I just don't know...

It's Friday night (technically Saturday morning) and I just don't know. I have so much to do around this place I just don't even know where to start. I am so tired. I feel a bit overwhelmed. I just don't know. I am trying to keep a smile on my face but I am feeling truly discouraged. The only thing that is keeping me going is knowing that I have vacation coming up very soon. I know it's going to fly by- the one week I want to move slowly.
I was dozing off the last couple of hours at work today. It was kind of slow. Christmas is keeping our callers busy I guess. I did get to instant message via cell phone with the hubby today. That was nice. And Skype for a bit as well. He got his Christmas tree. Cute little thing. I am trying to convince him to put the lights on it. Oh well.
We had a food in at work today as well as a gift exchange that I totally forgot about, so I didn't get to participate in the gift exchange, but I did bring chips for the food in. Everything was good, ham, coleslaw, cheese, fruits, beans, croissants, brownies, cake and dips. I enjoyed it. I was smiling on the outside but if people really only knew how I was feeling.
I feel like I am stuck on this desert island and I am surrounded by restless natives. These ships full of people pass by and wave and occasionally come on the island to replenish their supplies and then they are gone again, leaving me all alone. I get an occasional message in a bottle (from my hubby) which cheers me up, but ultimately, I am alone on the island until I am rescued.
I rented the Disney movie "Earth" to watch with the kids this weekend. If I have time, I'd like to see it, but hopefully it will at least keep them occupied so I can get things done. I am so ready for this deployment to be over. I got a wonderful card from my hubby today that made me genuinely smile. I love him so much. I'd do anything for him, including endure this torture of being away from him.
I miss you, hubby. I love you very much. Thanks for keeping me going when I don't think I would have the strength otherwise. I saw a great quote today... "challenges make you discover things about yourself you never knew." That was from Cicely Tyson. I am learning a lot about myself.