I don't know... maybe I'm angry???

I am drawing blanks today. I don't know... I just don't know...
I will try my best to recap the events of this day and if anything else comes to mind, jot that down as well... But, I just don't know.
Got to work on time. Yay...
It was a crappy day. I can't stand that place. But I do it for my family. That was my mantra today... "I do it for my family" - repeated over and over again.
My cousin, Sharolynne called me today. She is sending me an invitation to Tim's going away party. He is her husband, in the army and going to Iraq. Leaves Sunday. Just finished training @ Fort Bliss in El Paso. Saturday is the party. At 8 PM. They are having it at some joint in Fort Worth. Am I in the partying mood after the week I had? No. Do I feel like socializing? Not really. But it's my cousin. It's family. So will I go? Possibly. Her little girl is going to stay home with my other cousin's 2 daughters, who are CiCi and Ellie's ages. So it was suggested that I bring all the kids there and the 4 of them watch the 5 little ones for a few hours. Maybe. We'll see...
I am angry. I haven't heard from the husband all day today. I know its not his fault. I know it was forewarned that the everyday ,calls would be ending soon. But at the time I most needed to hear that angelic sound, my sweet husband's voice, the most beautiful music to my ears, I can't. So I am angry.
I am angry that I am not going to the fair tomorrow. Instead, on a day that is sure to have beautiful weather, I will be stuck in my 'cubicell', imprisoned for 8 hours, talking to a bunch of cheap freaks...
I am angry that Bruiser and Princess won't sleep in their beds. I am angry that there aren't enough hours in the day and that the days aren't passing fast enough. I am angry that I can't seem to keep up with my chores on top of my job. I am angry that Elliebear blatantly disregarded my instructions today about coming home from playing with Hannah at a certain time.
I am glad, however, that I made it to the base. Picked up 4 boxes of the AAFES brand diapers. They are really good diapers and cheaper than the ones I have been getting. Wish I would've started buying them sooner. I will now be stocked up. I have to give some to the daycare tomorrow.
I am glad the little kids had a good day at school. Everyone was happy when I picked them up. Cici was complaining about her back and shoulders because she has such a far walk with her backpack. It's just like the one the kid from Zits carries. :)
I am glad I got some Christmas stuff to put away. I got Pinky a little doll that sings I'm a little Teapot when you press her tummy. I got 3 barbie dolls for bruiser and princess to share, a set of dishes for them to share, got bruiser a radio flyer tricycle, per hubby's request. Got Bubba a little "wagon" full of blocks he can pull around. I am tired of him pushing the trashcans around and throwing things that aren't trash into them. I got Princess a Vtech toy that lets her write her alphabet and what not... And the Monsters VS Aliens movie on Bluray. I think that's it. But Christmas is right around the corner. Gotta put stuff away now.
I made spaghetti for dinner with peas. Simple meal. Time was short this evening. It's just after midnight... I can't think of anything else to say. I don't have any deep thoughts. I don't have any clever metaphors. I am so tired that my bags under my eyes hurt. Oh and I found another gray hair on my head today.
Did I mention I was tired?
Oh yeah, and I'm tired.
Well, tomorrow will hopefully be a bit brighter. I am glad it's Thursday. Almost the weekend. I can make it! I think I can, I think I can...
I am going to try to get some sleep.
I want to wake up refreshed but if I keep going to bed at midnight each night, it so ain't happening. Gotta get up at 6 each AM.
And if you can read this hubby... I am OK but I need to hear your voice. I miss you. I love you. That I do know. With all my heart.