New Year,New Cheer.

Or not...

I am so tired. I have reached that point again where this deployment and all it entails is wearing me down. I am trying to maintain a job, a household, and relationships with 7 people that truly matter- one of which is in another country. This is so hard...

I am on the verge of emotional breakdown. Probably just overtired. But it goes without saying, I miss my husband. This is a team effort. And we are working together... but it's so much harder when he's away. On the other hand, I saw something that was pretty strange... Will have to talk to hubby about it, mostly because I am being nosey. But when I think about it... my situation could be worse. I could be one of those unfortunate few who is going through turmoil regarding their relationship. I am indeed lucky in love.

I have this big plan tonight. I stayed up til 2 AM last night/this AM cleaning up and doing laundry. I am truly sleepy right now. I think I will shut my eyes for just a bit and either get up later or wake up really early and do the dinner dishes. I made a roast in the crock pot. I just need to clean it out and I have already done the table. Washed another load of clothes and put some away as well. Kids have all had baths and twins are in bed, though not asleep. Everyone has had cold medicine. Cici is finishing her homework. And Elliebear is "playing" with Bruiser and Princess while I do this. They are all in my bed, for now.

I won a portable DVD player at work today. That was unexpected. My day was sort of long and drawn out. But it's winding down. I was able to IM with hubby at work today briefly. I am so proud of that man. I remembered to take my BC pills so far. Hubby asked me if I was still open for business. Silly silly man. Not soon, love. Not soon.
I am being summoned by the Bruiser. To be continued...