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Monday, September 14, 2009

Destiny or a reminder from friends on yet another rainy day

Husband calls this morning to check on me. Says CNN reported our town to have one of the worst rainfalls on record... you ain't kiddin'...
I think I'm getting used to it. Just as I start to enjoy it, it'll go away. That's about my luck. :)
I appreciated his call so much. Nice to know he loves me that much just to see if I'm ok in the rain. I think he knows me better than I thought. The rain always does this to me. I am pretty emotional anyway...
Treated myself today to a movie. A really cheesy one, Sorority Row. I laughed out loud, screamed a couple of times, oohed and ahhed. I love scary movies. The best escape from reality. And with all those reactions, I guess you could say it was good. Not the movie, per se, just the little break away.
There's so much on my plate. Always is.
I enjoy facebook. Gives me an opportunity to chat briefly with friends of my choosing as opposed to the masses or just gives me a social outlet. I love my kids but it's nice to hear what adults have to say sometimes. And I mean outside of the work environment.
A friend got to go visit her hubby for his last few days in the US. I am so very happy for her. I was reminded by one of her posts about a little bracelet we all wore during last deployment. I dug it out, put it on, and will wear it til my hubby is home safely.
Another friend posted something to the effect of being "bored with it all", not "there's nothing to do bored, but what is the point bored" and I totally appreciated what she was saying. She went on to say how she wanted to do like Arnold Swartzenegger in that movie and buy a vacation and have it implanted in her brain just for the memories... I said I liked that idea... Her husband responded with "why don't we buy a babysitter and make our own memories" or something like that, and I said I liked that idea even better.
And then yet another friend posted the question, "if we started life at the end, would we do things differently"... I responded with "you wouldn't have had the experiences and life lessons you've lived through. But I kinda believe we are all where we are supposed to be when we are supposed to be there, so I don't think its possible to do things differently. Even so, you'd probably have the same outcome- if it was destined for the end of your path".
I don't know why I am recapping facebook info, but all of this has put me on a train of thought about destiny. I have had some reminders today thanks to facebook.
Husband's deployment- the bracelet. Am I supposed to be going through this? Is the outcome to love my husband even more? To appreciate and respect him even more than I already do? To instill pride in our family?
Memories and the point of it all- I have memories. I have lots of beautiful memories. But with all that's going on, I tend to dwell on the negative. I am now reminded that I should wake each day and list what I am grateful for. The good experiences I have had should be remembered and cherished every day. Though I may have a hard time now, I must remember that there are more memories to come. I just have to be patient and watch for them instead of blinding myself to everything else that's good in my life.
And finally, would I do things differently? I do believe I am where I am supposed to be. I believe I have gone through everything I have gone through in my life just to come to this point. To be in love with a wonderful man. To have been blessed with 6 beautiful, healthy children and a crazy dog that loves me regardless. To be employed when there are so many so much worse off than myself. I don't think it would be possible for my life to have turned out any other way.
I can sit and complain about the choices I've made, but I have to remember again, my blessings and just continue to love, learn and live. To be good and decent and to make my children happy and responsible and what is meant to be will be.
Let's hope I am this positive tomorrow...

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