Christmas is only 13 days away!!!

First I want to express how happy I am that hubby is home for Christmas this year! He has put up the lights outside the house. We got the tree up last week as well. The kids helped decorate it and it looks great!
Mother-in-law came over to watch football the day after Thanksgiving. It was nice to see them get together. Her team won so of course hubby threatened to leave her on the corner for my bro-in-law to pick up. :)
I am just about done with my shopping.
Elliebear has a charm bracelet with 3 charms, a stuffed frog and a new 18 inch gold chain for her gold frog pendant. She has a purse I crocheted for her along with lipgloss and candy inside. She got a pair of those tennis shoes that 'shape you up' while you walk. She has been driving me nuts for those!
Cici has a cool bag she can keep her art supplies in, Baby Phat cologne and lip gloss. I am really puzzled as to what to get her. She is so picky so I think gift cards may be in order.
They are both getting ipods from bro and sis-in-law for Christmas. NICE! I also got them a new DVD player for their bedroom. The old one is broken.
Now the little ones have been fun to shop for. Bubba has a cute stuffed puppy and all the girls got those 'fur real' walking kittens. Bubba has a truck with blocks in it and 5 outfits. She has 2 outfits and a little people play set. Princess and Bruiser have Vtech laptops, really nice ones. I also got them the VMotion game system. Educational video games to go with it. Princess has the whole Disney princess doll collection. Bruiser has 3 stuffed frogs, a frog robe, pjs and slippers, and a purse I crocheted for her as well. And she got an Elmo outfit.
I am basically picking up stuff as I go along from here on.
I crocheted a blanket and hat in the Auburn University colors for mother in law.
Work is difficult. The people I talk to bring me down most days. But I am getting along with all my new tub buddies from our office merger. So it's ok. I have met some nice new people. I am just looking forward to vacation the week after Christmas!
Hubby had drill this weekend. He had to exercise! HA! Too funny! We are all doing well though. I am enjoying the family unit!

Boy! Time is just flying by!

I know it has been a while since I have blogged. I have been crocheting a lot during my spare time. Carpel tunnel in left hand coming back because of it I'm sure, but it keeps me sane having something to do with my hands (especially while working.) I am researching degree programs for when I start school again.
Halloween was nice. We went trunk or treating at the local church and went on a hayride. My husband's mother came into town on November 20 for Thanksgiving and Christmas is right around the corner. Geez! Where has this year gone?
I am getting more and more interested in education as a possible degree plan. I still want to do nursing too. I want to do something that has no sales/business dealings. Just helping or teaching children.
I finished the cutest pink and green purse for Bruiser. Big enough to fit a new frog I got her into. She also has a stuffed pink frog, froggy pjs and a robe with a frog on it. She also has an Elmo outfit that is just darling.
I am so not ready for Christmas. Bubba has a Fisher Price dump truck with blocks in the back. He has 5 really cute outfits. Pinky has 2 outfits so far.
I already picked up new cell phones for CiCi and Elliebear. My carrier was having a sale that ended Nov 2 to add 2 new lines for free until Jan 2012. Couldn't pass that up. And they really like the phones. They understand they were an early gift. I have nothing for Princess yet. I am hoping to pick up more when black Friday rolls around.
My sister-in-law and Mother-in-law made a surprise visit on Sat. The house was a mess, of course and I had deep conditioner in my hair under a shower cap. Talk about unprepared. Hubby went out with his friends, again, that night.
My eyes are still having problems. And the grand total to fix the van situation is 611.55. Yay...
I am seriously hanging by a thread most days.
We are being moved to one big retention unit @ work. That has been in the works all month. We are supposed to move to our new desks today. I am going to miss sitting by my friends. Our customers are all in financial binds or unhappy with their service. So the call flow has changed and my comfort level is being changed. Between work, the hyper-activity of the kids, and my everchanging mood, I think I may just go crazy.

Rain kind of held us prisoner today...

It poured all day. I scooped up the kids and took them to the base with me. We found 3 outfits for Bubba for fall. Boots for Elliebear, the Bluray of the movie Predators, and McAfee's 2011 PC protection since my old one expired. Then I made the decision to go to TMobile. They have a fabulous promotion going on for another week where kid's lines are free til 01-01-2012! It's only 10 bucks a line but that's still a great deal. Xmas gifts. L picked out a pink LG dLite phone and Cici picked out a Samsung Smiley. I have not added internet to them, they will have to earn that. But it's only 10 more per line to add and they have unlimited text messaging. They are excited. Maybe smart phones later but I want to see how they do with these first.
I am almost done crocheting Cici's blanket/wrap. I am also almost done with this book I am reading. I have been trying to keep myself busy. It seems to relax me. I still feel off the charts.
I missed taking the kids to the park today. Hope it doesn't rain tomorrow. We will probably go to the library.
The Rangers are going to the World Series! That's so awesome!
I am so sick of laundry! But it must be done. And I have to make a costume for a vocabulary parade @ Princess' school for next Friday. She is going to be a button to represent the letter 'B'.
I have been feeling super creative. I want to draw again. I wish I had time to write more poems. One day, I will have the time and money for all of that! Here's to patience!

The Busy Life...

It's been 2 weeks since I've blogged. So much has happened. Not much exciting but a lot none the less. I haven't been feeling great. Had some better mental days but headaches galore! And it doesn't help that I fell through the door that leads from the laundry room into the garage and landed on my head and shoulder. This was on the 12th and it's just now starting to feel better. Not even going to mention the way that happened! ;)
My eyes have been in bad shape. I think I experienced my first true migraine the day before yesterday. Nausea, ears ringing. It was horrid. Guess I need to go back to doc for antidepressants and blood pressure meds and quite possibly something for migraines.
Hubby and kids are amazing! We are trying to potty train the twins. Bubba is picking up on it faster than Pinky. It's a job! Elliebear got A/B honor roll the first 6 weeks. Cici is struggling with 2 classes but I am hoping she brings those grades up. Princess is doing great with Kindergarten. She was the start student for the week so we had to decorate a posterboard with photos and info all about her. It came out really well. I believe Bruiser is fast becoming hubby's favorite. ;) She has him wrapped around her finger.
Hubby and I went to my friend JoBeth's Halloween party on Sat the 16th. It was fun. We were dressed as a Roman God and Goddess. I have gotten all the kids costumes as well. Elliebear and Pinky will be Bumble Bees, Cici will wear bunny ears and paint her face. Bubba will be a dinosaur. Princess will be a vampire bat girl (cute red and black goth dress with wings) and Bruiser none other than a frog. They will be so cute. Now to find an activity for them for the evening. Probably trunk or treat at local churches.
Work is so horrid. They will be changing us to strictly retention as of 11/01. Ugh. No sales opportunity at all and upset customers all day. Gotta make the best of it though. I have been crocheting still. All girls have a purse except Cici- she wants a blanket. I'm almost done with it. I have decided to make a blanket for my mother-in-law for Xmas too in her sorority colors.
School in January! That is the plan! We shall see. Hubby and I both! I have been taking the kids to the public library the last few weekends. Princess will be reading on her own soon! The little ones really like story time but you have to be uberanimated when reading to them! We also go to the park every weekend and we have had some excellent weather for it this month!
Things are going ok right now. I can't say I'm unhappy so that's good. More as it happens...

I can't talk to you about it if I don't know what 'it' is...

Last night I couldn't stop crying and it's continued into the morning. I am not really upset about anything in particular at this given moment, but I feel like crap mentally. I think some dormant depression has been triggered. I am at work. Hopefully, I can make it through the day with minimal tears.
I wish I could talk to hubby about how I feel. I don't even know where to begin.
Let's try for something positive. I got most of Halloween's costumes out of the way. Pinky will be a bumble bee. Bubba will be a dinosaur. Princess will be a Vampire Bat Princess. Bruiser will be a frog. Cici is just wearing bunny ears and paint her face. Hubby is going to be a Roman God and I will be a Goddess. Just have to find something for Elliebear. She wants to be a singer from the 80's.
I am kind of excited for Jo's party. And we are supposed to have another Seabee wives outing. Hubby also advised me that he may have a 4 week training course in another state. That kind of bummed me out but I am all for the advancement of his Naval career.
I crocheted a purse for Elliebear on Sunday and one for Bruiser on Monday. Haven't crocheted in a long time. About 10 years. It was kind of therapuetic.
Hubby went out with his friends on Saturday. He seemed to have a good time. He deserves it. I really love him. Yesterday was our first date anniversary. That's what I am calling it. ;)
Well, that at least brought a smile to my lips. Guess I will leave this on a good note.

Monday, Monday

My work day is almost over. I made it through another one! Whew!
I really shouldn't complain. My allergies were so bad that I ended up having to take 2 FMLA days this past Thursday and Friday. I felt better Saturday. Took the kids to MM's house to celebrate her daughter's 2nd bday. They had fun and it was nice seeing MM as well.
Sunday was nice. I took the kids to the new park they finally finished building near our house. It's nice. We walked on the trail and they played. We also went to the library and I got some books for Elliebear, Princess and Bruiser. Cici didn't want any. She is currently reading something from the school library though. I really hope she pulls her grades up. I am taking her to the eye doc tomorrow to try putting her contacts in again. Hopefully she has some success this time.
I had a great weekend with hubby. He had a visit from his oldest son that I think gave him a warm fuzzy. I don't talk about all of my hubby's kids because they are not a part of our everyday life. But I love them just the same because they are his.
Life is treating me well for now. I am pretty happy.

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Tuesday...

I can't believe I made it through Monday, at work anyway. My allergies were totally kicking my butt. I feel a bit better today, not 100%, but better. At least the calls were decent.
Today is moving by fairly quickly. Someone in our office who has to work on Saturday offered to trade tours with me for his Friday off and give me $100.00 as an incentive. He has something to do with his daughter and nobody wants to work on Saturday. I don't blame them. It sucks not having 2 days off in a row.
I am considering it for the $100.00 though. With Christmas coming and all I have spent on getting contacts and glasses for Cici and I, it wouldn't hurt.
I finally finished this book I have been reading for what seems like forever. I really enjoy reading, when I have the time. And the problem is I start so many books at once. I have started a new one by Andrew Gross called The Blue Zone. It's one of those thrillers about the FBI and some witness protection program members who get discovered or something. I hope it is a fast read.
I really need someone to explain the spousal tuition aid to me for the US Navy. I am so confused about if I qualify or not. I really want to start up with school again. I think I am going to take a walk to clear my head. It's kind of a nice day out.

I had a great weekend!!!

On Friday, hubby and I went to see Devil. I was pretty happy with it. You never know with M. Night Shyamalan how his movies are going to turn out. I guess I can say I am a fan. I had to meet him right after work so we didn't really get to hang out much. We had a trade off. After the movie, he went to hang out with his buddies while I was home with the kids so that I could go hang with my buddies on Saturday. Nice!
Saturday I goofed around with the kids and did lots and lots of laundry! Ugh. So sick of it. Then met up with some wonderful Seabee wives for dinner at P F Chang's at 5:30 and we saw The Other Guys afterwards. I was so tired, I left right after. I heard they went for a coffee... Hate I missed that part but maybe next time... I had a great time! The movie was really cheesy but funny. I really needed that!
On Sunday, lots of football but we did take a break in the middle to watch, as a family, the Prince of Persia. It was pretty good. Disney usually doesn't disappoint me though.
Speaking of Disney... When I bought the P of P DVD, it had those Disney movie rewards inside. I have tons of Disney movies at home. I usually get them when they come out for the kids. I went to their website and input all the codes from my DVDs at home and have 1700 points with them. I can order stuff now. Hubby recommends waiting til I have more to get a larger prize though.
I got a phone call from Cici's history teacher today saying she is turning in sub par work, when she turns it in. I have been checking her homework but apparently she isn't telling me about all of it. She has missed about 4 days of school this year from being sick as well. Guess I am going to have to deny her the privilege of staying home when she is ill from now on. Can't help the ortho appointments. Man, I can't wait til she is out of these freaking braces!

Just Here...

Nothing bad. Lots of good. My kids are doing well in school. I still have a job when so many others don't. Though I really dislike it at times, my coworkers are great. They usually keep me in good spirits.
My friend Jo came to see me today. she is on a project right now for the United Way so she gets to work outside of the office. I really miss talking to her each day at work. Her annual Halloween party is on the 12th and I can't wait!
We have finally made plans for Saturday. Just a few Seabee wives getting together at last! Dinner and a movie. Should be fun. The Other Guys and PF Changs. Yay!
Hubby had some of his buddies over last night. I love his laugh. We are supposed to have date night on Friday as well. Going to see Devil. Hopefully M Night won't disappoint with this one.
I am in a blah mood even though lots of things are going well. Long days just getting to me I guess.

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Wow...

I am feeling a bit overwhelmed. Not in a completely bad way but I am feeling robot mode coming on. Haven't been there in a while. Let's catch up a bit...
Let's see, Monday the 6th was Labor Day. Didn't do anything special. Didn't really feel like socializing. Just a rest day if I remember correctly. No work, thank goodness. The rest of the week was a blur.
On Friday the 10th, Cici and I went to the eye doctor. I had my annual examination done, pretty much the same prescription. I only had 2 hours off work so I didn't have time to pick a frame for new glasses and my contacts have been ordered. Man, laser surgery sounds great right about now. But with my eye problems, I am afraid...
Cici wasn't able to get her contacts in. Since it's her first time wearing them, they won't let her leave the office with lenses until she can successfully put them in and take them out. So we have to go back on a different day. Hubby needs to have an exam done too. Just gotta find the time.
Saturday was nice. Hubby had drill but they let most of the guys out early for our Welcome Home picnic for his unit. It was nice. The kids had fun in the bounce houses. It was very hot out though and after about 2.5 hours, we had enough. Elliebear came home with all these woodcraft projects that had been donated by Home Depot. She has been building like crazy! It was good seeing some of the other wives too.
When we got home, I took Cici and Elliebear with me to see Resident Evil: Afterlife in 3D. The 3D was amazing but the plot, not so great. What can you expect? I was just glad to be out of the house for a day. Spent the evening watching football with hubby.
Sunday was another project day for me. I rearranged my bedroom, dusted everything, moved furniture around, changed sheets, flipped the mattress, etc. I am again pooped but I feel like I got so much accomplished! I am going to basically work on a room every week. At least that is the plan...
Nothing else new and exciting as of yet... But life goes on.

Boy Am I Pooped! But Totally Satisfied!

I have had this wild hair up my butt about house cleaning lately. We both, hubby and I get so busy that it's hard to do anything but the basics. Laundry, dishes. sweeping, mopping, kitchen and bathrooms. But today was different! I went corner to corner in the living room. I dusted, swept, mopped, scrubbed the computer and cleaned between the keys on the keyboard. Cleaned the mirrors, tv screen and pc monitor, cleaned the ceiling fan. I did laundry while all this was going on.
Last week, I did the same thing in the dining area and kitchen one day. And another evening I spent tossing old paperwork and organizing. Since I have decided to blow off school at least until October, I figure I better use some of my free time. I had an extra day off work last week and a 3 day weekend now cause of Labor Day.
Wow. That was interesting, wasnt it?
My life is just that phenominal! :)
Now for the exciting stuff! Yesterday was our 5 year anniversary. We made it! :) My cousin's daughter turned 4. She had a party scheduled for 5 PM. Perfect! We dropped the kids off and headed to the Improv. It was our first time going to that particular one. And it's been so long since we have been out anywhere besides the movies or to shoot pool. It was nice to get all fancied up. The show was called "Defending the Caveman." It was this guys take on the differences between men and women- the 'hunter' vs the 'gatherer' and he was pretty funny. It was perfect for a date night show!
I am so excited for five more years plus eternity with hubby! He's an amazing guy!

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It's been awhile...

Tomorrow is our 5 year anniversary. We have been together since about 9 years but married for 5. Wow. We are such newbies! I am excited though. It's a nice feeling to have love surrounding you.
There is a lot going on as usual. Princess got her first 'sign' in her daily notebook for not being quiet when the teacher requested it. Cici got assigned detention for not turning in her science homework. So she will be staying after school on Tuesday. Elliebear is wanting to sign up for the Texas Girls Choir and run for student council. She is doing great with school but she is having issues with mean little girls. There is always something.
Cici has already missed 3 days of school and we are just ending the second week. She is taking antibiotics for swollen tonsils but no strep or anything. Plus she has been given an inhaler for her cough. She has been feeling better since the doc, thank goodness but I hate she has missed school already.
Everyone seems to be settling in with the new schedules pretty well. The little ones are enjoying being home with dad for now. He is still putting together a package for possible opportunities to work full time with the Navy. Fingers crossed.
I had a talk last weekend with hubby about being bored. I thought I was going to go nuts! I just had a really bad case of cabin fever over the whole week but it totally flared up when I was stuck at home all day. I told him I just felt... bored. I don't know if it was a case of being lonely or what because we are both so busy, it's hard to find time to do anything fun.
I explained to him how I stopped going to the gym so often when he first got home because I wanted to spend more time with him. He needed it. And now I need it and he finds time to go visit his friends and get away from our 4 walls.
We have a cool evening planned tomorrow but I will post about it once it's successful...
Gotta' keep moving forward.

Back To School!

Cici, Elliebear and the Princess all got off to school successfully on Monday! Princess was so excited! C and L, not so much. :)
I was on vacation Monday as well so I'd have time to walk Princess to class and pay for their lunches and all. Went back to sleep for a few hours. Much needed. Everyone is sick, all the kids anyway. Coughs and stuffy noses. Right before school. Great!
Update... Thursday we were back at home. Chores and errands. Friday I took Elliebear to have her hair braided and it took all day, literally. It looks so cute though. However, it ruined date night with hubby. We didnt get to go out. Saturday I took the kids shopping on base. Sunday, at Dillards. Still trying to get them school clothes. They are so hard to shop for!
I also took the little ones on Monday to a local park that has all these water toys and sprinklers to play in. Just one last free day with them while the girls were in school.
I really want to start school soon. I am having issues with life. I am not unhappy. I dont feel any more overwhelmed than usual. However, I feel like I cant do anything right. We'll just leave it at that for now.

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Our Mini Get-Away

I have been on vacation this week. Its almost over and I hate that. However, this has been a good week. C and L went to get their military IDs Monday before we got on the road. We passed through Austin briefly and checked in to the Holiday Inn in San Antonio, Tx that evening.
On Tuesday, I took all the kids to downtown San Antonio to see the Alamo and the Riverwalk. Hubby had to take care of some Navy Career Counselor stuff. It was interesting. C didnt appreciate the repeat of Texas history right before school but otherwise we all enjoyed it. We also checked out Lackland AFB. I found clothes for the kids for school. It seems to be a nice base.
Wednesday was Seaworld day! It was so hot out but I think everyone enjoyed themselves. We went through the Coral Reef display. The little ones really liked it. Saw sharks and all kinds of fish and frogs. We saw 2 shows, Azul and Believe- dolphins with birds and killer whales, respectively. Rode some rides and Cici and L got to touch the dolphins. I think it was a successful trip.
More back to school shopping when we get home tomorrow. Cici is going to have a contact lense exam for the first time on Friday. And Saturday getting red streaks in her hair. My, she's growing up! Princess tried on an outfit that has zebra stripe pants and a black shirt with the words: "rock like a girl" and when she was in the fitting room, she was dancing and saying, "I'm a party girl!" it was hilarious!
I love my family! Hubby and I are planning on a date night Friday, just the two of us. Hope it works out. I have had a great vacation so far!

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TGIF!

I made it to Friday! Yes! Vacation here I come! Only 3.75 more hours to work.
I did my hair last night. So its all fluffed and purdy today. It freaks out everyone in the office when I come in and am NOT wearing a tshirt, jeans and ponytail. I have my new sundress on. I feel pretty.
I also took Cici to get her 8th grade schedule last night. I think she is excited about school starting back up. I know Ellibear is. And the Princess has never been more ready.
I watched Diary of a Wimpy Kid with the girls and Date Night with hubby over the past couple nights. Cute movies.
More to come...

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I love my life...

I know I go back and forth on my posts. Maybe I am seriously bipolar. :)
Its Wednesday! Only have to make it through 2 more days then vacation til August 24th! I so need the time off! I am still so excited about the trip to SeaWorld. I guess its the Gemini in me, always hoping for the best and expecting the worst. I just hope nothing happens to prevent us from going.
The picture I am sharing was drawn by my 14 year old daughter. I just love it! She is getting pretty good at this anime art thing.
So after much debate, mostly with myself, I have decided against the cat for now. I guess it would make more sense to wait til the twins are out of diapers and hubby is adjusted a bit more to being home. It will happen- one of these days.
We drove out to some new housing developments last night and the night before. Monday to the south- not impressed, Tuesday to the north. Gated community in a good school district... but the drive! We need more space but I would so miss our current home and neighborhood.
I am having a really good day at work today! The last 2 days were horrible and I had a headache yesterday to boot. Lets hope this good feeling continues.

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I'm having a day...

This is Tian. I have successfully talked my husband into letting me adopt her. She is about a year old and my buddy from work has offered to have her fixed as well as declawed. She has already had kittens so I am hoping she isn't wild. I have always wanted a black cat. I have had cats in the past but never for long. The last time it was Majesty. I had her when I met my husband and he really doesn't like cats. He is willing to sacrifice though and let me have her. I think she will for the most part stay out of his way. The girls have promised to help... We shall see how that goes. Hubby has reserved the right to get rid of her if it doesn't work out. I mean, we have to get along first. Right? LOL.
So Friday felt like punishment for me missing Wednesday and Thursday at work. The calls that came my way were absolutely horrible. It always gets me down. I am really rooting for hubby to finish this degree and more importantly, get a career going. I feel so trapped with my job. I mean, its ridiculous that I get paid really well to do the most repetitive and unsatisfactory things. I am the bread winner right now and with my pay and benefits, I would be an idiot to leave. Plus hubby has reiterated on numerous occasions that I need to get them to pay for my degree. With all my responsibilities, its going to take forever for me to finish school.
I am still excited about our trip. I am hoping cousin will agree to keep Paco for us for a few days. My friend who is giving me the cat is moving and she can only take one with her but she will keep Tian until we get home. Oh, and I want to change the cat's name too.
Hubby is gone to hang out with his friends again. Just like last Sunday. And for some reason today it made me feel like crap. I mean, if it wasn't for the few minutes at break and lunch at work or facebook, I don't think I'd have anyone to talk to. Where are all my friends? or better yet, what friends? I am just that lady with the 6 kids.
Oh well. Maybe that's why I really want the cat. Paco is a sweetie. My kids are great. I love my husband. And I have tons of acquaintances. A great paying job, my health, a roof over my head (though we are outgrowing the walls beneath), groceries are always there. What's to complain about, right?

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I am at a crossroads...

I haven't blogged this whole week so far. There is a lot going on while nothing is going on. Hubby has bad knees. I an starting to wish that he would have stayed on active duty and gotten them fixed away from home so he wouldn't have to worry about household duties or the kids. But at the same time, I'd hate for him to go through a surgery alone. He has been accepted into the school he wants to attend. Almost there for his degree. Then hopefully better job prospects so I can go to nursing school while he works.
I feel worried about a lot of things. I have things under control but I can't help being a worrier. I think I am going to go ahead and take a class this fall. I need to make a decision quickly.
I left work early on Wednesday and called out sick on Thursday due to my eyes. Getting old sucks. I loved being home with the kids even though I didn't feel good though. And karma or whatever is getting me back today because these calls suck. Can you believe Monday was a great day?
I am getting excited about our trip. I can't wait for the girls to see the Alamo and go to Seaworld. I am not sure what else we will do there but I am hoping they have fun. I just want to get out of my work/home rut for a few days.
I am trying to talk hubby into letting me have a cat. my friend from work is moving and can't keep it. She is all black with gold eyes. It has been offered to have her declawed and fixed. She wants to avoid having her picked up to be possibly put down... C'mon hubby. Please??? HA HA! She will even keep her til after we get home from vacation. That's awesome.

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Whew! The weekend's over!

Friday, my manager decided to listen to my 2 calls for the month. Ugh. I hate that so much but I know it's his job. I am sure he hates it too.

Hubby keeps saying to leave that place with a bachelor's degree. Tuition reimbursement will cover most of it. Better take advantage. I can always use the degree to further my career in nursing later. Also, I can possibly get in the fast track program to get my BSN even quicker. I am excited about the prospect, but I know I must be patient.

Friday night, I took the girls to Kohl's. We only found undergarments. I got some amazing deals. New bras for the girls, one for myself, panties for L, and one outfit for Princess.

Saturday, we all went to Grapevine Mills. The twins and Bruiser were all over the place. It was quite an adventure. I was shocked we got hubby to go. He hates shopping and it was actually his idea. He got all the kids new shoes and socks. So foundation stuff is done for the most part.

Sunday, I took my comforter to the laundrymat. Fun. It's too big for my washer. I folded clothes and cooked breakfast- waffles, boiled eggs and bacon. Hubby didn't grace us with his presence. He was invited to go bowling with his friends. So I took the kids to run some errands. And then C volunteered, because she didn't want to go to the mall with all the kids in tow, to stay home with the little ones while I took L to JC Penny's. I got a new pair of capris. We found nothing for her. The girl is so hard to shop for. Picky and her sizing is just strange. Every brand fits differently. After that we went to Target and I found 2 tshirts for her and Cici. This back to school shopping is not the experience I was hoping for. Hubby just wants me to get them khaki pants and polos. He doesn't understand what it's like to be a young girl amongst peers. LOL. It's not even that simple. Both girls are in women's sizes. I am sure I can find some khaki pants if it comes down to it.

I have been prepping for our vacation. I changed it to 2 weeks from now. Mary will be here. Great... But it appears to be the perfect time to go. Seaworld... The park hours that week will be 10A-6P. But, with the military special, hubby can get in free along with C, L and Bruiser. I can purchase a ticket @ regular price and get Princess in for 5 bucks. That's awesome. We are going to drive down. I don't know if we will make it to the beach this year or not. Hope so, but the Riverwalk and Seaworld may have to be enough for this summer.

what a day!

I worked only half a day today. went to the eye doctor and found out I have a form of conjunctivitis in my eyes. new eye drops, an antibiotic/steroid combo and a new lubricant. I took off yesterday and just rested my eyes.
This afternoon, hubby and I went to see the movie Salt. It was ok. Impressive stunts. Good spy story. Angelina Jolie did a really good job.
Sunday, I took all but the twins to a free sneak preview of Cats and Dogs on base. It was really cheesy but the kids liked it. Jman went home Monday while I was at work. It was kinda nice having him over.
Not much else is going on. It rained and hubby is trying to get our filter working on the pool so we haven't been able to swim anymore yet.
We are supposed to go on vacation next week. We have put away money for it but there are so many other things I could be doing with it. Really want to take the kids to Sea World. We shall see.

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so very tired but so very happy...

Its Saturday. I had a decent work week. I wasn't even really rushing it. An old friend who was fired from work about 2 months ago was able to get back on. An another friend was fired. Also a team member is quitting. The job just isn't for her so she would rather... get this... be a grief counselor at a funeral home than talk to these people on the phone. LOL. That is hilarious to me.
Hubby and I have decided to go ahead and pursue our degree programs. His is going to take him only 11 hours to complete. I am so happy that he is going to do it. I only need the one science class for my associates degree but I want to get my bachelors in Business Hopefully it will be ready tomorrow.
We started this morning by going to the base. Got there at 7:15 AM so that we could get new ID cards. I hate my new picture but I am glad it's out of the way. I took the kids to Putt Putt to ride the GoKarts and rides. It was really hot out but we had fun. Ended with bumper boats. Got soaked with the squirt guns.
Home for dinner with hubby. Nice end to a fun day...

in brief...

Today was an excellent day. J's mom agreed to let him stay til Monday.
I only worked half a day and it was good. I had revenue and the calls were not bad.
Elliebear went and got her second dose of Guardasil. I forgot to schedule the last dose appointment so I am not sure when she is supposed to go back.
I took C, L, J, Princess and Bruiser to the movies to see Avatar: the Last Air Bender. It was ok. Not as good as I thought it would be. But the kids liked it so I guess that is the important thing. I want to take them to Putt Putt to ride GoKarts this weekend.
Hubby baked chocolate chip cookies for dessert. He has been making the best pasta dishes this week out of one of his books. Nice!
Looking forward to a nice day tomorrow.

just playing catchup again...

Well. Let's try to backtrack. Work on Wednesday was awesome. I had over 250$ in revenue. The best part however was the 2 extra hours off the phone to celebrate Vicki and Rita's 10 year anniversaries with our company. I remembered my 11 year anniversary was on July 12. Wow. Where did the time go? We went to El Fenix. They did a combo luncheon and invited all the girls on our team. It was a good time.
Wednesday night, J-man came over. It was good to see him. He says his mom works 24-7 so he doesn't get to do a lot with him. I have to keep explaining to Cici the benefits of a large family versus monetary gifts for a child who has no one else to play with. I hope she understands one day. This all goes back to me feeling guilty I can't go out and buy whatever they ask for or afford to keep them in activities. But they don't ever go hungry or without essentials like shoes or clothes. They are not suffering.
Hubby and I were able to go to the TMobile store that night. We picked up 2 (buy one get one free) my touch sliders. It is taking some getting used to. I am not able to copy/paste like I was with the Blackberry. I love the camera and the touch screen. And the internet is super fast. The battery seems to wear down quickly but they say there is a software update that will correct that soon. Its happening because its constantly syncing with the 3G network.
Thursday, I woke up with my dry eye problem. Thought I could make it to work. Got there and reported out. Went back home and tried to rest. No reading, no tv. Stephen worked on the pool most of the day. He finished getting it up on Friday and the kids got in and had a ball. I got in much later and I love the pool. Hubby even got in with me at about 10 PM and hung out with me on Friday.
Saturday we got up and had a nice family breakfast. I had tons of errands. Princess and Bruiser accompanied me and we got a giant poster of Tiana from Princess and the Frog as well as an activity kit with a huge hardback copy of Goldilocks and the Three Bears. It has these pop up boards with stickers that can be used over and over to recreate scenes. Those were gifts for my neice's last minute birthday party at Chuck E Cheese. So we swam a bit again and the kids seemed to have fun at the party too.
Later that night, hubby and I went to see the new movie Inception. It was awesome. We had a nice evening out.
Rounded out the weekend with more swimming. Sunday was pretty relaxed. Back to work Monday. More of the same old. My eyes are still dry but I can function now. So that's good.

Not a whole lot...

is happening right now. I found goggles yesterday on sale. Trying to get everything ready for the pool to be set up. I am hoping it's done this week so we can get lots of swim time in before summer is over. I can't believe school will be starting in just over a month! Luckily I preordered school supplies for Elliebear and Princess. Cici, I still have to work on her list. Got a few things this weekend from it.
It's the clothes I am afraid about. That's gonna be expensive!
Watched a pretty good movie last night with hubby called Triangle. It was about this woman's (I guess) own sort of purgatory. She kept reliving her death over and over again. Elliebear picked out Annie to watch with Princess and Bruiser.
We all ate dinner around the table last night. It was so nice. Everyone was full of laughter and smiles and table manners were at their best. I love family dinners.
Hubby asked me today when I wanted to have Jman over. That's my stepson. I told him it was up to him but to let me know so I can prepare myself. I hope he didn't take that the wrong way... But it is an adjustment for me.

Things are looking up...

It's Monday. Work isn't super horrible. Not really any revenue, but at least the calls/customers aren't pissy. I WOKE UP with a huuuge headache. Took blood pressure meds and Ibuprofen. Got better til around 1 PM.
I walked for about 20 minutes at lunch. It was nice and shady so even though its hot, it wasn't too bad. My tummy muscles still hurt. Tried to do a few more leg lifts and crunches while watching TV with hubby last night. It was so funny. We were talking about how Princess has started all the other kids kissing my tummy and rubbing it. I feel like a Buddha. LOL. Princess will tell me she loves my tummy. Hubby says its because she saw her little siblings come from there. But he's as bad as they are. He kisses and rubs my tummy and tells me how much he loves it. It makes me feel better mentally, but I still am so uncomfortable in my clothes and REFUSE to wear elastics!
We saw a commercial for the Tmobile MyTouch phones- buy 1 get 1 free so we decided to go when I get paid and just get 2 and pay in full rather than breaking it down over a few months! Glad we waited! It worked out perfectly!
Princess was awake with me while I was getting ready for work today. I made her some little worksheets to copy her ABCs and numbers on. And some blank paper to draw on. She's so ready for school to start. I'm not!
Gonna hope the rest of my day goes smoothly.

Nice!

Yesterday was Friday. In the morning I was so emotionally overwhelmed. Hubby tried to hug me and get me to tell him what was wrong. I love him for that. Problem is, I didn't know. I was just overcome with sadness.
The day did get better. Everyone at work was so impressed and tickled about the foot long sub sandwich hubby made me for lunch. It was delicious!
That night we went to see Predators. It was better than I thought it would be. Hubby really enjoyed it.
Today everyone slept late. That was an unexpected surprise. Hubby made fried chicken and french fries for brunch.
After everyone was situated, we went to the get-together at the Seabee wife's house. It was wives and kids only. The kids had so much fun swimming. It only sprinkled a bit. Thank goodness. We swam for about 2 hours. Everyone was so tired. I laughed at pinky for actually chewing a piece of gum the whole time we were there. She was playing with a plastic shark in the pool and chasing Bubba with it while saying,"grrrr." I love the fact that she thinks sharks growl! She also can't say "shark", she says "cark"... Go figure.
Bubba found a plastic turtle and Princess and Bruiser swam with those noodles. C and L were big helpers, especially C but RM, the one hosting the whole thing was amazing. She immediately grabbed one of my kids to help me out! Princess told me she loved RM while I was getting her dressed. :)
Saturday night I went riding with hubby. Just exploring new areas. We are considering the fact that we may be outgrowing our cozy little home.
I did one of those 10 minute ab workout videos from the ON DEMAND section of our cable on Friday night and my stomach was sore all day. Ugh. Gotta keep it up though.
We are supposed to finally go to the Tmobile store on Sunday to pick out new phones. Good luck to me!

I'm Not Even Worried...

About the fact that I stepped on the scale for the first time in 2 weeks only to learn that I have gained 15 lbs since hubby got home.
My free membership to the Y has expired. They were so awesome to give free memberships to the families of the deployed while the service member was gone. I can't thank them enough but now I am spoiled. I don't see how I will be able to work the extra 75 bucks a month into our budget. I love having a large family. Such joy. I just hate it when I feel like our kids are missing out on extra curriculars they want or need.
I dropped hubby's uniform off at the cleaners across the street from work to have a patch (I don't know the right term for it) sewn on and my lunch time exercise for the day is to walk over and get it and walk back to work. I have been walking daily around the ponds. Every bit helps. I was so proud of myself. I know I can get there again- ideal weight and shape...
I loaned the Twilight series of books to a friend at work named Tenille. She is going to the Bahamas next week. I am wondering how she'll find time to read but she says she plans on relaxing. Jealous!
I still have the first week of August scheduled for our family trip. At this point I am hoping we can afford it. But we are going somewhere! Even if to the beach (free) for a weekend- provided hurricanes and oil spill residue doesn't stop us.
Nothing new and exciting. Hubby declined watching a movie with me last night. It wasn't all that good but I would have enjoyed his company. I ended up researching cell phones during most of it anyway.
Choice is between the MyTouch Slide, the HTC HD2 or the Motorola Cliq XT, in order of preference. I don't want to rush into it. 2 years (contract) is a long time in the grand scheme of things.

I'm Not Even Worried...

About the fact that I stepped on the scale for the first time in 2 weeks only to learn that I have gained 15 lbs since hubby got home.
My free membership to the Y has expired. They were so awesome to give free memberships to the families of the deployed while the service member was gone. I can't thank them enough but now I am spoiled. I don't see how I will be able to work the extra 75 bucks a month into our budget. I love having a large family. Such joy. I just hate it when I feel like our kids are missing out on extra curriculars they want or need.
I dropped hubby's uniform off at the cleaners across the street from work to have a patch (I don't know the right term for it) sewn on and my lunch time exercise for the day is to walk over and get it and walk back to work. I have been walking daily around the ponds. Every bit helps. I was so proud of myself. I know I can get there again- ideal weight and shape...
I loaned the Twilight series of books to a friend at work named Tenille. She is going to the Bahamas next week. I am wondering how she'll find time to read but she says she plans on relaxing. Jealous!
I still have the first week of August scheduled for our family trip. At this point I am hoping we can afford it. But we are going somewhere! Even if to the beach (free) for a weekend- provided hurricanes and oil spill residue doesn't stop us.
Nothing new and exciting. Hubby declined watching a movie with me last night. It wasn't all that good but I would have enjoyed his company. I ended up researching cell phones during most of it anyway.
Choice is between the MyTouch Slide, the HTC HD2 or the Motorola Cliq XT, in order of preference. I don't want to rush into it. 2 years (contract) is a long time in the grand scheme of things.

what a wonderful world...

I love days like today. Just a bit of clarity. Everything has been and will be okay.

Hubby slept in this AM. Good for him! He usually gets up and makes me coffee and breakfast before I go to work. I think the kids wore him out on their first day home with him. Also, Elliebear had a dental appointment in the afternoon. So I know it was a busy day for him. We had pizza for dinner if that says anything! Hubby loves to cook!
He was in a bit of a funk. Not sure entirely what that was about. I know he has a lot on his mind. He has a lot of responsibility. He is still adjusting to being home as are the rest of us. Trying to finish up travel claim to get his final check, figuring out school and work and taking care of us is enough to put anyone into a funk.

It can only get better, right?

Today is also the birth date of my brother's baby. She died when she was about 3 months old and would have been 3 years today. That's terrible. Couldn't imagine facing that...

And yesterday hubby's cousin texted me @ about 9 AM to borrow money needed by noon. I hate to say no but I really am not in a position to help others like that. I mean, I do what I can. I think we donate old clothes and toys to the needy (in those bins) a couple times a month. I give to the United Way each paycheck. If my family asks in a reasonable amount of time and I have it, I will help. But dang! I wish I could do more. I am pretty generous I think.

I am hoping that this week passes quickly. There I go aging myself again... However it is a short week, with the 4th of July holiday... All the crazies are calling in and annoying me even more than normal. I still haven't made a decision about my cell phone. I went into a store this weekend but they were packed with people. I looked at the displays of the phones I liked but I didn't have time to wait to ask questions. I had all the kids with me... So I am still using my malfunctioning Blackberry...

Last night hubby and I watched the movie Soul Men... It was funny and kind of heartwarming. It was nice to relax with hubby though.

it's pouring...

It's Tuesday. I'm sitting in my cubicle looking out the window and dreading the ride home. It's raining sideways in both directions, if that even sounds possible. Yuck!
Had a nice day off yesterday. We were closed Monday for the 4Th of July holiday. Didn't do anything special. Gave hubby a foot massage while watching old sitcoms last night. I also spent the day running errands with the kids. Grocery store, mailing bills and checking the mail. Fun stuff! Hubby made ham, stuffing, mashed potatoes and green peas for dinner! So good! Love him for the double starches! LOL!
I found out my membership to the YMCA expired on July 1st. Booooo! I so enjoyed going there. But I know I can't afford it so looks like the kids will have to go to the local pool in our neighborhood if Stephen doesn't hurry up and get our little pool up and going. And I can plug in the treadmill at home or go to the base to work out. And if this bad rain would stop, go for evening walks with the kids.
It has been so busy today. Back to back calls.
I have made a good facebook friend named Doniki. She is a reader and so very funny and interesting. She lives on the west coast somewhere- Seattle I think. She has a daughter Cici's age and she and her daughter are into the unique and unusual aspects of life, as are Cici and I. She cracks me up.
Jo said she had a nice turn out on Saturday. I hate I missed it. I still haven't decided on going to the other Seabee wife's pool party either. The kids were all sick this weekend. Hope they are better soon. Seemed like a 48 hour bug. Heard some other people and their kids complaining about similar symptoms too. Diarrhea and fevers. Lethargic and pitiful. I felt so bad... It was also hard driving past the daycare today. I really wish they could've stayed in longer. Oh well.
I have also been pondering moving. We are so going to outgrow our house! I love it. I love our big yard and the neighborhood! But it just lacks space. We discussed adding on to it but who knows? I think for now our little family is happy there.

Happy Independence Day!!!

It's Sunday, the 4th of July.
I made it through Friday. Came home from work and relaxed. It poured down rain all day again. It was so sad. I had to deliver the news to Ms. Margie (the director of the daycare) that nothing has panned out yet for hubby's continuous income so he will be keeping them at home starting next week. It was as if she wanted to cry. Princess didn't understand why we were cleaning out her locker. I told her it was time for summer like Cici and Elliebear. I think she understands the concept of summer break. I know they are going to miss school though.
Saturday was ok. We got up and went to my brother in law's house for a quick visit. When I reminded hubby about our invite to Jo's (again) he seemed to have forgotten about it and I just blew it off. Not sure what's on his mind lately, but I guess he's accomplishing things. I was tired and still not feeling quite well anyway... We ended up renting the movie "Unthinkable" with Samuel L Jackson. It was ok. About a terrorist plot and the CTU and military working together to stop it. Episodes of 24 have been a bit more exciting...
Today we are still debating on what time to try to make it to the movies. We are supposed to go see fireworks tonight. But most of the day has been hanging out at home. My mom called today to see what we planned on doing.
I don't know if I mentioned but hubby finally got rid of that old blue Pontiac Bonneville. It needed more work than the car was probably worth. He is trying to get the yard ready for the pool too. But it's supposed to rain the whole rest of this week. Ugh.
I also haven't been to the Tmobile store yet. I am still having problems with my blackberry. But hopefully I will get that resolved soon.
Today I watched for the first time a show that has a marathon on A&E called Criminal Minds. It's about a group of FBI profilers. It's not bad...

Thursday...

It rained again yesterday. My throat is sore. I think me getting drenched on Monday has made me feel a little under the weather.
We were going to see Eclipse last night. C and L were going to "babysit" for us- the little ones were all in bed. But I was so tired! So hubby and I ended up going to Blockbuster. We rented Hot Tub Time Machine which was way silly but fun to watch.
This AM, I still feel like crap but we are going to attempt the movie again tonight. I want to take the girls to see Avatar- the Last Airbender this weekend. Hope I get to.
Jo Beth has invited hubby and I over for drinks on Saturday. Rachel (another Seabee wife) has invited me and the kids (and other wives and kids) over for a pool party on July 10 while her hubby is at drill. I probably don't fit in my new swimsuit anymore. :)
All my calls at work today have been horrible and its only 9:30 AM. Ugh.
I asked hubby if he was happy last night. I didn't mean necessarily with me/us, just in general. Guess I was kind of reflecting. I am happy in love and in my family life. I would love to be able to afford for my kids to do so much more as far as activites are concerned. I would love to keep the little ones in daycare but this will apparently be their last week. At least until hubby finds work. I really like their daycare and the kids love it there as well. Princess is so excited about going to "big school" with Elliebear next year. I told him that I wasn't unhappy, just dissatisfied with certain things. I feel trapped in my job because of the pay. And its not hard, if you can deal with people complaining in your ear all day while trying to sell them something and having to be on your Ps and Qs with management. Tip toeing around with constant fear of being fired. Ugh. So stressful and depressing. But it pays the bills and supports our family of 9, including PacPac.
Greater later. That's our motto. And I am still confident and excited about the future.

Rain Rain Go Away...

On second thought, we need you...
It poured down rain again last night. UGH.
Today has been exciting... Not really. Work is so boring but at least it's moving along quickly. I walked to Jack N the Box today for lunch. It was so hot outside! But I hopefully worked off some of the calories from my Oreo Cookie shake and sirloin burger with grilled onions and swiss...
I also watched the Crazies last night with hubby and CiCi. It was so much fun. I love scary movies that make me jump and scream out loud. Hubby gets such a kick out of it!
Cici made it to the dentist but we missed Bruiser's doc appt. She seems to be getting better (the cough) though so maybe for the best. I had to pay 68.00 for Cici's cleaning though. Fun...

Tuesday!

I went to bed at about 10 PM last night. I feel well rested! Haven't been to bed that early in a while. When I got off work yesterday, it was pouring down rain. I got soaked! And I think the rain sucked out all my energy.
My Blackberry phone is malfunctioning. It won't let me access any of my pictures. I am so ready for a new phone. But I know it's not in the budget.
It's new release day. Ok. My addiction stands. I want to save money but I love movies. Good news is I can put one away for Xmas for the kids so I am shopping early. Is that a good way to reason myself into this purchase?
I only work a half day today because of CiCi's appointment with the orthodontist. Also we decided to take Bruiser to the doctor for her cough. So I will have a busy afternoon.
I am in a happy mood today. Thank goodness! I am feeling very blessed and loved.

Monday Morning!

I ended up having a great weekend! We had pizza and movie night on Saturday. Rented a movie and hubby, C, L and I watched after the little ones went to sleep. That was nice.
Hubby and I went rolling. We were going to shoot pool and couldn't find the place he wanted to go to so we ended up @ Cindie's. A store for adults. I had fun laughing with him.
Sunday, I woke up before hubby and made my southwestern scrambled eggs and bacon and toasted English muffins. It felt good to cook for the family. After some chores, the twins went down for a nap and I took the girls with me to the base to shop. Didn't find anything good. Got some groceries and training pants for the twins! Gotta try to get them out of diapers.
After that, went home and had dinner with the family. Then I took all the kids to the local park. It was hot but lots of shaded trees. They had fun.
I watched some comedians on cable with hubby. And True Blood. Nice weekend...
Hubby told me he is interested in working with a company (outside the military) in Afghanistan for a year but can make about $200K. Nice but a year away? Again? Ugh. I am hoping he finds a job he's happy with and finishes school. Behind him 120%!

I feel sooo much better!

Last night, hubby surprised me. He took C and L to the movies to see Clash of the Titans while I was at work. Glad he got them out of the house. I have already seen that movie while hubby was deployed. We were going to check out a new place to shoot pool but couldn't find it. Hubby thought he had driven by it before. I was honestly tired but at the same time so glad to just be out with him, I didn't care. We ended up driving around and eventually passed by a store called Cindie's. They have adult toys and lingerie. We laughed so hard at the products and some of the customers. We didn't buy anything... Just being adventurous I guess. Then we went home. A perfect evening. Came home and watched some TV together and fell asleep in each other's arms. Nice.
This AM, I took the kids to the Y to play while I worked out. C and L swam while the little ones were in the Kid Zone area. Got to work out for about half an hour before the kid zone closed. That was nice. I feel so much better after being able to get out and burn off some energy.
I am about half way done with that book I am reading. It's picking up finally. I don't know what the rest of the weekend has in store. I am just going to try to relax. I am hoping that little spell is over... Maybe I was having emotional issues because of my cycle. Maybe I really did need to just get out of the house. I don't know... But I am so happy right now...

It's Friday... Should I be excited?

Feels like just another day. I have a case of the blues...
Yesterday, I took off 4 hours from work unpaid. I told hubby in advance that I was taking off so we could take advantage of some free time while the kids were in daycare. I wanted him to go to the movies with C and L and I. I offered to go shoot pool with him if he didn't want to go to the movies. ANYTHING to get out of the house. He had no suggestions of things to do and he picked that day to grill so he couldn't be too far away from the grill. Dinner was delicious by the way.
Needless to say, I ended up crying, mopping the kitchen floor and folding clothes before going to get the kids. I did, however, go on a bike ride with Elliebear around the neighborhood for about 20 minutes. It was hot but the breeze and shade from the trees were nice. I started to get tired. We have lots of hills and inclines so I feel like I got a good workout. I worked up a sweat. That was a nice part of the afternoon. I could've taken the girls somewhere but I was so down in the dumps, I just changed my mind.
I do want to point out that hubby is not being mean about anything. He just wants to hang out at home... I guess I get that since he hasn't been at home for so long. He's very sweet and loving and is constantly making me laugh. He takes very good care of us. I am happy with him. Just having my own usual personal issues... Been there before he came along so...
The kids definitely make me smile. They are characters. Pinky just randomly bursts out in dance. The way they all interact and play together genuinely warms my heart. And now all of them have coughs and runny noses. I hate it. They are getting meds and breathing treatments. I hope it clears over the weekend or I will have to take them to the doctor.
Another thing I forgot to mention. The girls had been telling me they saw my stepson on a commercial for Hawaiian Falls Water Park and I was like yeah, probably looks like him or something. Didn't really think about it too much. Then I saw the commercial... Sure enough, it was him. How exciting... The feeling in the pit of my stomach I always get when I think about hubby's ex wife flared up. What is wrong with me? I was so pissed! All I could think about was her getting free time to take her kid to a waterpark while I was stuck at home AND getting so much child support AND just being a beast. Oh well. What can I say, I'm nuts I guess.
I am going to try to make it through this work day. Hopefully no tears. Hubby just kind of left me alone last night. I guess that was for the best. I went to bed @ 9:30 PM. Guess I needed the sleep. I was tired. I felt a little better this AM. But I still feel like I need a happy pill.

Update Time...

Well, my cycle cycled around. Came yesterday morning. Whew! That was almost scary! Yesterday, though it was hump day, seemed to last forever! And I was so depressed because all the jeans I bought before I went to GP are now too small. I am so disappointed in myself. I know I haven't been as busy as I was before hubby came home so I am not burning as many calories. I haven't been working out. I am pigging out. Hubby is making me breakfast sandwiches every day, which I appreciate. I just feel guilty the whole time I am eating them, I know that's crazy, but it's true. I am just going to have to do better. I am so uncomfortable. And it's not even a thing where I am uncomfortable about the way I look. I mean, don't get me wrong. It's nice to feel good because you look good. I am referring to actual physical comfort. My pants cut into my tummy. It's too hot to wear sweats. My lower back hurts. And I just feel like a physical and mental blob.
A friend of mine that used to work with me sent me an email and asked me why I don't apply for a federal job. She says that with my hubby being military, I would be given additional "points" in consideration. I need to brush up on my clerical abilities. I took a class on Word, excel, PP, etc a couple years ago but I never get to practice any of it, so I don't remember most of it. I still want to pursue nursing though. It's my dream.
Hubby and I finally finished the LOST season last night. And though it had a really unique and interesting idea for a show, it seemed like the writers toward the end didn't even know where they were going with it and just threw a bunch of ideas together and ended the show. I had good times watching it. There were some good laughs and a few tears, lots of excitement and anticipation for the next show but now I am just glad its over...
Bruiser has a bad cough and runny nose. Hate it when the kids are sick. Hubby is still on "active duty" til the 27th. So the extra pay is almost ending. I have decided I am not going to allow it to stress me. We have survived on one income off and on for a long time. It'll be ok.
Everyone else is doing well. Cici finished summer school. She's officially an 8th grader! Good job!
I have been able to read a bit more. I have started a new book series by Heather Graham. I just finished (finally) the third book in the series I was reading by Nora Roberts. I like reading. I just haven't had time to really enjoy it over the last year.
Well, I only work half a day today! Which gets me out of the mandatory OT we have had every day for the past few weeks. I have been so mentally tired! Ugh! And stupid consumers with bad attitudes don't help. Don't know what hubby and I will do but I can't wait to spend some time away from here and with him!

Mary, Mary! Where art thou?

Well, its Tuesday. I am hoping that Mary shows her ugly face soon. She was due Sunday! I am probably just stressed or something. I had problems with the heaviness but I was pretty much on time. Am I worried for nothing? We shall see!
I had the worst day yesterday. I was so tired and the customers were so mean. Not all but enough to make an impact. At least I had a good night with the family.
On Friday night, hubby and I finally started watching LOST. I had DVRd the whole season while he was deployed so we could watch it together. I am so glad I waited for him! And I can't wait for 24 to come out (the final season) on dvd so we can watch it together. We have watched at least 2 episodes a night! Only 4 left til the finale! So exciting!
It was father's day on Sunday. Cici didn't want to call their dad. She's holding a grudge about him not calling or sending a card for her bday. I asked Elliebear if she wanted to call him and she said she did, but never did... Not my fault! I reminded and asked!
Hubby cooked all weekend, before I even got the chance to putter around in the kitchen. I felt bad about him cooking on Father's Day, but he enjoys cooking so I guess he was ok.
I got a little restless this weekend. I took all the kids walking and to play at the park on Saturday. It was so hot! I sometimes feel like I'm going to go nuts if I get cooped up in the house. Even if I have to take the kids somewhere to run around.
Overall, it was a great weekend. One of my favorite buddies got fired yesterday. That's sad...

It's Thursday!

I have almost made it to the end of another week. Why are we rushing time? Doesn't that just make you older? Funny how we want to push time ahead but we don't want to get any older.


Speaking of time... I was watching the Daily Show with hubby last night and though we were cracking up- Jon Stewart is so funny- it was kind of scary. He was showing clips from our last 8 presidents... back to the time of my birth... saying how we needed to and planned on breaking free from dependence on foreign energy sources and oil. Our current CIC is spitting out the same stuff as the previous ones and nobody has been successful in fixing the problem!


Today is day 59 of the oil spill in the gulf. The beautiful gulf that I was so blessed to enjoy before it happened.

She's Not Driving My Car!

Today started off with me waking up and getting everyone ready for day care/summer school and totally wanting to go back to sleep. I am so tired. My legs hurt. I feel like I could sleep for days. One nice thing was that I was laying on the bed and Bubba climbed up, got on top of my chest, gave me a big kiss and laid there. I told him I could have laid like that all day. He's such a sweetheart!
I didn't stay up especially late. Goofed around on You Tube with C and L. I like those times. We don't do it often enough. I have so many kids and with hubby being home now, my time is spread so thin.
Anyway, I get CiCi dropped off at summer school and as soon as she's out of the car, I get pulled over by the Pantego PD for the inspection sticker being out. Great. Way to start the day. What kept me in good spirits was that while the cop was at my window, Bruiser was in the back yelling, "Go, Momma! Gooooo!" Hilarious! So Hubby says when I told him, "she's not driving my car!" I love it.
Long work day yesterday and today. OT is nice but the days are so long and I had so many PC issues today it was so very frustrating! But we've got to move on, right?
Almost done with my workday. He's hoping for a relaxing evening.

The Neverending Monday...

I am as of right now enjoying the evening. Hubby is watching TV in the garage... His little home away from home while at home...
I worked from 8-6:15 today. I am so glad I technically had a 4 day weekend. I don't think I would have been able to handle it otherwise. It was a very long day.
Came home to a very interesting dinner hubby had prepared. Ate with the family. He gave them a bath, I put them to bed about an hour ago but for a while Pinky, Princess and Bruiser all came and sat on the bed with me while I listened to Pandora music and played on facebook and YouTube.
I really wanted to read this paperback book I started but there was too much going on. But home time so far has been very relaxing for the most part.
We have tons of mandatory overtime for the next 2 weeks. Ugh. I am so not excited. The calls are back to back. I must just remember my paycheck.
I felt pretty good today mentally. No cases of the bluesies. That's good. I was reading over some of my old poetry and writing today. Where did I find the creative energy?
On Saturday, hubby and I were supposed to go see the A-Team. I was pretty excited about it. I don't think hubby felt the same sense of urgency to go to the movies, which is my obsession. We didn't make it to the show. So instead we went to shoot pool. Haven't done that in a very long time. I must say I was disappointed about the movie at first, then I realized how selfish I was. I always drag hubby off to the movies. He picked pool and I ended up having a really good time. I even won one of our 3 games! I can't wait to go again.
On Sunday, I dropped C and L off at a theatre where the tickets are only 1.25! They show movies that have just recently left the theatre but not quite on DVD yet. They saw Furry Vengeance. They had nothing but good things to say about it, so I can't wait for it to come out on video. It's going under the tree.
I have started to put some things away for Christmas and back to school. I can't believe my little Princess will be going to Kindergarten! I can't believe how time has just flown by.
I went to McDonald's with the little ones while the girls were at the movies. Oh, that was fun! Me alone with 4 toddlers! But they did a really good job. Ate ice cream sundaes and played on the play land equipment for a while.
I also stopped at the TMobile store near us. Found out my contract is not over til June of next year, but I am able to upgrade my phone. A new one coming out today called the My Touch Slide, supposed to be the best one they offer as far as Android technology and camera are concerned. I am getting tired of the Blackberry. Ready for an upgrade... However, just another expense. Priorities!
The finals are getting sticky. Boston has been pulling out wins. We may make it to a game 7. Woo Hoo! Well, gotta prepare for a 9 hour day tomorrow. Ugh.
At least I have this wonderful family to come home to.

Ok...

Well, let me just try to play a little bit of catch up...

I took off work today. Took an FMLA day. I have a chronic condition on file with my eyes and they were so bothering me today. On top of that, I feared I had a bladder infection or UTI. All the symptoms were there over the last few days. So I went to the after hours clinic at my doc's last night. Confirmed a slight one. Bladder control issues are no fun when you are glued to a phone. Plus I was really sleepy. I was up to get the kids ready for daycare and Cici ready for summer school... another story... and then I went back to sleep until 11 AM. The medicine they prescribed for me makes me feel dizzy and lightheaded. So I basically have felt like crap all day but I did get to chill out with the hubby and Elliebear most of the day.

Cici got her report card in the mail today. She failed Tx History, of all subjects, and Math. I kind of struggled with math when I was younger too, so I can't be mad at her for that one. However, I was a History Major when I went to SMU. So I can't relate to the Tx History one. But she only has to go to summer school til June 30 and if they finish all their assignments before then, they will be released sooner. Glad I changed our vacation plans to August. I am hoping she does well and now that we have another adult in the house with hubby home, I am hoping the next school year is easier for her. She had a lot of responsibility helping me out in his absence. And I wasn't able to be as diligent in enforcing extra study time as I would have liked.

Hubby has filed for unemployment. He has so many things on his plate to take care of. I saw what his ex-wife is getting in child support and it totally pissed me off. Another story... It's a lot of money for one kid. As compared to what I get for Cici and Elliebear, it's a lot. It's about twice what I get for 2 kids. And I am not fond of her and don't see what the attraction ever really was- for my hubby toward her or for me and my ex... Not that I am reflecting but... Another story...

Cici was upset that Elliebear got a birthday card from their dad with money in it and she didn't get anything in the mail. Elliebear got a phone call first thing in the morning. She was spending the night at a friend's when he called and she returned his call later, only to get voicemail. Cici, no word from him. I don't know what that's about. I can only assume it's because Elliebear is his favorite. Not going to worry about it. But glad Cici is old enough to understand why I am not with him and what kind of person he is.

Hubby and I went to see 2 movies this past weekend. Get Him to the Greek, which I absolutely adored! And Splice, which wasn't so good. Next on the list, Price of Persia and the A-Team. I can't wait! There are some good ones coming out this summer. He is gone right now to watch the Lakers and the Celtics play game 4 of the finals. LA leads 2-1. He is a die-hard Lakers fan and I really can't stand them... Well, just Kobe Bryant. But since he is part of their organization, I really think I'll pass. No denying there's talent there. So I guess I will root for them so my hubby will be happy. At least til the Mavericks start up again next year.

I really think I want to go back to my shrink. It's great with hubby being home. I feel less stressed as far as my list of things to do is concerned. However, his last paycheck is coming up. He is gently searching for a job but I am not rushing him because he has been so busy getting the house back in order. Fixing leaky faucets, getting us a new fridge and furniture, totally revamping the yard, getting his old clunker running so we can try to sell it or something, fixing the kids swing set, making dinner and doing all the chores each day, fixing small electrical problems, cleaning out the garage and the air conditioner vents. And I know I haven't even mentioned everything. However, I still feel overwhelmed. I don't know what my problem is. A major part of it is that my job is so depressing. I don't bring it home with me... I can totally let one customer roll on by and go to the next... but the job is so depressing. My department for the most part. I am so tired of hearing about every one's financial problems and how they are angry with the company for whatever reason as though I personally caused these issues in their lives. I am expected to sell to this group of people who call in to disconnect and remove things they already can't pay for. It's ridiculous. I think I need my Cymbalta back to help me keep my scales in balance... I have no doubts that everything else will fall into place...

Hubby's cousin who kept the kids while we were in Gulf Port moved into a new house and needs a fridge. We are donating our old one. That was pretty nice of hubby. The 9th was the one year anniversary of when her son died from a malignant brain tumor/complications. I still don't know the specifics of that, but it's pretty sad.

I have a friend on fb that I met at my cousin's husband's going away party last year (he is in the Army and deployed in Iraq.) She has been posting some really negative things lately. I am so worried about her. We aren't that close. Right after I met her, she moved to Arkansas to live with her hubby's parent's while he was deployed. So I have really only talked to her on the phone, fb or email. Anyway, she is having extreme marital problems. Her hubby is mean to her and tells her he wants a divorce but she doesn't know why he is being this way. She has already attempted to talk to his command and Military One Source and that was no help. She reached out to me about her plight and she had pretty much tried all the suggestions I gave her. She has been put on antidepressants and her fb posts are almost suicidal. She asked me to get hubby's opinion and call her back and his news was not very good. He feels that her hubby's is acting guilty about something. His accusations of her cheating may be because he is doing it himself. I didn't want to deliver that news so I never called her back to tell her that one. I do hope they work it out since they have small children.

Hubby told me to be fat and happy for a while. So I haven't been obsessing about working out. I am still trying to control my eating habits and I do my hand weights at work and take the stairs, etc. Things like that still count. Hubby loves me the way I am. It's just me being comfortable with the way I am. I will start working out again, but I am grateful that he wants to spend time reconnecting with me. He cracks me up. My hubby is a funny guy and he knows how to take care of his family. He even has Paco trained pretty well. I am very blessed to have him in my life. He treats me like a queen. I got flowers the other night for no reason at all. This time they were some he picked up, not delivered, which is even nicer. He actually took the time and picked them out for me. He is amazing. I can't wait for his goals to become achievements. I will be glad to say I was along for the ride.

Goodnight.

What's going on???

Well. I must say that today I am coming off a highly charged emotional roller coaster. I feel pretty good today, considering... I had Wingstop for dinner. Hubby went and hung out with his buddies for a few hours and made it home by 10 PM! So proud of him! :)

Quick update. We were able to get our bedroom suite delivered and set up over the weekend. It's beautiful! We originally just got the bed and the dresser and now that it's all in there, we want... or I want the night stands. So I went back and ordered those. Can't wait til we get them in! I went to Target and found the prettiest comforter set and throw pillows. And I bought some 400 ct sheets, 2 sets, to match. I spent 200.00 on bedding including new cushy pillows! I also got C and L new sheets and pillows. I am extremely happy with my purchase. And our new mattress is sooo comfortable.

We also bought an above ground metal frame pool. It's 15' x 42" and I think the kids are going to love it! Now if we can get the yard ready for it, we'll be all set! Our new kitchen chairs also arrived today. I love new furniture and toys. I also finally got the Xbox hooked up and played some games. I stink at the role playing games so far. But I kicked butt playing PacMan! LOL!


This past Monday was Memorial Day. We were invited to go to a posthumous pinning ceremony for one of hubby's buddies who died while they were deployed. We had planned on going... Hubby seemed in good spirits about it when the invite first came out over a month ago. However, the night before, I asked him a few questions along the lines of if he was wearing his dress blues, what time he wanted to set the alarm for, advised him of a message we got that had info about parking... things like that. And he mentioned how most of his friends couldn't relate to the movie we went to see, MacGruber, but his buddy would have... Seems to have been down about it over the last week or so. He said he wanted to stay home all day. So we declined my mom's request to get together and past up a visit to his aunt's celebration on Sunday.


Anyway, hubby snapped at me last night! And it caused this out pour of emotion that I think I was bottling up... stress hidden underneath happiness. I am so glad he's home but we are still trying to get on schedule with each other, still dealing with our day to day routine, work is kicking my butt and I love having an adult to talk to when I get home instead of just the kids. So it's the weird mix of feelings that I don't exactly know what to do with yet. It made me cry... We "made up" if you want to even call it an argument in like 10 minutes and I was happy again. I think my super long 9.5 hour work day got to me. The long weekend jam packed with stuff to do got to both of us. And maybe he was in a funk about his friend. Water under the bridge...


The twins have been climbing out of their cribs. Ugh. Or into each other's cribs. Elliebear had her end of year awards assembly today. She totally racked up on the awards. So very proud of her. Cici is struggling still with math. She passed all but the math TAKS test. We are still waiting for end of year report cards to determine if summer school is a go. I am proud of her for being so responsible and still dealing with school while hubby was gone. She (all of us) had a lot on her plate.

That's it for now. Gonna try to get some sleep. It is storming outside tonight. Guess that kinda goes with the territory inside... sometimes.

Happy Birthday To Me!

Well, I had a great birthday! A nice 4 day weekend too! I had to work on Friday. That was absolutely horrid! No revenue what so ever and the day seemed to last forever!
I forgot to mention, last week, I started to go to the Y with the kids and hubby brought it to my attention I have been leaving practically every night now that he's back. I felt really bad cause he was right. He wasn't mad, just making an observation. So I decided to stay home. I was tired anyway. And now Mary is here and I don't feel like doing anything! :) I called myself giving him some down time though. No kids. House to himself. But maybe that's the last thing he wants.
Anyway, Saturday was nice. Slept in a bit late. It was Cici's birthday. On Friday night, I gave her a 50.00 GC (from the Xmas party @ Southwest airlines for the Seabee families) I had been hanging on to. We stopped at Game Stop so she could spend it. She got a kit for her DSi that includes screen protectors and new styluses and she picked out a video game that came out recently but she has been asking about for months. Hubby had sent home the Dragon Ball Z movie for her while he was deployed, along with a Japanese version of the Dragon Ball Z cartoon and a Naruto DVD. She loves that anime stuff. I also got her a new journal. We ordered pizza for her bday and all watched Ninja Assassin together- her choice. We couldn't get a sitter over the weekend to take her anywhere.
Sunday was nice. Hubby and I went and bought a new mattress- pillow top to go with the new bedroom set we have coming. I am excited about how our house will hopefully look eventually! :) Mostly spent the day hanging out.
Monday, we went when the girls got out of school and saw Shrek in 3D. It was really funny. I liked it and the girls did too. I think Cici had an OK birthday. She said she couldn't get any friends to do anything with her. I asked her several times for the last couple months what she wanted to do since L had her party. But she never got it together. I am really concerned about her. I know she has a couple of friends she talks about but she also gets picked on. And she's such a pretty girl. I think it hampers her learning. I am trying to control her eating habits too. She gets down or nervous and eats! She's the only person I've ever heard of gaining weight once they got into braces!

Tuesday was my big day! After I got up and got all the kids off to school, came back home and went to sleep with hubby til 10:30 AM. That was nice! We got up and went to Walmart and look around. We are debating on getting an above ground pool for the kids for the summer. Which means totally revamping the yard as well as being able to afford upkeep... new filters and chlorine stuff. We are still deciding. Hubby actually walked around with me and looked at sheets and clothes and stuff without one complaint! He normally can't stand being in the store that long. From there we went to the nail place and got pedicures together. He was cracking me up saying he hoped nobody saw him there. A lady told him he was more of a man than those who didn't want to get their feet rubbed. He's so funny! When they did the bottoms of his feet, he laughed! Who knew he was ticklish there! LOL! After that we went to Studio Movie Grill and saw MacGruber. Super cheesy but pretty funny.

My mom baked me a cake and I went by to pick it up. I hope she is OK... Can't worry about her relationship problems right now... All in all, I had a pretty good birthday. 36 greeted me pretty nice... Let's just see if it keeps up the good work...

I hate obsessing compulsively over my OCD...

I am in heaven and just can't accept it...

I am going through a really bad case of OCD right now. I have been diagnosed with mild OCD (did you know you can have it mildly?) in the past. During the time hubby was gone on active duty after the twins were born.

It rears its head now and then. Currently, it's manifesting itself not only in a mental capacity, but physical as well. I scrubbed my face so hard on Tuesday night, I broke my skin... Go figure. It just felt greasy. What can I say? So I have a beautiful scar on my chin from 'self abuse' as hubby calls it. I had been wanting to organize my movie case for a long time. The other night I sat down and put about 130 DVDs into a travel carry case after removing them from their plastic protective covers. You have no idea how hard it was to keep myself from wanting to go back through all 130 cases to make sure I'd gotten the movies out.

The counting is back. I can't stand odd numbers. If I pay for something, I've gotta keep change on hand so I can pay the fee exactly. When I work out, I have to have an even number of calories burned or miles, etc. I think I am really trying to accommodate for not having enough to do. I am so lucky. My hubby has totally taken over the household duties. I have only had to fold clothes. He has the girls back on track with cleaning off the table and sweeping the floor immediately after dinner where as I had to yell and scream at them to do it and sometimes ended up doing it myself just for the peace of mind. I don't know why I don't get the same respect.

The kids are really enjoying him being home. The little ones get their regular hugs and tickles and silliness. I love to see that. They seem very happy. My hubby tells me I am beautiful or sexy every single day. Our "romantic" life is amazing. Outside of not having as much privacy as we want with all the kids around, it's great. He took my hand the other night, pulled me away from my laundry duties, and danced with me in the living room for a long while. He's so sweet to me. I feel tremendously blessed. But... I just can't get my mental shit together.

I know it will get better. I will let go of this pent up stress or whatever it is soon. I have to. My minor OCD is stuff like triple checking to see if the car doors are closed or doors are locked or appliances are turned off. Things like that are annoying but manageable. But it's getting bad right now. It makes it hard to concentrate on what's really important.

We are trying to figure out what to do with hubby. He wants to put in a package for recruiter. He wants to go to school full time. We want a lot of things for our home. He has a lot of financial/business needs to take care of on his own, now that he's back. I haven't even begun to worry about our finances yet. I got paid yesterday and didn't even know it was payday. Odd that is one thing I haven't been obsessing about. I used to balance my check book daily... Now it's just a couple times a week. I think that may be because I am not ready to stress over the finances. LOL. One thing at a time, please!

It poured down rain on Monday. So we didn't get to go work out. But last Thursday, the girls and I went to a dance class at the Y. On Saturday AM, we went back and worked out. Then on Tuesday and Wednesday of this week, we went to work out. My hips are killing me. I am so very proud of myself though. My hamstrings are a bit sore too. The dance class was so much fun. Our instructor is a trained dancer named Sue. It was a full hour of movement- cardio, stretching, lunges, all disguised as dancing. I am hoping I can get off work in time to go again today. My other work outs have been a mixture of the elliptical and weights. I really am hoping we get to do our family vacation the first week of August and that I am in great beach shape by then.

We are having a food in today to celebrate the May birthdays at work. That was nice. This office has such bad morale. I hate being in a retention office. Att is all about sales, no matter what. But our callers are people who are suspended and behind on payments or complaining about the costs of our services. I really just want to tell all of them, LOOK! We all have problems! You don't see me calling all my utility providers to haggle with them on their prices! What don't these people get about the fact that their service has a price and if they don't want to pay it, go somewhere else! I know that's the wrong attitude, but day in and day out. UGH! So depressingly frustrating! Or frustratingly depressing. However you word it, I am daily embracing all kinds of suck.

It would be a great dream if Stephen found a job paying as much as mine and I could go to nursing school. I would switch places with him in a heart beat. We have no gender-role confusion going on in our house. I have no problem with going to work and earning the money as long as hubby is home taking care of the kids and the house. He's better at the household stuff than I am anyway! We want to keep the kids in daycare until the end of the school year, which is going to totally tap us. But they love it and it will give him time to finish his to-do list of household repairs and business issues. He's already fixed so much! Loving my honey being home.

Well, guess I better go eat some of this stuff. Praying the rest of the work day is swift and merciful. I am ready to be home with my family!

my wonderful week, cont'd...

Got busy and didn't get to finish this post...
One thing I forgot to mention... The removal of the dog tag and deployment bracelet. I wore the deployment bracelet that MM gave me as well as the extra dog tag my hubby gave me every day while he was gone. Once he got off the bus and we got back to our room, the first thing I did was say to him, "you're home safely. I can finally take these off!" What a joy!
However, today, I can say I feel a bit naked without them on. They have almost become a part of me. Maybe when hubby is home from GP, it'll fill in that weird void. Hope that makes sense.
Anyway, I left off on our 5th night. We did this because I was supposed to be going to the airport to get home... New Orleans! Never been and what an experience it was. Our nicest hotel yet! No beach view but OMG! It was amazing. The Roosevelt Waldorf Astoria. Our Valet parking for the night was 38.00. Our room service breakfast, which was delicious but way too expensive, 100.00. There was a television in the bathroom! Weird thing, only a shower, no tub... But it had 4 heads! Total luxury... even robes! :) It was so beautiful. I took lots of photos.
We spent Friday night on Bourbon Street. I don't see how people do that more than one night in a row or on Mardi Gras. It was so busy and other people there I talked to in the restrooms, etc were telling me it was 100x worse during Mardi Gras. So many people, you can't even move! There was a jazz festival going on. We heard some great music. Had tons of drinks. Tons of laughs. I loved it!
Problem was, in my opinion, the oil spill. Now in case I hadn't mentioned this... BP had an oil rig explode before I left right off the gulf. They to this day are having problems containing it. Bad weather hasn't helped either. (It started pouring down rain the last day I was in Gulf Port. I am so thankful we had beautiful weather while I was there.) There was a mass evacuation of the gulf area. That included Mississippi, Louisiana, Alabama and Florida. So sad.
I attempted to buy a plane ticket about 3 weeks before my trip but because the dates kept changing as to when hubby would be stateside, and the cost to change the ticket each time, I never bought one. The military rate was twice as much as the normal ticket, but at least you could switch it up... Anyway, I was given a free ticket by one of the other Seabee wives. The plan was to leave the car with the hubby and fly home.
The free ticket was stand-by basis only. There were no flights leaving from New Orleans... Which led to our next decision... Hubby's mom lives within the travel distance he was allotted in Alabama. So we drove there and spent a night with his Mom. She refused to let us get a hotel. :) It was good to see her and even better to see the huge hug she gave him. Warm fuzzies. She and her boyfriend took us to a piano bar for dinner. That was a cool experience. It was dueling pianos, 2 guys playing together but sort of competing... I was going to try to catch a flight out of AL instead... No go. All sold out.
So we ended up back in GP the next day. Hubby checked into his room and I got to spend one last night with him. We stopped and got him a rental car for the week. I personally was glad for one more night with him. Slept like a log, I was so worn out. We went to Outback Steakhouse for dinner and to see Death at a Funeral at the cinema. (I fogot to mention on our first day in GP we went to see the movie, Kick Ass... not what we were expecting but actually kinda cool.) I drove home Monday. Started out at 5:30 AM when he left to check in and got home around 4. I thought it was pretty ironic that it was pouring rain when I left him in GP and I hit sunny skies all the way to my home city, where it was raining when I got here. Ha! We were sharing each other's weather! The little ones weren't home yet, cousin still had them and agreed to meet us around 7 at home. So I took C and L to see Nightmare on Elm Street. They were glad for a little break from the house. We all like scary movies. Go figure.
I am praying for the gulf area. I had so much fun in all of our stops. The wonderful seafood. The beautiful beaches. I am hoping they get that stupid oil spill cleaned up soon, though they are saying it will be a few months. I hate it for that whole area to have to suffer a loss of tourism and the financial aspect for the fishermen of the area.
I am trying to be patient. I have been saying , "not much longer" for months and it's quite literally any day now but I am ready for my hubby to be home... I need a hug...
I also want to add... hubby and I have been married for a while now. We never got to go on a honey moon. We did the Vegas thing before his last deployment and got married with no family around. Didn't matter. We had each other.
Last time, 2005-2006, they left out of Port Hueneme, CA. I got to go out and be with him (when we only had Cici, Elliebear and Princess, who was 3 months old when he left) alone. That was when I met MM at the airport. I still say, "small world" on that one... Anyway, we drove to Vegas one evening, stood in line at their 24 hour licensing office, got married at a random facility (wonderful minister- hilarious) and drove right back. Now. I guess you could say we were away from home. Port Hueneme is also beautiful. But I love the ocean. But he was going to work getting ready for deployment. We didn't get to do a lot of sight seeing, etc. It was kind of dinner every night. We did go get tattoos together. :) So I am not counting that as a honeymoon.
This 96 hours of leave they were given was truly amazing. Since I hadn't seen him in 10 months, it was almost like that new love/just married bliss still had me glowing. We got to spend every minute together. We saw things and did things. Though I missed them, there were no kids around. (Hubby threatened to take the phone away from me until about the 3rd day.) I can actually count this as our honeymoon. Thank you, hubby! I had a wonderful time. It was a much needed break. And I fell in love with you all over again.

Friday, May 7th, deserves it's own belated post...

I experience every now and then extremely dry eyes. It's been something that has plagued me for a long time. On top of that, I have an old injury to my left eye that reoccurs occasionally. I can't remember the technical term for it but it's basically a chronic erosion of the corneal tissue. What that means is, the injury was basically a scratch or tear in my corneal tissue. It will honestly never heal without some new surgery. Very new... I dunno...
When my eyes get REALLY dry, while I sleep, my lid sticks to the tissue that is torn and when I wake up and open my eyes, it basically tears open. Sounds painful, yes? You have no idea. The first time it happened, I just knew someone had a voodoo doll somewhere and was poking a needle in the eye of the stupid thing. Not really, but that's how it feels.
Anyway, it sometimes is a gradual thing to where I can function but it's really irritated and drops or my eye lube will do the trick. Depends on how dry my eye was I guess. Other times it's something that makes it difficult to function.
On Friday, it was difficult to function. I went to work with it extremely irritated, watering, and worked for 2 hours and 15 minutes before the needle stab started. I had to take FMLA time off for the rest of the day. I went to the doctor at 11. He is so excited about having to fill out new FMLA paperwork to Att's satisfaction... That is supposed to be oozing with sarcasm, by the way. I hope they don't give me any grief. It's the last thing I need. I went home and laid down for about an hour and a half. He gave me lots of sample drops. One to help heal my eye, one for pain and one for lubrication. The only one that he gave me a prescription for was the one that heals and it's 111.00. I don't think so. I know I need it but I am going to have to call him on Monday to see if there's any other option. The ones his associate prescribed last time were like 60 bucks. And these are 5 ml bottles! Ridiculous!
I have a follow up appointment on Thursday so we will get the paperwork done then. My eye has been a bit better through Saturday. Still watering all day and extremely sensitive to light. Using my drops and pushing on. What choice do I have?
I told hubby I had been a single parent for the last 10 months. I think he kind of took what I meant out of context. I hope not, honey... If you are reading this. I am just ready for him to be home...
I am still going through deployment. Hubby is still in GP going through check out. We are hoping Monday or Tuesday he will be home. It's almost time to change my blog heading! Am I ready? For him to be here? Yes. For him to see the house in it's condition? No. I have so much cleaning yet to do. To be able to look in his eyes, touch him, wake up to his face in the morning? Yes. Have him help me with the kids? Yes. I am hoping with an extra parent here, we will be able to turn Cici's grades last 6 weeks around. She is having a really tough time this year and it looks like summer school is in her future. (What sucks about that is the only week available for vacation, which I have already scheduled, is during summer school. We planned a trip to Sea World and the beaches of Padre Island. I hope and pray either she passes or someone gives up a week later in the summer I can take instead. Priority though is her going to 8th grade. Praying...) Ready for his wonderful cooking everyday? Yes.
I don't know if I am having some anxiety about him coming home because I feel like he will be putting on the white glove. I don't know why I feel that way. He has constantly told me I am doing a good job and thanked me for handling the house and my job in his absence. Just my weird back of the mind paranoia. I already know the parenting/discipline is about to change. If we played good cop/bad cop, he's always the bad cop. I am just no good at it. I am so glad hubby will be home. I just don't know how much more I can take...
Anyway, my eye was feeling better but still not 100% to where I could sit at a PC all day and take calls so I didn't go back to work. When I picked the kids up from school, I took the little ones to get new shoes. It was way past time. When they got their feet measured, everyone but Bruiser had gone up a size. So then I felt like a terrible mother. I last bought them shoes around February. Jeez! Growth spurts are amazing. Anyway, everyone got a new pair of tennis shoes for school. And I still need to find more. When I get time and am feeling better. Hopefully tomorrow I can look so they can have at least 2 pair each for now.
I really plan on dedicating tomorrow, my mother's day, to cleaning the house so it will look nice for when hubby comes home. Fun.
I priced the replacement remote control for my Bluray DVD player in the bedroom and it's 38.00 including shipping. Gonna have to get it. I'd hate for hubby not to be able to watch movies in here if he wants. It drives me nuts as it is. I have been looking for it for months. I can only conclude one of the kids threw it away on accident.
Oh well. Guess I will try to go back to sleep. I have a splitting headache and at the same time my mind is racing so I thought blogging would help. Just pour out some thoughts, you know? More to come...