I'm Easy like Sunday morning...

it's pretty early. 7 AM-ish. Bubba and Princess are awake. I myself didnt get to bed until 2 and then the hubby finally got his internet up and running and was able to skype me and for the first time since August (outside of old photos) I was able to see his face! And you just can't imagine how my heart melted. He looked good. Considering he said he'd been up all night playing with his new toy (laptop). We didn't get to talk too terribly long. Princess had literally just joined me in the bed. (Bruiser came later... they end up in my bed regardless). So she was able to see him too. That was awesome!

To be continued...
Later that day... :) My Mom came over to babysit while us big girls got out of the house. I took Cici and Elliebear to see 2012. It was very long... Like 2.5 hrs but it was certainly entertaining. Lots of destruction, so it was sad and kinda scary to think about the end of the world, but what can we do but 'embrace whatever suck' is handed to us... right? I feel like I am at peace with myself enough to accept my fate. There's nothing I can do about the fate of the earth. I can just ensure that I have lived, laughed and loved while I inhabited it.
I made navy beans with carrots and bacon/onion (seasoning), left over pork chops and rice for dinner. Mom ate with us. I braided Princess' hair and she did her laundry. It was a productive evening. She even helped clean a bit while she was here. That was awesome. My Mom is great in that aspect. I certainly needed the help.
Watched Desperate Housewives and Dexter. Both really heating up for the season! Great day. I enjoyed it. There was one minor thing... Well, it hurt me so I don't know how minor it was... During another Skype call, hubby showed me around his room. He was in good spirits about it, joking around. "Here's my closet" (3 pegs in the wall), "here's my bed" (uncomfy little cot thingy) and I thought to myself, Geez, just the night before I was complaining about the kids always clamoring over me and how cramped I was feeling. I was feeling cramped about being surrounded by people who love me and the hubby has no one to clamor over him who loves him. I felt like a really selfish bitch and it made me cry. I was so sad for my husband. And semi-disappointed in myself. But after a while, I came back to reality. I know I need a break every now and then from all this "love"... Heck, anybody would. Everyone's gotta have a bit of space... right?
Oh how I love you, hubby!

Oh Happy Day!

The hubby finally got his laptop in the mail today! I can stop stressing about it. I am so glad. He unfortunately has to pay 100.00/month for Internet access over there. What a rip! I should come up with an Internet service for our service members at a discount! But who knows, it may cost an arm and a leg to run it. Anyway, I upgraded windows 7 on my laptop today. another tedious process but it's done! We shall see if its any different.
I had an excellent day. Started with a trip to the base. I thought I'd try my luck at AAFES to see if they had any more of these "black Friday" bluray players by Samsung, normally 199.00 but on sale for 139.00. I got the last one. It's a beauty! I don't know if I will need HDMI cables to hook it up with. But now I can move a DVD player into the kids room for a movie every now and then. I went to the gym next and worked out for about an hour. I felt great! I did 18 minutes on a bike, 20 minutes of weights, 5 minutes of stretching, 23 minutes on the elliptical... Amazing!
From there, back home to sweep and mop the floors. Only made it to the kitchen as far as mopping but the floors are all swept except for my bedroom. That's a job for tomorrow. Did more laundry as well. Tuna fish sandwiches and chips for lunch. My brother's wife came over and while she was here, I went to get some Christmas shopping done. I got her little girl a Vtech educational toy and her little boy a dinosaur that walks and roars. She said he is going through a dinosaur phase. I also got my brother's other son from previous wife, a long sleeve shirt that says, "lost homework, if found, please complete and turn in"... I hope he gets a kick out of that.

I also got Cici and my in-laws 2 boys some sea monkeys... It's what they requested when I was over on Thanksgiving... and that made Cici want some. So, sea monkey adventure, here we come. I hope they aren't too messy. I am done shopping now. Unless I catch some good deals here and there, there isn't anything else I need or want for myself or the kids that is imperative. I got myself a new pair of shoes to work out in on Friday when I was at the base. A nice pair of under armour "foot sleeve" shoes. They felt so good!

I made iced tea, pork chops, rice, pinto beans and mixed vegetables for dinner. Sure was good! :) Bubba and Pinky were feeding each other, which was just a mess. They are so funny. Such characters.

I got to go see New Moon today. Oh man. I loved, loved, loved it! I have read all the books in the series. It's hard for me to pick a favorite book but this is one of them. I think that the relationship that's built up between Jacob and Bella is just key to the overall story and this was so much better acted out than Twilight and the action was so much better. I bought the soundtrack last week and I was disappointed. But once I heard the music with the appropriate scene, I was able to appreciate it a bit more, so I'll have to listen again and give it a new assessment.

I didn't blog on Friday. Sorry. But a quick catchup. I went to the base that AM with full intentions of working out. Nobody else showed up so I decided to check out AAFES. :) I got an Xbox 360 (as per my previous conversation with the husband) and I got 3 games, plus it comes with 3. I also got a great deal on a surround sound system that comes with a DVD player with built in AM/FM tuner and 5 speakers. That one is really for the hubby to hook up in the garage. That way he and his buddies can enjoy their football out there in much delight.

The XBox is kinda for both of us to play when he returns. I could become a game girl. :) I am so excited. For dinner on Friday I made this dirty rice with ground meat, a can of corn, a can of diced tomatoes and the rice mix itself, along with some cornbread. It was so good! I am getting brave with the experimenting. :)

There was a parade of lights in a local city here but I didn't have the energy to get everyone ready and go sit outside. I would have loved to have seen it, heard it was amazing. But, maybe next year. Just hope honey will be home to go with us. I never got a chance to see Bodies... That display of real human bodies preserved and posed. It looks like an amazing exhibit. Oh well. We also went to McDonald's for lunch on Friday and the kids played in the jungle gym thingy for a bit after we ate. Just nice to get them out of the house every now and then.

Well, not much else has happened. I was blessed to be able to speak to my hubby a bit. love it when he calls or emails me! always the highlight of my days! MMMHHHWWWAAA! Big kisses to you honey! Cant wait to see your face on the Skype!!!

Happy Turkey Day!

Or Fried Camel Day, as hubby called it. Today was great... Let me recap Wednesday first because I failed to blog...
Yesterday work was so slow. They gave out E-time and eventually they said if you got off by 5 you could leave. That was at about 3:45-4:00 PM. My luck, my schedule was til 5:15, so I was stuck there. Not much revenue. Got to do a crossword puzzle and read the latest comics so I can send them to hubby.
When I got off work, I went to Kroger and got the Hawaiian rolls and sodas to take to the in-laws tomorrow. Got a few other groceries as well. Then picked up little ones from day care. Came home to find C & L still hadn't completed the chores I left them with, as they were out of school with no little ones and no excuses. I also took them home some chicken sandwiches from McD's on my lunch break. I have come to the conclusion that they are lazy good for nothings and apparently no amount of physical or mental punishment can break them. I give up. I really do. I will just have to ignore their requests as they do mine and go in a different direction with this. Something has got to give. Cici is not as bad as L, but they are both pitiful.
I try to instill pride in the home, cleanliness = good health, the whole kit and caboodle, but they let it go in one ear and out the other and I'm so sick of it.
Anyway, I went to Blockbuster and got the Angels and Demons movie along with a free rental of Davinci Code and another freebie called Let the Right One In. It's a french vampire movie that is supposed to be really good. It's subtitled but that doesn't bother me. I fell asleep on Angels and Demons and I'm glad I didn't buy it. It was kind of boring/slow. I think I remember liking Davinci Code much better. Maybe I will try again tomorrow to watch it. I didn't make it to the other movies. I just ended up getting up off the couch and going to bed.

Got up at 8 AM today. Did some chores. Did my hair, washed and crimped with waving iron. Looks nice. I liked it. Got all the kiddos dressed for Thanksgiving. We all went and picked up my Mom. Her boyfriend ended up not coming. He was sick, nauseated from his Chemo meds. I hope he is feeling better soon and that it works to cure him. They have changed up the neighborhoods where hubby's bro and sis-in-law live. I got a bit turned around. I had timed it to show up right at 1, which was scheduled dinner time. We ended up showing up at 1:15. Not too bad. Luckily, sis-in-law's sister was late too so it wasn't just me. Her kids were there and Bubba found a little running buddy. So nice cause he's always around girls.
Dinner was really good. Mac-n-cheese, dressing, cranberry sauce, turkey, ham, green beans, greens, sweet potatoes, potato salad... Yum! Bro asked his wife if she used mayonnaise to make the potato salad and she said yes... He said MUSTARD! And my Mom was like thank goodness A wasn't here to talk potato salad with them! LOL. He bought her a really nice Sony camcorder that records in HD and does still photos and all. Hubby's bro was slightly jealous. He read the instructions and showed Mom a bunch of stuff about how to work it. The pics that I am sending to you (hubby) are taken from my Mom's camera... I still have some more that I will send in a later package for you. We stopped at CVS on the way home, it was open!?! and just developed the few I thought you'd like to see of the family.
Mom kinda drove me nuts with the camera but other than that, she seemed to be on her best behavior. The Cowboys beat Oakland. It was an ok game. They both actually played kinda sorry but the better sorry team won. I am not a huge Cowboys fan, but they are my home team so I rooted for them. We left after the game was over. So we got home at about 7:30-8:00-ish. It was really nice seeing my Mother-in-Law. She is a riot. We laughed about her cooking skills or lack there of... I want to see her again this weekend before she leaves. We'll figure that out.
Highlight of today... got to talk to hubby on Skype. I was a dodo and left my laptop at home but bro set up skype on his PC and hubby got to say hi to everyone. I miss my baby so much. (love you baby!)
Once I got home, I did an assessment of Christmas gifts... I need to get Pinky at least one more thing. I wish I could find another one of those blocks in the wagon... Oh well, I am sure I will find something over the weekend. I have a ton of stuff to do this weekend, even though I am off work. Oh well. Ce la Vie for this little Seabee wife.
Oh, did I mention the Navy Wife hat I found. It's perfect. A navy blue ball cap with Navy Wife embroidered in Pink and the Navy seal in the center and again pink smaller letters "Navy Wife" on the brim. Found it at the local hardware store if you can believe that when I went to get the light bulbs to replace in the ceiling fan in the living room. And I blew thousands of leaves off the back drive the other day and now I am dreading raking them. Maybe the gods will smile down on me and actually allow Ellie and Cici to help without any complaints... Man I hope I get to go to the movies this weekend. I want to see New Moon so bad. I am jealous! Hubby got to see 2012 and I haven't seen it yet! :) You finally beat me to one, baby!
Well, it's almost midnight. I am going to get up to go work out on base in the AM. Trying to keep my promises where I can. Everyone else is asleep and the house is quiet. Let's see what happens now...

Tuesday, Bad News Day...

Well, to start at the beginning...
Got everyone off on time. Lovely when that happens. I hate to be in a rush. Cici and I came back home and I did a few chores. Took her to the dentist for her braces @ 9:30. same song and dance. She hasn't been brushing well enough. She had 3 broken brackets. They said next time I will be charged 25.00 per bracket to fix them. UGH! They had to remind her to not eat chewy, crunchy or sticky things. Which I don't know of her eating (maybe Halloween candy recently). Her gums were bleeding when they were finished with her. she goes back for her cleaning on 12-18-09 and I just know they are gonna make me pay for that stupid deep scale cleaning. I am going to have to add to my list of crap to do each day, getting onto Cici about making sure she is brushing her teeth WELL enough to avoid gum disease.
Speaking of brushing... I am fighting with Bruiser each day about brushing her teeth. She smears the toothpaste on her fingers or clothes or the counter. She throws the toothbrush. I just can't get her to brush! Princess for the most part will brush but she has her days as well. And Pinky and Bubba... forget it. they snatch the toothbrush and chew on it but won't let you brush for anything! I just get tired of the fight and give up usually.
After the dentist, dropped Cici off at school. Went to pay my first installment on my seat belt ticket. I have 180.00 to go over 4 months. UGH! Hate that town that gave me the ticket! Then went to Best Buy and got the Aliens in the Attic movie for the kids for Xmas. Got soundtrack to New Moon (the sequel to Twilight) and the Black Eyed Peas CD. I am not opening the New Moon one til after I see the movie. I went out right after Twilight and bought the soundtrack last time. I loved the music from the movie. Lets hope this one is the same. There were some other CDs I wanted. But I was afraid I'd only like one song or two. Plus I am watching my budget, so I will wait on those.
Got to work by 12:35. Got a pleasant surprise. Chris, the guy who sits next to me and strangely enough has been on my team or seated next to me for the last few years no matter what, had his 10 year anniversary luncheon today. He invited me, Don B and the manager Stan went with us. We went to Salt Grass and I had the steak and shrimp with a Caesar salad and sweet tea. Yummy! So I was given another 1.5 hours off the phone. What a short day! I sold only one item during the time I was there. And it's not due til 12-16 so it won't be on the end of month sales report. Oh well.
Chris was kinda agonizing about his wife. They have been married 12 years and she has some kind of degenerative bone disorder and has had 3 back surgeries. She is scheduled for another one in a week or so. So for Thanksgiving, they are driving to Corpus Christi (that's where he was surplused from a few years back) so that her mom can take care of her after she has the new surgery down there. To completely fix her back they would have to do some kind of surgery to unfuse the previous bones they fixed and it would require they break her back. But she is at 93% risk of paralysis if they do that so she is trying something else. She totally seems to run their household. He ok's everything with her from his meals to what they watch on tv to purchases. That's good. Nice communication... but it seems from the outside looking in, he's always saying "I can't/couldn't do that because Shawna..." She seems like a nice person. She usually sends me a Christmas card signed by them both though I have never met her. But maybe she is trying to control what she can in life since there is so much (her health) that she can't control... I don't know. That's my Dr. Phil moment for today.
Came home from work and cleaned the twins room. Swept under the beds and mopped and organized the toys. then went and picked them up from daycare. I realized I'd forgotten to take something out and refused to buy fast food again so we had left over chicken (the orange marmalade one) with mac-n-cheese and some green beans. There was just enough left for the kids. I was still full from salt grass so none for me.
The twins are growing up and getting these little personalities. Man, I love them. They amaze me every day. Bruiser told me to help her write her "baby c's" the other night. Princess was singing the Beyonce "single ladies/put a ring on it" song and her version goes "all the chicken ladies, all the chicken ladies". I about busted a gut laughing at her singing that. They truly say the darnedest things. Cici and Elliebear, hmmm. Don't know what to say about them. Their Dad called tonight. He is wanting them for the Christmas break. I told him ok. can't keep them from each other. But dreading handling everything on my own for @ least a week. They are butt munches sometimes, but they can be helpful. So hubby, we haven't quite devised a plan but it's looking like they will go down on Saturday, probably after the FRG Christmas party, and will come back the weekend before New Years. We shall see.
Now, the bad news. We got an email from our ombudsman advising us that there had been IDF and I got my little safe zone bubble burst. I had put myself in the altered state of reality... Hubby is gone to work. All is well. We are communicating, other wives are communicating, I am getting gifts and flowers and mail. He is getting the same. Other wives too. What is this crap about them not being safe hitting me over the head. I am so glad my husband is safe and I definitely send my thoughts and prayers to those affected, whoever they may be. (we have no names) I have not heard from my hubby today, email or otherwise. I want my hubby home. I really do. In one piece, just as I sent him over there. But for now, I will hold on to one piece that was left here at home... his heart. I've got it protected, baby! You just worry about the rest of you! I love you!

We worked up to Monday and it wasn't so bad...

I know I haven't blogged in a while. I have been so super busy.

The only thing I remember about Thursday was that I still had the problem with my neck and I was so tired that I feel asleep on Private Practice which comes on at 9 PM. I was pooped. I don't remember exactly what happened but I know work really depressed me. The calls were all just from sad, miserable, rude people.
And when I got home and got ready to cook dinner, I looked in the cabinet and my canned goods were gone! My first thought went to Elliebear. I remembered seeing the sign at the school about a canned food drive. I knew the little ones hadn't been playing with them and if so, they would at least be visible.
I yelled her name and said where are the canned goods?!? And she came out of the bedroom with about 10 cans that she had in her backpack ready to be donated the next day. She told me she had taken 24 cans to school already over a 2 day period.
I was so upset. I really wouldn't have minded her donating, but emptying out the cabinet is not what I would've had in mind. And on top of that, she didn't ask me. She STOLE from me and her family. I emailed the teachers to tell them what she had done. Her class didn't win the ice-cream sundae party prize anyway, but I still haven't come up with a totally suitable punishment.

On Friday, I needed a day off. I decided to take a vacation day. I took everyone to school. Then I came home, did some cleaning, went and got Bubba a new crib, got a pedicure and my eyebrows waxed and did some Christmas shopping. I believe I am just about ready. Princess has a razor riprider 360. It's a trike with caster wheels so it wiggles all over the place while you ride. Bruiser has a regular Red Flyer traditional tricycle. They should have fun with those together. I got Elliebear a full size keyboard. I hope I don't regret that one. Cici already has her Nintendo DSi waiting so everyone has a big gift. Except the twins. They have some cool stuff but they won't know the difference so they will be happy I'm sure. I wanted to go to the movies, but I ran out of time. Maybe next time... I can't remember anything else significant happening. I think it was a nice day.

On Saturday, my neck was really bothering me... still... did I mention the doctor told me to get a massage a couple of times a week to see if that helped and I just laughed at him? I went to the base and worked out. Nobody from my little group showed up but me, but that's who I was there for so... My neck felt better for almost a half hour afterwards. It was amazing. But the pain came back. I got on the elliptical for 25 minutes and did 5 minutes of stretching and 25 minutes of weights.
Anyway, we went to Sam's and got some groceries. Honestly, that's about all I remember. Hubby did get his birthday box. It had peanut butter, sardines and crackers, cookies, paydays, peanut butter chews and snicker bars, mustard (for the sardines), a memory card for his camera, sports illustrateds, a card from me... That box was packed! He was so happy to receive it. And I was happy to oblige.
Now I did speak to my wonderful hubby a few times during these days. He has been able to Skype (phone calls with one way video- he can see me but I can't see him) me a few times. I really hope he gets his laptop. Before Thanksgiving will be preferable. If not, ASAP.

On Sunday, I went back to the base in the morning. AW showed up but TR went on a cruise with her kids and her husband's ex wife. That was weird... I was trying to imagine that scenario and just couldn't do it. She said he told her not to become friends with the ex. I LOL'd about that one. I just worked out on elliptical for 25 minutes and did my 5 minute stretch. I cleaned up a bit in the garage. Finally got the Halloween decorations put back in the attic. Got down the Christmas ones. Put away summer clothes. Picked up all the pieces of the carpet padding that PacPac has chewed up while he's out there during the day. Sprayed the carpet with pet deodorizer. Hopefully, I will have a chance to really clean it this weekend. Did more chores in the house. God, I am so sick of laundry! But it's gotta be done.
I was preparing for my Mother in law's visit. I don't know if she'll come by here. I am sure she knows I am so busy during the week she may just wait til I come over to my brother and sister-in-laws house on Thanksgiving to see me and the kids. I cut out her pictures of the kids. They are ready to go except I need to make copies of L's and C's pics so I can give her bigger ones. I realized I am missing my wallet sized pics of the kids.
I put together Bubba's new crib as well. It is amazing. Dark brown mahogany colored wood with the sleigh bed rails. I love it so much. It turns into a toddler bed, then a daybed and then you can use the head and foot boards to make a full size bed later. I told hubby and he says we should get Pinky one just like it. I really want to but I have so much going on! Hubby called me while I was on my way to the gym and we got to talk for about 20 minutes or so. It was so nice to hear his voice and the connection was actually clear! I was truly happy. Took the kids to McD's for lunch. Let them play in the kids zone area. when I got home, I baked (skinless) chicken thighs coated in orange marmalade. It was good. Better than I was expecting as I didn't have a recipe, just an idea. watched Dexter. It was a really good episode. only 3 left til end of the season. I can't wait for honey to come home. Wish we had a DVR, I would be recording these for him. Now we will have to rent the season when it comes out so he can catch up.

On Monday, work. The day wasn't so bad. I had a decent revenue day. I went to Walmart after work with the kids. Got some groceries. By the time we were done, it was 8 PM so we went to Wendy's and got dinner. No baths for kids. Weather getting cold. They are getting runny noses and they didn't make a huge mess tonight. Elliebear gave me a me a massage and my neck/shoulder area felt better. She rubs really hard. Bubba is enjoying his new bed. I think he is just glad to be out of the bed with his sister. I was trying to convince hubby before he left that we should stop buying paper plates. that it was better for the environment and that we could save some money. Screw that! I am so tired of dishes. I bought a 600 count package of paper plates from Sam's.
Elliebear and Princess put up the fake tree. No ornaments yet. We will do that on Thanksgiving or this weekend. But it's up. I am not very excited about Christmas. Trying, but it's not hitting me yet. Tomorrow is a short day. I am excited about that. I have to take Cici to the orthodontist at 9:30 AM. Work at 12:45 and I get off at 4:45. Yay!
I love you, my wonderful husband. I am missing you and thinking of you always. Be safe and know that I am giving thanks for having you in my life... Just wish you were physically in my life... :)

11/17/09-11/18/09

No catchy titles... just trying to catch up!
I missed yesterday. I held on through work... UGH. Oh my goodness. I hate my job. But I am glad to be employed.
I didn't feel like cooking. We had Domino's pizza. I went to the base and bought a copy of Star Trek. Watched it with the girls. I love that movie. I also got a copy of Mario Bros for Wii. Cant wait to play it. I put it away for Xmas, but I want it for me. :) Got to talk to hubby briefly on the phone. We have been emailing, but I love to hear his voice.
I am really debating on getting an Xbox or PS3. It looks so awesome. I think I could get into that. Hubby says he will play with me when he gets back. Yeah! Just gotta catch some good deals on them with Black Friday.
Did some laundry. Nothing major. Just a day. I woke up with this crick in my neck though. It hurts so bad. Cant turn without moving my whole torso. Hmmm. Don't know what that is about. stress or lack of sleep or sleeping wrong probably.
Today was cool. I was busy as ever. I went to work 8:15-12:15. Then went to pick up all the kids from school and went to see pediatrician. All of them got checked out. Runny noses and coughs were just that. No flu or serious infections or anything. So Princess, C and L got H1N1 vaccine and seasonal flu shots. Bubba, Pinky and Sheridan all got H1N1, they had seasonal a couple months ago. Bruiser also got her newest dose of Hepatitis vaccine. Dropped little ones back off at school. Went to post office and mailed hubby's box with laptop in it. Then went to my orthopedic doctor for my last checkup on my wrist. He told me call him if it hurts or if my left one needs another cortizone shot.
I miss watching stand up comedy with my hubby. I am watching Joe Rogen's show. It's pretty funny. Daddy would enjoy it. Maybe I spelled his name wrong. We got home today from the doc and there was a huge white dog in the back yard. he was kinda scared though. We were able to just chase him out. Creepy though. Again, no cooking. My neck is killing me. Well, its more my shoulder. I don't want to do anything. So I got the kids McDonald's and then I got myself an A1 Thick and Hearty burger from Whataburger. I kept hearing commercials about how they aren't going to make it anymore. So, it sucked me in... I wasn't impressed. Kinda wished I would've gotten the regular whataburger. Yum.
Got some mail from the husband today! Yeah! I love mail from him!
Paid lots of bills tonight as well. Fun Fun Fun.
Well, guess I will try to go to sleep. I am ready for Thanksgiving to be over. Ready for Christmas to come and go. Ready for my hubby to be back in our physical lives as well as our spiritual one. I love you, hubby. that will never change.

11/12/2009-11/16/2009

I am late again! I missed blogging on Thursday and Friday. I ended up taking a vacation day from work on Thursday. I had so much to do. I spent the morning cleaning my room. I got to speak to my hubby on Skype. But on a pc without a web cam. So I still couldn't see his face!

Man, it's actually Monday, November 16 and I had started this and saved it as a draft, so it shows to be a Saturday 11/14/09 post. Let's see if I can remember everything...

Ok. On Thursday...
I left after talking to hubby on Skype. Cici called from school. She was sick. Really bad cough. Dropped her off at home and dosed her up. Went to the base, debated for an hour on which laptop to replace the missing one with (because they didn't have the same one anymore) and finally decided on an HP (that wasn't there before) that I kinda liked better than the Toshiba... I got new accessories and also found a pair of Heeleys on sale for 25.00 for Elliebear that I am putting away for Christmas. I also found a pair of Disney princess shoes that light up for Sasha for Christmas. After that, I went to check the mail... You'll never guess what was there. The original laptop. I was relieved but so pissed that I wasted my afternoon. I did check out the laptop. It wasn't broken though the box was practically crushed. I also went to Best Buy and got a copy of UP on bluray. They didn't have it on the base. Watched it with the girls that night. It was a sweet movie.

Friday...
It was so hard to go back to work after a vacation day. But I did it. I made it the whole 8 hours. On Friday night, I went to my brothers. It was his birthday. Hung out there with the kids for a while. They were playing with my brother's kids. Came home. Went to bed as far as I can remember. I don't think anything extra special happened on Friday. I just made it through another day. Oh, the free upgrade to Windows 7 disc came in the mail for hubby's laptop. How's that for timing? And, Cici stayed home from school again. She said she was just weak and wheezy. She didn't seem to be her normal self so I believed she didn't feel well. No fever.

Saturday...
OMG. The crazy marathon day. I woke up later than anticipated. I was up for about an hour in the middle of the night talking to the hubby on Skype (still no web cam) and I had been up coughing alot, but I went to the gym anyway and got 30 minutes in. That was after I dropped Ellie off at brother's house so his wife could braid her hair. Got on elliptical- 1.51 miles, 243 calories, 25 minutes plus a cool down of stretching. Good workout. Went to PX afterwards to return the new laptop and accessories. Got camera case for myself and hubby. He sent me a camera as a gift and had gotten one for himself but it didn't come with a case. The case I got was a nice one, protects against water and sand. It's on it's way soon hubby! Along with new laptop and accessories and photos!
Went to Sam's on way home from base. Got spring mix salad, purple onions and cherry tomatoes. Went home and made 3 giant salads. Realized I'd forgotten the dressing. Went to Kroger and picked up variety of flavors. Got all kids dressed. It was noon by this time and the FRG Thanksgiving potluck started at noon. Went to pick up L, her hair was very pretty. Got to potluck at about 1:30. Really late, but it was nice. Saw some of the SEABEE wives I've been talking to. I was super tired. I'd already committed to going. I was so late it probably wouldn't have mattered. I am going to do this Christmas party thing and then I think I am pulling back a bit. I feel like I am overextending myself with the Boo at the Zoo and Potlucks. I need to be on my own schedule doing stuff. I have too much to do on the weekends that I can't complete during the week to be punctual. However, I do enjoy hanging out with the SEABEE families. I will continue to work out. Selfish or not, that's for ME. It's nice to have workout buddies but I am so overwhelmed right now.
I dropped L off at her friend's house to spend the night on Saturday night at about 6:30. I hate to say it. She didn't deserve it but I needed a break from her. She was getting on my ever loving nerves. Not necessarily that day but just period lately.
I am strong. I can handle whatever is pushed my way. One way or another. It'll get handled.
Sunday...
I didn't go work out. I was so friggin' sleepy. I slept til 8- something. AW did call to check on me. That was nice. I had been up coughing again. I had some energy though. I cleaned out the cars. It was so beautiful and sunny during the day. There was so much junk in them. Kids can be so messy. I went to pick up L at 1:00. Went to the bank and ran some errands. I was literally on my feet all day. I made pork chops and some of those skillet potatoes and some left over salad for dinner. I even ate standing up. Hubby has done that on occasion before and I didn't get it, but now I do. Sorry, honey. Your days must have sucked sometimes to. I hope I was a help to you when I could be. I braided Sasha's hair while Desperate Housewives was on. I did Cici's hair while Dexter was on. My hair still looks like crap but at least my kids look nice.
Now the kicker on Sunday was the upgrade to Windows 7. I started that thing in the afternoon and didn't get finished with it til 2 AM. I had to uninstall this, shut down several times, called tech support for Toshiba because I was unsure about what files I needed to save. It was just frightening to me because I wanted it to be done right so I could send the thing off. I had plenty to do to keep me occupied during the updates and whatnot. So I would just bounce over to it and follow the prompts. For the most part it was just fear of doing it. I had to uninstall the antivirus program first so I put off reinstalling it til Monday evening. I was ready for bed.

Monday...
I was sooooo freakin' sleepy today. Paid hubby's PO Box fee at lunch break. Sent hubby an email saying I wanted this thing called a shake weight. Cheesy thing that's supposed to work out the flabby part of your triceps area... the "wings", as we call them. Got an email confirmation later in the day... He'd ordered it for me. That man spoils me so. MM got her hair colored dark with a new cut. I am trying to get Princess and Bruiser to sleep. It's 11 PM and they won't STFU. Anyway...
I had to call tech support on the Kaspersky antivirus download. Lot's of problems. Found out the 2009 version wasn't compatible with Windows 7 and that's why the problems. The tech told me how to download the newest version. Now the laptop is good to go! Man, that was frustrating, but I am glad I did it instead of hubby going through that. He may never have had the time to complete it.
They fed us at work today. Offered everyone left overs to take home. So I brought home for dinner: turkey, dressing, greens, corn muffins, yams and pea salad. I didn't have to cook! Nice. All my customers today told me their stories about how they lost their jobs, were sick, one lady had just had a double mastectomy. So I was very depressed by the end of my shift. No sales and sad stories. Doesn't make for a good day. And if you look around the house, still looks to me like nothing is done. I need a day or two off to catch up on chores. The laundry is piled up again. I swear I wash clothes almost every day. I skipped today. Just didn't feel like it. After I fed the kids and got them in the bath and let them play for a bit, I just sat down to deal with the laptop.
Cici stayed home again but she seemed to feel better when I got home. I am going to have to make sure she does all her missed work. I can pick up her assignments in the office. Hopefully she can go tomorrow. Worse case scenario, she goes to the doc on Wednesday. May not be able to get her shot but she can get checked out.
Didn't get to talk to hubby today. Got a couple of emails but I would love to hear his voice. I miss that man so much. The highlight of the last 5 days would have to be my Skype calls with hubby. The sound was crystal clear as opposed to the jacked up telephone lines. I just can't wait for him to have the web cam so I can see his face. I love you, hubby! you are amazing! I was thinking to myself earlier... you know that saying, "tomorrow's a brand new day!" That's what I kept thinking. Just to get myself through. But number 4 in my head kept saying, "Yeah, well, same shit, different day." So of course, I was bummed either way. My new saying during this deployment will have to be, "Tomorrow's a brand new day full of the same shit"... I guess.
Where is my joy? It has been stolen and taken away to the middle east! Take care, hubby. Stay tuned... Same bat time, same bat channel.

Happy Veteran's Day!

It's Veteran's Day. I sent a shout out to hubby via email. Didn't get to talk to him all day yesterday. Hope he's ok.
After that awful night last night, I totally needed a pick me up today. I got flowers from my husband! I am thinking about him and celebrating him, and he is sending me flowers! My mood has shifted! I still feel kinda blue but much better. Don, who sits 2 desks over from me, told me this morning, "you look tired. your eyes are all puffy." I am thinking "thanks! Geez!" but I tell him, I was crying last night. And that started a new fountain of tears.
I was able to pull it together before getting on the phone. This morning went smoothly as far as getting everyone off on time. I didn't have to be here til 8:15. I was totally considering taking a half a day vacation. We are almost half through this month. I have 7 days left plus my full week. I am being really stingy with my vacation days but I am so scared that the kids will get sick or something and I will need the days later. I am being overly paranoid, but that's what At&t does to you. I ended up taking the last 2 hours of the day off.
Our contract got ratified. Glad that's over. Still just hoping I can be in a 4 yr nursing program before I turn 40. I will have put in (if I make it) 15 years at that point. I have a plan. A goal, rather... I'm gonna be an old nurse. One of those mean nurse Ratchet ones probably by the time I graduate. :) Anyway, regarding the contract. We should get some kind of retro pay through April of this year for the raise we would have gotten. That part is good news. The rest of it, yuck! Oh and Mary came to visit me at work today. that explains my emotional roller coaster and the bloating...
When I left work, went to Thrift Town. Got 2 picture frames for 3.00 and change. Then I went home for a second. Ellie bear was just getting home. Talked to her for a bit then went to the movies. Used my free ticket (finally got the real one from work) and saw the Box. what a waste of time. It was awful. And I don't say that about too many movies. It was set in 1976. But that wasn't what was bad about it. The plot was just incomplete and ridiculous. UGH. I was kinda mad I chose it. But it was all that was showing that I could make it to the daycare afterwards in time.
Got kids from daycare. Didn't feel like cooking, though I'd taken out hamburger meat. So I stopped and got chicken and fries. I still cooked the hamburger meat. I guess I will add it to spaghetti tomorrow or something. So I am halfway there for tomorrow. :)
Got everyone in bed. Did about 4 loads of laundry this evening. Haven't folded any of it yet. It's sitting on the couch. I have been cleaning up in the bedroom as well. Watched the Crow, Elvira, and Queen of the Damned. I haven't watched comedy central in forever! Man, I miss stand up comedy with the husband!
I didn't get to talk to the husband all day today either. Sad, sad, sad! but all in all, today wasn't so bad. I love my flowers! And I love my husband! Hope your Vet's Day was wonderful!

Today I was deep in the domestic suck!

It started off ok. Left house at about 7:15 AM. That's the earliest I have left in a while. Thought I was on the right track for having a good day. Our revenue goal is 250.00 per day. I ended with about 221.00. Stan still found it necessary to point out that I had no wireless, yet again. My body is sore. From the weights I'm sure. That's to be expected but today was not a good day for it. I was able to use my lunch to sit down at the PC at work and log into our bills to see what we owed. That was a fun filled break from work. But no way I can find time to do it at home. My brother calls me to ask to borrow money til Friday. Like I freaking can support his family and mine. I loaned him some money. He has helped me watch the kids and with the tire, but geez! And I left a voice mail for the guy with that subsidy place for childcare and still haven't gotten a response to it or to my previous emails.
I was writing a letter to my hubby at work most of the day. It was kind of slow. Hopefully I will finish it in the next couple of days to go into his care package. They cancelled our mandatory OT, so I decided to catch the 4:30 showing of Saw VI. It was the only thing that let out in time to get the kids from daycare.
I was so prepared for this day. I put all the ingredients for a roast in crock pot last night. Put in fridge and started it this morning. All I had to do was make the rice and cornbread. That was nice. Everyone woke up in a good mood except for Bubba. I guess he wasn't feeling all that well or maybe he was just still sleepy cause he fell asleep in the car on the way to the daycare. I mean, it was going so smoothly! I was literally happy most of the day. A bit annoyed by Stan's comment, but other than that, a good day.... To a point.
Then, literally as I am leaving the theatre, L calls to tell me she has some news I am not going to like... I'm like, WHAT IS IT. She says she is not going to tell me til I get home. That pissed me off. So I am steaming the whole way to get the kids. I am yelling at Sheridan to put on her blankety blank seat belt. Don't need another ticket for that crap, nor any accidents without it, I have to pull over 2x to get her buckled back in cause she wants to take it off. When I get home, the news is that one of the little kids has cut the wires that connect the drums on the Guitar Hero game.
I went through the roof. First of all, I looked around. The house was a total mess. It wasn't super clean, but it looked like freaking Dorothy was on her way to Oz (a tornado) and I was the wicked witch. Oh I wished somebody would've dropped a house on me. I went ballistic. First of all, why are you trying to play a game with this mess everywhere! Secondly, I told Cici to put the drumset back in the garage yesterday after they played with it. Thirdly, why did L call me and scare the crap out of me! I yelled and screamed and what was so bad was I really felt like I was a bit out of control. I went into the garage, closed the door and punched the SAMS club megasize multipack of paper towels until I felt better. Yes, I did that. In private.
I don't want to scare you. I wasn't Andrea Yates, "it's time for a bath, kids" out of control. I just felt totally defeated. I don't know where it came from. Maybe I had been stuffing this down for the past couple of weeks. I would NEVER hurt our kids, hubby. So, I am handling it. It was purely an emotional mini breakdown. I thought I needed a break. I kind of felt myself going into that stage where I know I am about to be BLUE, that's why I thought the quiet, dark of the movie theatre would just give me that bit of time I needed for me. But no such luck after all.
I felt so tired all of a sudden. Now I do feel blue. I need something. I need my husband to help me keep my ducks in a row. After I punched the paper towels about 5 or 6 times, I just sat there and cried. I mean I bawled. I was sooo pissed off about that drum set. You know that was MY instrument. As if I'd ever have time to play! But now I have to fix them or replace them. Another freaking thing to do. More time, more gas, more money. UGH.
The twins were pretty calm this evening. Thank goodness! Bruiser and Princess were clingy and fighting with each other all evening. We ate dinner. I did give everyone a bath. Twins went to bed no problems and I am still as we speak trying to get Bruiser and Princess to shut up and go to sleep. Bruiser is trying to climb on my lap and I am making her sit on the floor next to me since she keeps getting out of the bed and she is just sitting there crying. I am doing a really good job of tuning her out right now.
No tv tonight in the whole house. Cici and Elliebear are grounded from anything electronic until further notice. Then I discovered my underwear drawer had been rifled through. Elliebear brought me some "personal items" and said they were on my floor. The Christmas gifts that were neatly tucked away in their bags underneath my unmentionables were opened and shifted all around. L of course blamed Bruiser and Princess. I was pretty ticked about that.
Tonight nothing but this blog is getting done. I swept the kitchen floor and rinsed the dishes. I did do one load of clothes. But that's it. Brother came over to pick up his money. And I am going to bed as soon as I am done with this. My body is tired. My head hurts. My eyes hurt. My mind is in a million different corners of the universe. And my heart is in the middle east. I quite literally feel like I am broken into different pieces or incomplete somehow.
I ran out of my medication. It may be time to reup on it. I am experiencing a chemical imbalance or something. I don't like it. I am recognizing it. When I go for my annual exam, Dec 4, I will talk to my doc and get a new script.
I talked to hubby's brother tonight too. One of the kids accidentally dialed his number on my cell phone. So while he had me there, he asked me if we were coming to Thanksgiving dinner. What a day to ask. I told him yes. He asked me if I was bringing my mother. Last person I would think of inviting. I'm sure she has plans with her manfriend or my side of the family. And this feeling came over me as though I would be imposing by showing up. I just don't feel in the mood to give thanks or celebrate or visit or anything right now. I am supposed to go to that FRG family potluck this weekend. I have committed but... Today, I would be a liar if I said I was happy about going.
Bruiser has finally given up. She and Princess are both asleep. It took only 30 minutes of letting her cry. Oh, my cousin with the shop, and his wife, had their baby girl at about 3 AM on Sunday. I am still sick so I didn't go to the hospital to see her. They named her Serenity. Congrats to them, they miscarried the last one. Blessings and love to them. My brother said his oldest son's football team made it to the playoffs. So he invited me to the game. Sorry. Already committed to FRG potluck at same time. And I am not up for sitting outside with the kids.
I am going to have to rake leaves sometime. I want to take a vacation day so bad and just totally spoil myself. Get my hair done. Have a pedicure. I look like crap. I feel like crap. I am just craptastic. At least I am in love and I know I am loved in return. That helps.
I am walking on the dark side of the sun.
Trying to see the light that's right in front of me.
Needing to step lively to avoid getting burned.
Wanting to feel the heat that surrounds me.
It's so cold and lonely in the shadow and fog.
As I dream of seeing the bright side of things.
And on that note, I'm outta here! Until tomorrow... Much love to you hubby!

Monday, Monday, Monday...

I have a million things running through my mind right now. I need to recap the weekend first of all... sorry, I was a bad blogger again!

Friday...
I was so elated to know how lucky in love I was. I was missing my husband terribly. We had been out of contact for a couple of days and it felt like forever. I realize how blessed I am to have as much communication with him as I do. There are some of my seabee sisters who aren't as lucky. Yes, we call each other seabee sisters, honey! :)

On Friday night, we were all in agreement on the local Studio Movie Grill so I didn't have far to travel. Getting there was the nightmare. C & L in charge of the house. We went to see "the 4th Kind" and I haven't formulated an opinion yet. It totally clicked with my scifi side, but the fact that I know it was based supposedly on true events is what makes me like... hmmm... but I had fun. SW and her 3 sisters, MM, RM, SD, AL, and AW showed up. Remind me later, baby and I will tell you the initials...
I ate spinach quesadillas, had a hurricane whatever drink and a cup of water. and chips and salsa. food, friends, and fun. It was a nice change of pace. I left right after the movie and was home by 9:30-ish but everyone else went out for a drink afterwards.
Came home and watched Land of the Lost again with C & L. And then I was out. Didn't hear from hubby all day on Thursday or Friday...

Saturday...
Boy! The alarm went off at 6:30 AM. I planned on meeting AW and TR at the base gym for a workout. I hit the snooze a few times I must admit but once I was on my way, with no coffee might I add, I was on my way. Got on the treadmill first, did some weights. Cut it short after about 45 minutes to an hour. Everyone was asleep still when I got home. Started some chores until everyone woke up. Cereal for the gang for late breakfast. But for lunch... Yummy! Made breakfast including my southwestern style eggs- love those! Grits, bacon and pancakes. Boy was it good. I made Navy beans and we had the last of the meatloaf for dinner.
Nothing amazing happened. I did hear from hubby while I was at the gym though. The gym was nice, but hearing my hubby's voice was even nicer! So a pretty uneventful day but nice none the less. I did go to the post office to try to file my insurance claim for that laptop... Run around again... Got a beautiful card and letter from the hubby in the mail! And I was so tired after eating lunch that I put all the little ones to bed and took a nap for about 2.5 hrs!

Sunday...
Woke up again at 6:30. No snooze this time. Up and at 'em. Met AW and her 18 yr old niece and TR at the gym again. Started off with elliptical this time. 20 minutes and thinking of hubby the whole time! Whew! Can't wait for physical contact with you again, babe! Weights next. Then 5 minutes on the rusty old StairMaster in that joint. Hate that thing, but I want to conquer it. They were so surprised to see me there 2 days in a row! They were like the last person (with the 6 kids and all) we expected to see showed up. I really like AW. She is much older than me. Her youngest child is 22. But she is young at heart and has a great personality.
Anyway, when I got home from the gym this time, I was full of energy! No nap today! Did chores around the house all day. Elliebear cleaned her room so she could go over a friend's house. She must have been nervous as to my reaction to learn that her friends mom was "different", as she put it. Her friend has... 2 moms. The kid must get grief from other parents about their kids coming over or something, otherwise, why would Ellie tell me... I don't know. Doesn't matter to me as long as they are good people. I talked to her (the mom) on the phone. We agreed for L to stay over for 4 hours. She ate dinner (Chicken Express) with them. I picked her up at 7 PM. Cici and I took the kids to the park. They played for about 20 minutes. Daylight savings time has it getting dark so early now though, we had to leave. Ran some errands while waiting for L to get done and got some stuff to go into hubby's care package that is taking me for ever to complete. It was supposed to be for his birthday... It's very belated! But better late than never. I just have been so busy and stuff keeps coming up that I want to send. Just taking me a while to get organized. Made nachos for dinner. Yum! Had them with some of those premade oven burritos.
Watched Desperate Housewives. Totally forgot about the Cowboy's game but they won and I heard it was a good one. They played Philly. I also missed a Mavericks game this weekend. Geez! No time for sports. How sad. I also watched Dexter. Love that show. Princess and Bruiser didn't want to go to bed on Sunday night. We finally all conked out at about 1 AM. Sad, I know... But what could I do?

Monday...
I goofed around this morning trying to figure out how to get hubby's transcript emailed to him without sending it as an attachment. I was watching the clock, I knew what time it was, but that part of my brain that focuses on logic of the order of things was malfunctioning. So after I finished, it was the mad dash to work after dropping the kids off. I made it with like 2 minutes to spare. I had an excellent day as far as revenue is concerned. My sales were wonderful. My customer's not too ugly. It was nice.
I spent my entire lunch hour at the post office standing in line to get that claim filed. It has been done though. I am supposed to call the guy tomorrow to verify it went through successfully. He gave me another toll free TN to call once it's submitted to handle the reimbursement and how long it takes, etc. He was clueless like everyone else at the post office has been. But at least he knew what form and where to send it to. So, I will check on that tomorrow.
I also must remember to call UAPB for hubby to see if they got transcripts off successfully. Took peanut butter and jelly and bread to work for lunch today. Ate a sandwich and a cherry coke. Gonna' try really hard to cut out the Mickey D's, etc. Need to save some money and pay down some things. Criminey! That's another thing I must do! figure out my budget. 197.75
was cost for kids school pics. It's a once in a lifetime opportunity. The pics were all so good! I am going to get some out to Daddy in his care package.
I got at the home address today, letters for me, Bruiser, Princess, Cici and Elliebear. That was so nice. Princess wouldn't put her letter down for most of the rest of the evening. Made hamburger helper with ground turkey, cornbread and peas.
One of the errands I ran was to find the right size memory card for the camera hubby sent me. He has one like it so I am sending him one as well. Hope he takes lots of pics to show us when he returns. I love his letters telling me about what he can while he's there. I know they can't be in too much detail, but they are so very interesting. And his mushy stuff is AWESOME! (in all caps) My hubby is such a closet romantic...
And now my camera is ready! Yeah! Going to take some pics at the FRG Thanksgiving potluck. It's next weekend and I am supposed to bring a salad dish. I hope the little ones table manners improve between now and then.
Oh. On Friday, my buddy from work got suspended without pay pending further investigation. this was the one who went to pick up that dress from Dillard's while she was supposed to be home sick. I hope she doesn't lose her job. She is a sweetie and so much fun.
I must say, I had lots of energy today and my arms were really sore from my workout. I am looking forward to next weekend though. Gotta get in shape for my honey! I love him so much and I need to be able to keep up with him! :)
My love, I hope you are taking care of yourself. We are all missing you! Can't wait to see your smiling face again... Outside of a photo. "I've been looking so long at these pictures of you, I can almost believe that they're real. I've been living so long, with my pictures of you. I'm starting to believe, that the pictures are all I can feel." More lyrics from my all time favorite band, the Cure. I can so relate to their music and lyrics. Genius! Goodnight, honey!

Friday, I'm in love!

(Another great song by the Cure!) And definitely true today!
I love my husband! I really really really do!

I am soooo lucky in love...

I was given some news today that is bothering me and I don't know why... Well, it's sad and disheartening... I don't know if I should share it here publicly so I will tell you about it hubby in a private means of communication. But it has totally bummed me out so far today.

This morning went smoothly. I didn't have to be at work til 8:15, though I made it here by 8. It's one day closer to the weekend. And I am ready. I have so much to do around the house. I swear I need a whole week off just to work at home...

One of the Seabee wives is wanting to have a ladies night out. Nothing crazy. Just the movies and dinner at Studio Movie Grill. She wants to go to the one in Big D. Not nuts about driving way out there but I do want to see the proposed movie and I do want to get out of the house. My brother said they'd watch the kids for me. Who knows. Maybe I will, maybe I wont.

I just tried to blog this in bed on my cell phone and somehow lost the whole rest of the day! I am so mad at technology right now! I will have to complete this later! Ugh. Really wanted to convey some feelings out there!
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Ok, now to try and finish Thursday's blog... again.
Ok. Let's try and remember now.
Work... Stan listened to my calls and couldn't find anything wrong with them as far as me following the process. He told me I need to be more aggressive. other than that, Ok...
After work, made lemon pepper chicken wings for dinner. they were delicious. I haven't heard from husband. Really wanted to talk to him about that news from earlier in the day. But later, even more tragic news.
Some crazy jihad bastard, an actual army major, went nuts on the base and shot 12 people dead and wounded 31 others. story was he was supposed to be deployed and decided he wasn't going... He was a Muslim, 39 years old, in Army since high school and had gotten his medical license in psychology through the Army and was treating soldiers for post traumatic stress. what is up with that?
So I am wondering if they have my hubby on some kind of lock down where he can't call me because of that.
I really wish I could remember what all else I had in this blog. I hate I accidentally erased it. Oh well.
I just know that I was really bummed out from that news I heard earlier in the day. Just made me realize how absolutely blessed I am to have my husband. what a sweetheart. I feel his love from so far away. And I am lucky that we are able to hold on to each other across the miles.
love u, husband.

we're halfway to the weekend...

It's Wednesday. Whew! Though this is a short work week for me, I am worn out. Hubby called me at work today but I couldn't talk to him. manager was sitting right next to me listening to my tub buddy's calls. I went into the bathroom, hoping to find some privacy, but someone was there... Couldn't talk for fear of the big mouths... they know who they are... Sorry, Honey! I can only hope to hear from you later today.

It was payday for me. Mailed off the house payment. Don't feel like making time to drive it there and drop it off so hopefully they will get it before the 10th. Local mail, should be fine, but I am one of little faith in the post office since hubby still hasn't received his laptop! I did however get a box in the mail from hubby today with lots of Halloween goodies in it. I love that man! So sweet of him to think of me so far away. Now I have a desk full of snack food at work so I will eat it just because it's there... This place makes you eat... It's sad.

I have to now find the time to figure out my budget. Got a water bill in the mail today too. Got some sitting at home for other things. I still have to finish paying for the kids pictures at the daycare as well as daycare itself.

I have sent 2 emails to the guy handling the child care subsidy info for my application and no response. Hope they got all they need. If I don't hear back by end of the week, I will call.

I forgot to mention how Bubba butt-bounced over and over again soooo hard in his crib that he broke it, beyond repair this time. So for the last 2 nights he has slept with Pinky. I finally got Princess to sleep the whole night in her bed last night. I read her and Bruiser a bedtime story and she went and got in her own bed. It was awesome. Bruiser yelled and screamed so I went ahead and let her sleep with me. One less of them in the bed was awesome though.

This morning was ridiculous! was outside looking for PacPac in the street for about 10 minutes before I realized he was already in the garage. And when I opened the door, he was just looking at me like I was crazy. Which by that time, I was. It took so much to get everyone out of the house (or into the house- crazy dog) and into the car and to school and daycare. But we made it!
Work was uneventful. Normal, typical, no sales day... Coughing all over the place and stuffy nose. But at least I didn't have any BAD customers or experiences there.
Highlight of the day??? Got a box (Happy Halloween) from hubby in the mail. Full of goodies to stock my desk at work with- gum, candy, beef jerky, cookies, variety of nuts... And a copy of the Notorious BIG movie on bluray! Thanks baby! I love it!
I was able to speak to hubby briefly a couple of times as well as get some emails. How blessed I am to have such a loving husband. I made my meatloaf tonight. It was huge. I wanted to make it last for a while. Success! It looked like a football! :) but it was deeeelish! Mashed potatoes and peas with it and lemonade! Cici of course didn't eat any. She still doesn't like hamburger meat unless it's on a burger... She is sick and wanting to stay home from school tomorrow.
I stopped on the way from work at best buy and picked up GI Joe on bluray and also a BR copy of Pelham 123. I got great deals with a price match from FRY'S. I was excited. Watched the GI Joe movie with the girls last night.
While the movie was on, braided Princess' hair into a Mohawk. It was so long and "fluffy" though that I then had to braid the center into a french braid. It's cute. Different, but cute... Bruiser made it through the whole movie. So she got in bed with me at about 10:30 and slept there. Princess fell asleep while I was doing her hair so I was able to transport her to her bed without any issues and she slept there all night! 2 nights in a row with just the Bruiser in bed with me!
I got a crystal clear phone call before bed! Love you, honey! great way to end the night!

Happy Birthday, Daddy!

We’re playing catch up. I know that I promised not to skip days but I have been so super busy with the Halloween holiday and now battling a bad cold… I just haven’t had the time or energy to blog like I am supposed to. Fortunately, I have been able to keep hubby updated on most of the happenings by email and phone. YAY!
Looks like we left off around Wednesday, October 28 or so. I honestly don’t remember anything super fantastic happening that day. I don't remember what I felt, thought about, or even if I talked to the hubby that day. I know I went to work. That's about all I can tell you.
Thursday last week I took Bruiser to the eye doc again because her eyes got all gunky again. They were also swollen and red and puffy underneath so I was concerned. He said it looked like some type of infection from her cold. Because she was sick still, he wouldn't take out the tubes again. She got a 10.00 eye drop script and that seems to have helped.
I took half a day vacation in the afternoon to take her to the doctor. I was able to squeeze in a trip to SAMS. I used my 300.00 GC that my hubby mailed to me to help with the groceries. That was such a blessing. Really needed it. Really needed to go grocery shopping. That night, I also went to a haunted house with Jobeth. She said she was glad she had me to go with because none of her other friends wanted to go to a haunted house. Leave it to me to be the weirdo. We went to Hangman's House of Horrors near downtown. It's been there for years but I have never been. Next year, I'd like to go to the Cutting Edge one. It's almost 30.00 to get into that one. No coupons or discounts we could find. We had coupons for the Hangman's one. And it was cheesy but we had fun. I met her at the Tom Thumb near my house and we rode in her truck. She had a CD from many moons ago by a group called Type O Negative. Said she pulls it out at Halloween time. Memories. It has to be 10 + years old. Got home about 10:15, we left at 8:15. I had already put the kids on bed.
*** Cici and Elliebear are in the living room fighting... again. I am so tired of it. I swear the thought has crossed my mind to pack their crap and send them away. I am so tired of hearing them go at it. It's getting so old. Every day with the "idiots" and "stupids" and hitting each other. I am sick of the attitudes. Sometimes I feel like I would be less stressed without them here. I hate to say that. I feel semi-bad-motherish, but they totally raise my blood pressure. It's hard enough with the little kids, and they do help occasionally. But the falling asleep in school, the failing grades, the lying about staying for tutoring, the staying out with friends to play after school when you are supposed to come straight home, the not cleaning up after themselves. I always am yelling at them about something. I am soooo fed up and sick of it. And they are teaching the kids all the wrong things. I honestly try to do what I can to make sure they are happy. I just feel stepped on and unappreciated. I am going to have to resort to physical punishment... ***
Anyway, Friday...
What do I remember about Friday? Nada... I don't think anything special happened. Once again, clueless on if I talked to hubby or not. I am pretty sure I at least got an email each day this week. Not sure if I was up or down. I gave up the vacation day I had scheduled. I normally take off around Halloween and hubby's birthday. I realized a couple of days ago, we missed not only J-man's birthday, but I forgot to call my dad to wish him a happy birthday. I suck. Oh well. I have been completely and totally preoccupied. We got everyone dressed by 6m for trunk or treat at a local church. They had bounce houses and games for candy as well. The kids seemed to have fun. I dressed as a nurse. Had a fake stethoscope and hubby's blue scrubs. It was a beautiful day. I do remember that. Very nice weather for Halloween. It got a bit nippy at night though. We came home with a pretty good haul. Oh and the neighbor lady came over with a big bag of chocolates for the kids that afternoon as well. I checked with my brother to see if he wanted to bring his kids out. He said they weren't going to dress up or trick or treat. So afterwards I made them some candy bags at home and took it over there. They had a giant chocolate chip cookie cake and some chocolates they gave me some of for the kids too. That's when I asked them about keeping the little ones on Sunday so I could clean...
Now, up to Sunday. I woke up really depressed. I do remember that. I don't know what it was. I was glad, I think, that one holiday was over. I was glad October was done. One month down... Awesome! But something was just off. I was up at the ass crack of dawn, wrote that crazy poem from last post and then got up and got started. Dishes from the night before. I had made a roast on Saturday in the crock pot. But after we got home from the event, I didn't feel like doing anything so I left it til the next day. Yuck. I know but I was pooped and I knew I would have the next day little kid free. Just me, Cici and Ellie- big help that was going to be... I did spend more time telling them to do the obvious than I probably should have.
Anyway. I got the kitchen cleaned. Did more laundry. Changed sheets on little ones bed. Got quite a bit done. The girls helped a bit. Went and picked up the little ones at about 6:30 PM. Bubba got his hair braided. He cried the whole time but sis-in-law got the braids done. He's so handsome. Oh yeah. Saw their new puppy. He's a German Sheppard + Husky mix. Light brownish-gray with blue eyes. He's gonna get huge, but he was a cutie. The kids enjoyed playing with him. I guess his puppy antics kept them entertained.
Got home and I spiced up the roast a bit. Added some new veggies and some of the left over steaks from Friday night's meal. Cut them up and threw them in the crock pot. It turned out pretty good. I didn't want to dirty up my clean kitchen by cooking something else.
I got to watch Desperate Housewives and the episode of Dexter from last week plus this weeks episode. Loving that show. John Lithgow, from 3rd Rock (?) show hubby used to watch about the alien family... is in it this season as the serial killer who is outwitting Dexter. It's pretty good. Wish hubby was here to watch with me. Just realized, I haven't seen a single episode of one of our favorite shows to watch when he's home... CSI Miami... wonder what's going on with it...
I know I spoke with hubby on Sunday because I debated on if I should keep Monday off as a vacation day. Turns out I needed it. My brother pointed out to me when I picked up kids that I had a low tire. I put air in it but you could hear the air coming out. I knew it was going to go flat at that point. When I woke up Monday morning, it was on flat. I had to go and buy a tire and my dad and my brother came over to put it on for me. I went to the library to make copies of that paper work for the military assistance with day care. I checked the mail. Still no box from hubby. He told me he'd sent me something for Halloween, with his sweet and wonderful self! I rearranged the furniture in the kitchen. Switched that couch and dining room table with each other's spaces. It looks good. My brother and the kids agreed. I want to get rid of the highchairs. It's too much to clean those and the kitchen table. I figure if I can get them in the booster seats, it'll be perfect. They ate in the booster seats Sunday and Monday night and so far so good. I mean they still threw stuff on the floor and all over the table but at least I didn't have the tedious job of each tray being cleaned and wiped down. I have 2 booster chairs so far. I am on the watch for 2 more on sale, but that means I need at least 2 more kitchen chairs as well. Going to keep an eye out for those while I do my "vintage" shopping... translation? Thrift stores!
I also went to the police dept for that town I got my ticket in, right in front of Cici's school. Set up my deferred adjudication. My first payment of 50.00 is due Dec. 2, 2009. There are so many expenses right now. The girls want year books. Which will cost me 50.00 between the 2 of them. I told them don't even think about it til they have earned it from me. I have to pay for the daycare pictures that were taken. I have normal bills, plus house payment this week. There is just too much going on... as usual but I am hoping I can talk to hubby about that soon. We had hot dogs with pork-n-beans and chips for dinner. No TV at all today. I was way too busy. I have given up on Heroes for the season. I am just going to have to rent the DVD.
And finally, today... Tuesday, Nov 3rd... My dear sweet hubby's birthday. I got some emails from him while at work today. He got my last care package on his birthday! Great timing. It wasn't the package intended for his birthday... which is on my fireplace waiting to be completed and mailed. But he seemed to enjoy the goodies I put in there for him. Now that he has it, I can say... One of the cards I put in the box had a picture of me in it. I told (this blog) you that on October 18, I couldn't tell you what I did because it was a surprise. Well, it still may be a surprise for some of your bunk mates or comrades so don't say anything but... we had a seabee wives picture taking day. They are supposed to be sent out to you guys as Christmas gifts for the most part and not everyone participated but I certainly wanted the opportunity to get some special posing in a private setting done. Hubby got first picture I sent and enjoyed it thoroughly! :) I am so glad! More are on the way and you will have some for Christmas as well, honey!
Sometime since Halloween weekend, I have gotten sick. I have a horrible cough. I have a runny/stuffy nose, it keeps alternating. I can't breathe. I went to work today and was absolutely miserable. I am taking some Tylenol severe cold and flu tablets during the day and Theraflu at night. Not really helping as much as I'd like... Should I get a flu shot?
I found out at work today that I won in a drawing for 50.00 in SMITS for some kind of broadband contest from September. Not bad, considering I was working half days... Anyway, I hope its there soon. I could use the money for some things. The Taking of Pelham 123 and GI Joe both came out on DVD today. I want them. I know I shouldn't, but I think I am going to get them tomorrow.
I read multiple posts by MM today at lunch. I haven't logged in to do this blog, let alone read other's posts in days so I had lots of catch up reading. Her's is so pretty and organized. I am going to have to find time to play around on this thing to make mine beautiful, but on the other hand, I am comfortable with the black that is displayed in the background currently.
I took out hamburger to make a meat loaf, however, I put it in the fridge and it was still half frozen so we had pizza from Lil Caesars for dinner. The kids were all super clingy and whiny today. Just like momma. I was a total grump. And even now, I am having a hard time keeping my eyes open... so sleepy. I will make the meatloaf tomorrow.
Took the kids with me to check the mail and to get a cake to celebrate hubby's birthday. Sent him a video clip of us singing happy birthday to him and we had cupcakes instead of a cake. I hope hubby gets the clips. I think they were great. I am going to send hubby some of the non-bluray dvds I bought recently. They are watching movies on a portable DVD player there now.
Brother-in-law called to check on me last night or the night before. Cant remember right now... Since hubby's mom will be in town and I haven't made any plans yet... I will probably be at their house for Thanksgiving. I will be excited to see mom-in-law. Love her to death. She has been texting me to check on me a couple times a week. She seems to be doing well and she had a surprise for him. I can't wait for him to get it. I wish I was there to see his reaction. I am sure I will hear about it.
I am sooo pissed that hubby didn't get his laptop. I have to wait til 11/07 to file the claim with the USPS. Anyway, i know this has been a super long catch up post. I hope I did a good job. I will honestly try to get better at this again. I have just been so blah... But it'll pass. I am glad we are one day closer to my hubby being home!
Loving you from afar, honey!

Broken...

My home is a wreck
Just like my heart
I take a look around
Where do I start?
Its all a'shambles
Nothing in it's place
You are missing too
I'm in an empty space
What can I do?
motivation doesn't come
So I sit amongst the rubble
Until you and I are one

There's the poem that came to me at about 4 AM. Brother o' mine and his wife is going to watch the litlle ones today so I can clean.
I am going to go ahead and post this... I will just have to start over with a summary blog. I have no idea where I am as far as the days go. It's going to take some organization skills on my part. It's my fault because I haven't kept up with this as I promised.
Fortunately, I have been able to talk to hubby quite a bit lately. He knows whats going on for the most part around the house and with my life. Not maybe my intimate feelings but I'm sure he knows I love him.
Obviously, today was difficult for me. So, give me a moment to get my thoughts together and I will do a big update blog for the days I have missed as soon as I can.
Love you, honey!