blue feeling this time. Maybe it's because I was out and around people without being in a cubicle and having to sell things to people all day...
Got up this morning. Cereal for kids. The normal random clean up. Which included the kids because Bubba and Pinky decided to put their bowls on their heads when they were done. Then did my hair, put twins down for a nap & went to meet MM at QT... Took her on to base with me because her car is in shop that has sticker.
Went to FRG meeting. What a wonderful group of ladies I met today. JW was there, so I had already met her. But so many others. It was a decent showing of wives who all seemed to love their service members at least a third as much as I love mine... ;) Just kidding. I love this supportive bond. A couple of them I had "met" with on FB but it was nice to put a real face to their online personas.
When I got home, you should've seen the mess that was there. I left C and L in charge while I was gone for that 3 hour period. And of course everyone was hungry. So I made waffles (0ut of Jiffy Corn Muffin Mix because we were all out of Hungry Jack), eggs (my Southwestern style with bell peppers, onions, cheese and tomatoes), grits and bacon. After the GREAT SYRUP ADVENTURE 2009, the twins and Bruiser needed a bath. I have been busy all day at this point and I was so upset because I was going through in my head what I could have put off because I thought we were going to be late to MM's house for her 1 yr old's bday celebration.
Turns out, they were just arriving home not too long before we got there which was about 7:30 PM. We ate lasagna ( I asked for the recipe because it was very good), salad, and cheese bread. And afterwards had cake and ice cream. The kids all seemed to have fun playing with her little ones and of course finding new things at someone else's house to get into.
I met MM's mom, aunt and uncle, Dad, and nephew. She has a really nice family. It was a little bit of a drive to get there and back. But we got home about 10:30. Tried to put everyone down but I guess we are off track a bit. It's now 4 minutes til midnight and the twins won't go to sleep. Bruiser and Princess are tired but hanging in there. And I have to muster up the strength to clean and deal with the hoopla tomorrow for my Grandpa's street naming ceremony.
I told the girls about it. They thought it was so cool and sounded so excited to go. Which means I am going to have to pack all the kids up to go in the cold. But it's an important piece of our family history so...
I really hope I get a Sunday paper tomorrow or I am going to have to call them a second time to complain about my subscription not starting. UGH. I hate it when more crap piles itself on my plate! Well, seeing how I keep dozing off, I guess that's a sign that I should go to bed now. Wake up early and get as much as I can done, then go to the thingy.
I wish my hubby was here. There's so much I want to share with him... Some of which can only be done in his physical presence... :) I love you, hubby of mine.

And Here We Go!!!

It is now 2:08 AM. I had a very long day... Obviously... But not too bad. C and L were out of school today. Did I mention that L made the A/B honor roll? Cici is failing math, English, and Texas History. I am going to volunteer her time for tutoring after school for math. The teacher stays and does it every day except Wednesday I believe... I am proud of them both, for different reasons... Anyway, it was teacher's in-service day or something. So I only had to get the little ones ready for school. That went fairly smoothly. Except for all the winter coats are God knows where so I had to super bundle them because it got cold today! I have been stopping at Thrift Town the last few days to see what kind of stuff I could find cause I am trying to super budget while I get caught up on stuff. I stopped again today after work/before getting them from daycare. I found them some more sweatshirts and pants. I only spent 12.60 with my coupon. :) And I got a big bag full of stuff! I also went to Target this evening and found C & L each a sweatsuit and got a few turtle necks and jeans for the kiddos. Not everything from the thrift store... :) But they are just so rough on clothes! And they paint and all at school so I don't want to spend a lot at this age on clothes. I am finally learning to leave that Dillard's card alone! But I have to get them ready for the cold weather. It's not optional... :(
After work, stopped by KFC. I again forgot to take something out to eat. Plus I was really tired after work. I also felt kind of frustrated. Surely because I was tired. So I decided to go to the movies. I had a free ticket from my movie watcher club membership that was going to expire on 10- 16 so I decided to use it to see the movie "9". I thought it was pretty good. It is strange, kind of sad... But that's Tim Burton for you. He actually didn't write it, only produced it...
I found a really cool screen saver on the laptop. It's of this dead tree. It's in black and white and it made me think of a poem I want to write. I haven't finished it yet. Still working out the details on what I want to say. But it was kind of inspiring. Weird, I know...
Husband called me today from his cell phone! That's awesome! Our international rates are a nightmare. The last cell phone bill had 104.00-ish in international roaming charges on it plus the regular bill... But it was so worth it to talk to my honey. He didn't sound as tired today. Thought he was kidding with me when he told me a story about someone named "Harry Johnson"...
I found out that my husband sent me flowers and per FTD they were delivered on 10-02 and signed for by someone named Jose??? Well, after much ado, they are going to reship the order to me and I should have it on Tuesday.
Things are coming up so fast... The FRG Xmas party planning meeting is tomorrow. MM's baby girl's b-day party is tomorrow. Work all week except for on the 15th I have to take Bruiser to get the tubes taken out of her tear ducts. I can't wait to talk to the doctor cause she is still getting the gunk in her eyes but I think it may be because she has been sick.
Everyone is getting better, by the way! That is such a relief.
I got a letter from TCC saying I need to complete another 4 hours lab science to qualify for graduation... I could have sworn I'd met all requirements so I have to call them up as well. Picture day for the little ones is on Monday. Ellie's is on the 15th. Cici already had hers... Pic of C on way to the hubby in a care package. Jo's party is next Saturday. I am not ready for it at all. Gotta complete costume... She has a Trueblood theme so you have to come as a vampire or a character from the show. Then the 24th is Boo at the Zoo. There's probably some stuff I am missing but...
I can't find my black glasses and I need to order new lenses for both hubby and I. There is no telling where those are if the kids got a hold of them. I am on my last pair of contacts. I mailed off a care package for Halloween to hubby today along with a card. I hope he gets them. He got yesterday the 2nd shipment I sent him. But still no laptop. USPS said cant do insurance claim til past 30 days. Hopefully it's collecting dust there and will be placed in hubby's hands soon.
I think my insomnia may be wearing off. I was waiting for the laundry while I was up... But I am starting to get sleepy.
Next week I must make a commitment to remember to take out something to cook. I know I will be tired but... I can't afford the fast food anymore. That includes going out to lunch. I haven't had any left overs lately to take to work with me...
ok. I am outta here. Goodnight. And remember, my love, I am always thinking of you...

Another Day Down...

I am so excited to say that I have made it another day! It wasn't a bad day. I had a decent day at work. My honey called me! He sounded so tired. More so than myself. I am so sleepy that this may not go in order but...
I went to the store this evening. Picked up a few items for the house/groceries and also got some stuff for a care package for the hubby. I hope he likes it. I really wanted to include some other types of sweets and things but I am afraid they may melt during shipment... Speaking of shipments... Still no mail! Not from me anyway. He got a package from his mom and I just gave her the address like last week! Where is husband's laptop!?!
Melatonin not working on Bruiser tonight. She's still hanging in there with me. It's only 10:00 but still... She's drowsy though. I admit it... I am going to go to bed as soon as I finish this. Set the alarm for 5:30 and get up and clean up the kitchen in the morning. The girls are out of school tomorrow. They had early dismissal today. And they are off Monday for Columbus day. I wish I had a long weekend like that. I am still taking the little ones to daycare though. Cici I have no problems with in the mornings but Ellie??? Oh man! That means I will not have to worry about getting her up and ready for school.
My aunt Maude called me. She is in town for a special occasion. The church where my Grandfather used to preach is holding a dedication ceremony on Sunday. They are renaming the street after him. That is awesome. My Grandfather was an amazing man. I think hubby would have enjoyed him. I would love to see Maude but she was like, service is at 11:00 and the luncheon is at 1:00 and the ceremony is at 2:30 and... I was like hang on... this sounds like an all day thing. I got tired from listening to her talk about it. Said I may go to the ceremony but the idea of having the kids in one place for that long doesn't sound appealing... Even in honor of my Grandpa. I am just too tired. Who knows... Maybe by Sunday I will be refreshed. I doubt it. I have sooooo much to do still and the weekend will give me the opportunity to do it.
And I have that party planning meeting on Saturday with the FRG group and planning on going to MM's bday celebration for her little girl. I am just spreading myself as thin as I can in hopes that I don't develop holes. And of course there are the chores and laundry to finish. I am just so tired. I must say, I have dozed off at a couple of red lights. No worries. As long as the car is moving I am ok. But today was super difficult on me. I just need one good night of sleep to get me back on track. I should have gone to bed last night while everyone was asleep early but I had again, so much to do. It just isn't fair...
Who said life was fair though, right?
Cici and Ellie both got free tickets to the fair. They must be used on 10-12-09 and it's a Monday... A work day... My first day back with overtime... I don't know. My left wrist is starting to act up again too. Gonna see if they can raise my desk at work.
We officially lost the Bruiser! And Mommy is dozing as we "speak" so I am going to say farewell! Au Revoir! Adios! And some other A-words from other countries I can't spell. :)
I am sending across this time and space
My love in all it's splendor and grace
To form kisses as soft as gossamer lace
That settle upon my lover's sweet face
As I hold him in a tender embrace
A bond that no distance can erase

In other words... Hugs and Kisses to you, my wonderful husband! I love you always!

Music to My Ears...

I would first like to start off by saying it's 10:07 and all kids are asleep. All of them... I took MM's advice. Bought Melatonin from CVS. Not very expensive- 7.99 for 120 pills @ 3 MG each. I gave Elliebear a whole one and Princess and Bruiser split one. Twins and Cici have no problem going to sleep. It was those other ones that have the issues... So the first "music to my ears" is the sound of me typing on the PC and that's it. No crying. No arguing. No hitting each other. No "stop it" as they push keys and I keep having to delete extra letters and start over... You get the idea... I asked the pharmacist. Said it was safe. And MM's pediatrician recommended for her kids so I feel comfortable about it. I am going to have some peace all night I hope... And sleep ALONE in my bed! Now...
Today started off pretty normal. Woke up extra early for some reason, nobody sick, got all kids off to school ok. Got to the daycare and Princess decides to pitch a fit. Doesn't want to take off her seatbelt. Crying and holding me as I am trying to get her to sit down for breakfast. Then she starts with, "I want my Dada," which totally broke mommie's heart. Eventually we got her to calm down enough for me to get out the door, where I immediate went and sat in the truck and cried.
Had to be at work at 8:15. Got here in plenty of time. Crappy day again. Not bad customers, just no sales. Then, I got a phone call from the principal at Elliebear's school. She wanted to tell me that L had consistently been falling asleep in class and had in the past been given permission to go to the bathroom to wash her face if she was sleepy. She ended up falling asleep in the bathroom. We had "words" because she was insisting that the nurse told me about this, but it was honestly the first I had heard of it. And I have to yell at L constantly to take her shower and go to bed each night. She wants to be a night owl... Doesn't work for her... Cici's gums/jaws hurt from her trip to the orthodontist yesterday. Other than that, twins still coughing a bit, runny noses, but everyone seems to be in good shape. Momma is tired. Oh so tired...
When I got off, went to L's first orchestra concert. It was pretty quick. Mrs. Garrett, the instructor made a funny. She had invited past students from 7-12th grades to come and play the first song. She said she did that so that parents of 5th graders would have some hope! LOL! She's sweet. Same one Cici had when she took violin. They sounded perfectly terrible. It wasn't so bad. But after only playing since the end of August, I think they did a good job. That was the other music to my ears...
We ended up going to CICI's Pizza with the orchestra to "celebrate" a job well done. It was so crowded and I hated to eat pizza two nights in a row but... I want my kids to be happy... And I didn't feel like going through the whole "clean up after dinner" process tonight. It was too much of a "day" for me.
Same wish as always, the best music to my ears would now be to hear honey's voice. I did get some emails from him today. Back and forth the whole time I was at lunch. And I am happy about that. The morning was terrible, but this evening is totally making up for it.
I am going to do a few chores, then it's off to dreamland for me as well. I am hoping honey gets his laptop soon. I am starting to worry. They said 10-14 days and today was day 14. I am ready to SKYPE with him. And I think it would do the kids a lot of good too, especially after that episode with Princess this morning. Man, I have so much to do! To be continued...

A bright and Rainy Day!

The 6th day of October... I am so excited that I have committed to this blog each and every day. I am up late again this evening and I feel as though I got nothing accomplished, though I know I did...
Bruiser and Princess are keeping me "company" and at the same time, making sure this blog entry takes twice as long as it should.
Anyway... It rained today. Went to work from 8-9:15 and then went and picked up CiCi from school, took her to dentist for her brackets to be replaced and new bands put on. They say she is still not brushing very well. I don't know what else to do about it besides brush her teeth for her... She picked black and orange in the spirit of Halloween for her bands. Next time she goes, 11-24, she will get those elastic bands that connect the top and bottom teeth, provided she is in good shape...
Went home for about half an hour and Cici walked PacPac. I did a little straightening up. Dropped Cici back in time for her lunch. I stopped at Thrift Town again. Found a few more cold weather items, including 2 brand new Barbies- still in the box. Putting away for Christmas I went back to work at 12:15. For lunch, 1 hour today, went to PeiWei. Had a Japanese teriyaki bowl and a cup of hot and sour soup. Delicious! I won a 5.00 GC to PeiWei from a contest last week. :) Went to check the mail and to the bank as well. Back to work from 2-5.
The daycare called me to say little Bubba had a slight fever and they were watching him. I love their daycare. It's awesome. They were like finish working. If it gets serious, we'll call you back. So I didn't have to take any time off work.
Picked the kiddos up and came home to see that I didn't have anything thawed for dinner. UGH! Not again. Pappa John's, here I come! While waiting on the pizza, I stopped at Blockbuster, like I would have time to watch a movie... Really just wanted to know what came out today. Nothing good. Went to Dollar General and got 2 umbrellas for the girls. Hubby wants me to get them panchos but they pretty much told me they would be embarrassed and wouldn't wear them. Since they are walking home and this crazy weather doesn't know what it wants to do, I want them to have some protection. Wish I would've thought about it sooner. Picked up pizza, home and everyone is happy.
Then! The most amazing part of my day! My hubby called me and I got to talk to him for 43 whopping minutes! I was so overjoyed! I haven't heard his voice since Saturday. I did get some amazing emails from him. He is so wonderful! I love you, husband!
That is pretty much it. That's the extent of my day. I was in a decent mood. No bad customers... no good ones, but no bad ones is the important thing. Oh. My brother called to apologize for forgetting about yesterday. I told him I would just drive the truck over there tomorrow for him to do it.
Here's hoping to no fevers in the morning and that everyone gets up and does their part to contribute to us getting out of the house on time... Here's hoping to
my honey getting plenty of rest where he can.
Calling it a night.

A bright and Rainy Day

I am on cloud 9... I got to talk to the hubby for about 43 minutes. So it was

Memo to the Husband Unit...

Hello, my dearest husband...
Let me first get out of the way the events of my day... the highlights and low points and all in between... And a warning... today has given me a case of the potty mouth...
I can always say the highlight of my day is hearing from you. I was so indeed excited to get your upbeat emails... I love your sense of humor and the way you can make light of any situation. I was saddened to hear the reason you haven't called is because someone has been lost to this nonsensical war. I felt guilty for being so selfish... I was wanting a phone call from you... Someone else is getting a phone call/visit to tell them they will never hear from/see their loved one again. Ugh. I am not going to say I am any expert on what's going on everywhere else in the world. I try to keep up with current events as much as I can... It's hard enough to keep up with my little family unit's status. I don't know anymore if what we are doing in the middle east is good or necessary or political or financial... I don't care. I just want my husband and everyone else's loved ones home. Safe and sound and dealing with the issues America is facing...
So, thank you... You wonderful man, for checking in to let me know you are OK. I read the email several times throughout the day and each time the rest of it's contents brought a smile to my face. I needed to smile.
Work... I fucking hate that place... pardon my ENGLISH... My first customer was a total DICK. I, as usual, turned him around when he was originally threatening to sue us because he's an idiot... However, his sheer assholery set my mood for the rest of the day. And today, I felt defeated...
There was a contest from (?)Friday (some say) or maybe the whole week (others say) for each double pack (tv and internet) you sold, you went into a drawing for a 25.00 smits card... It's not a lot of money and I didn't even know it was going on. I am kind of in "I just want my paycheck mode so I'll do what I need to to get it, no more, no less." I should have had at least 2 entries. They didn't even put my name in the drawing. I voiced my opinion about the halfassedness of the whole thing and everyone wanted to point the finger at everyone else so I left it alone.
I had another customer who told me from the beginning that she wanted to get credit on her bill. She was upset that her service never works right. She is constantly inconvenienced because she has techs trampling in and out of her home, we even sent a tech supervisor out with the techs to oversee the repairs at one point, and she is tired of spending her time calling us every month. She actually told me that the only reason she stays with At&t is because we credit her bill each month. I went through her records and sure enough, every month since February she has gotten at least 50.00 in credit toward her bill and she also had a retention promotion on her account. I politely told her in so many words. Hell no. The credits stop here (my management style shining through :) ) and that if the service doesn't work, then I recommend she find something that is better for her and her family. She was hot. I wasn't being snooty or snotty or anything. I was being completely honest with her. She was like, "you are telling me you don't want my business?" I said no, I'm not telling you we don't want your business. If we didn't want it we wouldn't have gone through the trouble of sending out NUMEROUS techs and even their supervisors nor would we have credited her in the neighborhood of 700.00 since she got service in February as well as given her retention promotions. I told her that the time comes when you must accept the fact that when a relationship, even with a company, is not working, you should eliminate the stress from your life. She thought I was being a total smart ass just cause I was giving her some free therapy... :) She ended up requesting a manager so Russell, our backfill, is going to call her and basically tell her the same thing. He doesn't give credits. Thank God! I hate managers/bkfls with no backbone...
Then at 4:26, because I was having a shitty sales day, Stan decides he wants to listen to my calls. I was on the phone & I did the "throat slash" symbol or whatever with my hand & said I'm outta here at 4:30. So he goes, well first thing in the morning. I said OK, knowing I have to take Cici to the dentist for her braces in the morning and I have appointment time scheduled. :)
Today, they all get the finger! Today was a hot shit sundae with piss topping!
OK... that was the most I have complained about work in my blogs, I am pretty sure. I don't know what the deal was with the customers and the management today, I mean, the freaking full moon has passed!
Also... I may have mentioned this... my doctor had requested 8 weeks no overtime and disability only approved 2. My case manager told me I would have to file workman's comp to get any additional weeks of no OT. So screw it. I don't have time to mess with it. Fine, I'll work the freaking overtime. And, I am debating on my appointment time tomorrow. They now allow 3 appointments a month with a total of 8 hours off. So Cici's appointment is not until 10. I could go to work from 8-9:30, take Cici with me and let her hang in the break room since the dentist is right down the street from the job... then take her back to school and go back to work after lunch. That way in case I need more time later in the month, I will have that extra 1.5 hours available... Gotta make smart decisions regarding taking time off. I have other stuff I could be doing but...
I decided around break time today I needed some escape time. So it was perfect! I got off at 4:30 (no overtime this week) and went to see Zombieland... which started at 4:30 so I got there just as the last preview was ending... It was hilarious. I really enjoyed it. But as soon as I walked out of the cool and comfortable darkness of the theatre and out into the muggy, soggy, dreary, sunless world... I was right back to into the blue again...
So I had just enough time to get to the daycare and pick up my little ones and I must say that they were so excited to see me that it made me smile. They all came running to me and hugged me. I had 4 kids attached to my legs, all squeezing tight. And I remembered why I put up with At&t. Those little ones of ours are so genuine. Their love for me just burned a hole through me and I smiled the whole way home.
MM (maybe I told you this???) invited us over next Saturday for cake and ice cream for her 1 year old's belated birthday. I would like to go. Also, the Christmas party planning meeting is 1-3 on Saturday. I believe I am going to that as well.
My brother didn't make it by today to change the bulb in the truck. But it's cool if he forgot... I am not in the mood for company anyway. Oh and your mom is coming for Thanksgiving. :)
So once I got home I realized that I forgot, again, to take something out for dinner. So I made salmon croquet patties and tuna helper with corn. Simple and quick and the kids loved it.
It's 9:15 PM and I think this is the earliest I have worked on this blog. I want to call it a night as early as possible. I am in a crappy mood and I think it's partly because I am tired.
Bruiser is in the living room singing "You Belong To Me" by Taylor Swift. So cute! And Elliebear is grounded because she gave herself permission to play with Hannah until I got home from work. Not so cute. Pinky and Bubba have coughs. Bruiser is all congested. But no fevers. No baths tonight for the little kiddos. They weren't super messy so I just wiped them down. I want them well...
I want to close by saying that I am sorry. I know I am supposed to be upbeat and not worry you. I know you have enough to worry about already. However, I want this blog to be as honest as possible. I don't want to sugar coat things. I need you not to worry about me. If I can't handle it, I will seriously tell you. I may have those days when I feel like I can't handle it, but I am your wife. I can handle anything- if I can handle you... :) I love you. I appreciate you for reminding me that I am not alone. Thank you for reading these blogs and putting up with my emotions from afar, as you do when you are here. You are the best. You complete me... WE ARE ONE...
And I am going to try my very best to keep that thought in my heart.
I love you... Goodnight.

One is the loneliest number...

Today was a pretty normal day. That dratted rain was here again. My hair is extra poofy! All kiddos seem well for tonight, just hoping stay that way for school tomorrow. I hate those unexpected "sick kid" mornings. Bruiser is a bit stuffy and snotty though. Fingers are crossed and here's to hoping...
Let's see... we started off with me sleeping til 10! I didn't go to bed until 4 AM so that wasn't spectacular. Only reason I woke up was because little guy was awake. Pinky slept til 1 and Bruiser and Princess got up not too long after Bubba... I just decided to let them sleep. Maybe their little immune systems needed it.
Then I started cleaning again. The rooms I cleaned yesterday, dirty again today. This is standard and I am so tired of it. I got on the scale and saw I gained 6 of those pounds I lost back... and you can tell. They are all in the tummy. So, I decided to make some cupcakes to celebrate...
I found 3 coupons for Thrift Town. 3.00 off your purchase of 10.00 or more so I spent just under 40.00 and got the little ones some warm weather stuff and Cici a shirt. And my frequent shopper punch card is filled! So next time I get 10.00 off a 20.00 or more purchase! :) At the rate they are growing and with the messes they make... I don't want to spend a lot on their clothes. And the stuff I got was actually pretty decent. The kids all stayed home and I went there, to get a newspaper and a dustpan (the old one got broken) and some Church's chicken for lunch. I didn't feel like messing up the kitchen again by cooking. I also stopped at O' Reily's and got brake lights- forgot to mention that my brother told me last night my right brake light was out. He said he'd come by tomorrow and put it in for me.
The newspaper subscription was supposed to start today. So I was truly disappointed to not see it on the front lawn and to not be able to get in touch with customer service on a Sunday. So I emailed them and asked to start it up next Sunday. I enrolled in Auto pay or whatever... So whats the freaking problem? Where's my paper?
I half paid attention to the Cowboys game... they lost to Denver by the way... while I was making dinner. I decided to do that pork roast by marinating it in that Hawaiian marinade hubby bought. It turned out pretty good. I was also attempting to clean out the fridge. I got so much fast food last week I didn't get to use all of my veggies. So they must be cooked in the next few days. So I made cabbage with it and rice. The meat was pretty good. I was wondering how Hawaiian pork would come out... :) I have got to download making dinner to my robot's database so I can stop trying to avoid cooking after work... Robot mode would work awesome for that function.
Lots of facebook posts today regarding getting phone calls and emails from hubbies... Though I was honestly genuinely happy for them, each post drove a tiny nail through my heart. I didn't hear from my hubby today... This is the thing that underlies anything else I am feeling today. I was hoping hubby would get the day off. I was hoping for a phone call or an email or something! But I guess I was the only one who didn't get at least 5 minutes on the phone... Or 5 emailed words... I love you, hubby. No matter what. But I needed that phone call. I feel super lonely today. I feel like an orphan or something. Hence the title of this blog... One is the loneliest number, because I feel I may be the only one who didn't connect with their Seabee today.
That call would've put me on a train to happy going into this work week.
I don't know what else to say. I guess that covers it all. Not like every day is a new adventure around these parts... But we do what we can... I am going to try really hard to count my blessings in the morning and not to dwell on anything that will shade my world that Navy blue... I think hubby knows I am not happy unless I am a little sad. It seems I like having that dark part of me. It makes me creative... but I really do hate being blue... It just makes the days that much longer. This rain and cold weather doesn't help. I just want to cuddle up with you, hubby! For now... I am just one... lonely... number...
I miss you, hubby!

Loving this day

I slept until 8 AM today. The latest I've slept in- in a long while.
But at that point it was time to get the day started. Breakfast? Pancakes, bacon, eggs and grits! Yummy! Dishes, laundry, getting the grits out of Bubba's hair... The normal after meal stuff.
Next, clean the house... again. I promise you I do this every day and it just gets back to the way it was... Sometimes I really wonder what the point is but I have to just get back into robot mode and do it... So I did.
Next, phone calls to At&t... some company added an email service or something to my bill. So I had to call them too. Argued with them about removing it. Asses... Ended up changing my phone plan to save about 16.00 a month. Did some research on website for assistance with daycare. Waiting on hubby's info to complete application for it. I still have a ton of crap to do- paperwork and phone call related.
Next, CiCi's hair. Washed, blow dry, etc. She's so pretty. Gonna be a knockout when she's an adult! That beautiful braces smile! :) Then got twins in bed for a nap around 1. Best Best Best part of the day, though it was short and sweet, got to talk to hubby! He emailed me a couple of times and then called me and I was so happy, overjoyed, ecstatic to hear his voice. Truly the love of my life.
Princess made me cry today. Just a little. I will email to Daddy what did it and mail it to him as well. She drew a picture. She told me to send it to Daddy. When I asked her what it was, she said, "Dada crying." I said, "why is he crying?" And she says, "cus I miss him." GOD, it broke my little heart. And I had been doing so well!
Next, an outing. JW called me. She is another one of the seabee wives. Invited me to a free concert at the Pavilion across from main library. Children's singer named Farmer Jason and his guitar. We were a bit late in arriving (2:30) but we made it. Only Bruiser, Princess, Elliebear and I made it. Cici stayed home with sleeping twins. Glad they didn't go... It rained out (and continued to rain- even now @3:45 AM. But we were able to hear a few songs before leaving. It was my first time meeting her. She is a tiny little thing and so sweet. She brought her 3 little girls and they are adorable. So glad I was able to meet her today. We have decided since both have the kiddos that we can meet at the park or something sometime for play dates. I am looking forward to that.
Next, chicken sandwiches from McDonald's for the kids. Why do they love those things so much! Raviolis for me and the twins for lunch. Once home, clean up the lunch mess and CiCi volunteered to watch kiddos while Bruiser and I took a brief nap. It wasn't a very good one because of the noise but I was so tired I could barely keep my eyes open... literally. Slept from about 5:45-6:30 off and on but I felt better when I got up.
Next, shower and hair and makeup for me. Found one of hubby's uniforms that fit. It was "military dress/colors" themed so... It was perfect. Clean clothes, etc for kids... Everyone ready? Let's go! Pick up my mother. Go to Sharolynne's house to drop off kids with other cousins. They had pizza and icecream waiting. And off to the party for Tim. Lots of family there and some of their friends. Tim is in the army. I didn't know until tonight that he reenlisted. He originally went through boot camp, etc. in 1994. Not sure how long was in that time. They are actually leaving for ?New Mexico? on Monday (or was it Mexico, hmphf...) to do additional training. Just got back from El Paso and have been here for a week.
I also met a really nice young army wife named Jylyan. I talked to her and her husband, Chris for a long while. He joined the army and got out of boot camp last July. This is their first deployment and she had soooo many questions. They seemed to have a really good relationship. She said he was her best friend. They have 2 kids, ages 3 and 4, boy and a girl. He is a 50-gun (?) operator (infantry) and she is oh-so worried about this. I tried to ease her mind. Told her it's OK to cry if you have to, but be strong for her kids. She doesn't work but said she is looking for a job. We exchanged information. I don't mind helping another wife of a service member when I can. I am getting into this whole military wife bit. Thanks honey! Last time I just hunkered up and waited out the storm. This time, I am taking it head on. C'mon you deployment Bastard! I am ready for you! (Embrace the Suck*)
The party started off really slow... If you know my aunt Susan, she does things real big, but they always start late... It was supposed to start at 9 PM and we really didn't get things moving til almost 11:00. Part of it, they had to wait for Tim to get finished at the base. He even had to come in uniform. :( There was a food spread and cake. And it looked like a little boy's birthday party. Everything was decorated with little plastic soldier men and miniature canons and guns and plastic walkie talkies and helmets. It was so cute! My mom and aunt Priscilla danced almost the entire night. They should've been cut off from the bar. :) I had a few beers and some punch spiked with vodka. Not drunk... I mean, I do live with my hubby! :) Love you, Daddy! I am still smiling about your hating that "Betty Ford Clinic" they have you in! LOL!
Susan's ex-hubby who wasn't actually invited but showed up anyway, forced me to dance with him... It was a pretty fun evening. Haven't had a night out like that in a long time... Only thing missing was the hubby. Miss you, Daddy!
It was over at 2 AM, so I picked up kiddos, all of which were asleep, slept in the car on the way home, and got right into THEIR OWN beds when we got home... YAY! As soon as I finish this, I am climbing into bed for some much needed "alone" bedrest! No 2 year old/4 year old knees and elbows in my back! Oh, and I actually had to turn the heater on! Cold weather time!
*Embrace the Suck- MM told me about a blog she found online with that as the title. We both thought it was pretty funny. Now on Facebook later, I saw that her hubby made a comment regarding it- "that's what we do" and later, when my hubby was emailing me, he made reference to "embracing the suck" so, did MM's hubby mention it to my hubby or was it sheer coincidence? The world may never know... But, I do love that... Embrace the suck... HA HA!
It's officially 4 AM. I am outta here! Hubby, wherever you go, whatever you do, I will be right here waiting for you... Who sang that cheesy song that I can so relate to at this moment??? I love you with all my heart, soul, mind and body! I am missing you down in my core! Be safe and u are being loved.
Goodnight...

Thank God and Little Baby Jesus It's Friday!!!

This has been the longest week ever! The first week back full time was full of surprises. The being put on the PN at work. The fevers amongst the kids. The missing out on the fair I was looking forward to attending. The rain coming back. The first days of not talking to hubby.
I have never looked so forward to a Friday in my life. I am so tired. And I still have tons to do.
Mailed off a package to honey today. Just his sweat suit and some shorts and a couple of Sports Illustrateds and letters from Elliebear. CiCi got her school pics back so I put one in as well.
I wish I had time to sit and write a letter. I am doing good to blog each day. So far, so good on keeping that commitment.
I was in a pickle this AM. Luckily, well for lack of a better word, CiCi said her throat hurt today. So she stayed home with Pinky and Bruiser who both woke up with fevers. I called her throughout the day. She made them pizza rolls for lunch and cereal for breakfast. Nobody died. So I guess it worked out. I hate that she missed school. She said no test or major work she would miss so I let her stay home. I will be so immensely pleased when the cold/flu season is over. It's tearing me apart worrying about the kids.
The kiddos are going to take pictures at daycare on 10-12-09. Wasn't expecting that but glad for it because I wasn't sure when I was going to have time or energy to take them to Penny's. Have I said that before? Just had the weirdest dejavu. Anyway...
Went outside to take out the trash earlier for tomorrow AM. The moon was so bright and 99 % full. Just beautiful. And once I saw the few stars, I closed my eyes and wished, wished, wished for my wonderful husband to call me. No luck yet... but I am keeping my fingers crossed.
Bruiser and Princess will not go to bed. UGH. Please! Tonight will be a perfect night for a muscle relaxer. I have been so stiff and uncomfy lately but I didn't want to take one for fear I'd oversleep. Pesky old job!
Speaking of which... I had an excellent sales day today. That I can at least be thankful for... We ate Wendy's fast food tonight and it was expensive and not so tasty but I totally didn't feel like cooking. Lots more laundry... Swept bedroom floor. Tried to organize paperwork. Too many distractions so it's still in the stack. Found out the group that helps kids with extracurriculars may not cover Cici and Ellie- I emailed them to find out for sure. However, I can get Princess involved in something.
Got invite to Tim's party for tomorrow in mail today. Sharolynne wants us to bring an item for his going away party- ex. baby wipes, Chapstick, etc. I think I am taking baby wipes simply because I have them at home... If I even go... I know, I know... Totally don't feel like shopping for anything right now. I want to rest. This week took so much out of me.
I have been pigging out too. I guess it's nerves. Stress. Or maybe my body's so tired, it's looking for an energy boost. Who knows? I hate it though. I feel really guilty about eating like that. I am going to gain all that weight back.
A group of wives were going to try for the fair again tomorrow. MM extended an invite to her son's football game. IF the weather is nice, I may take the kids to the park or something but since they have been ill, I don't even know about that. We'll have to play that one by ear.
The girls are getting out of school early on 10-08 and are out of school on 10-09 and 10-12. Teacher in service and Columbus day, I think. Ellie got a free state fair ticket she can use on the 12Th. Cici didn't say anything about getting one so... I don't know if I will feel like doing that after I get off like last year. Or was it the year before? I can't remember... Just wish hubby was here to go with us. I miss him so much.
I am trying to keep a mental list of things I have to do. Would it not be easier to write it down? I am having another day where I am too tired to make an assessment of my feelings. I am back to numb. Which is fine by me. I am not angry about anything. I am not feeling blue. I am not happy. I am... content...
Maybe it's because it's finally Friday... I have 2 days with no time schedule... I can afford to be a little numb right now...