Well, It's Early Still...

This blog is coming a little bit early in the day. It's about 10 AM. The little kids have had cereal, yogurt and bananas. I am not ready to get in gear yet. I was fortunate to hear my blackberry email notification this morning at like 5 AM. It was Stephen sending me emails! So I was able to email back and forth with him a bit. It was a slow process but I was happy enough to read his witty remarks and get to "talk" to him. He said he was supposed to be working so the emails eventually stopped.
I went back to sleep for a bit and this time when I woke up, I just felt blue. I still feel blue. I have a little bit of a headache. I just don't feel like being bothered. My mom called this morning and wanted to check on us. Said she and Alton were laughing about some stuff the twins had done and decided to call.
I don't know if this is because I subconsciously am dreading going back to work full time. I am tired of all the kids being sick. I am tired of feeling like I am doing everything by myself around here. I know the girls contribute but they can do so much more. I want them to have some "childhood" time but I can't clean up after everyone.
I have so much to do. Too little time to do it in. That may be a good thing because keeping busy will help the time go by faster but maybe I am wearing myself down.
I guess we'll see how the rest of this day goes. It sure is a big change emotionally from yesterday because I feel like crying and nothing has even really happened to warrant it today. Oh yeah, I am not using my nuvaring right now. No need while hubby is gone. :) Just another way to work on the budget. I will start up again in the spring. I know he will be gone at least until then but we definitely don't need another child (or two, with our history of twins) right now. I brought that up because I was thinking maybe it was a hormonal thing... It's just really weird how I feel this way right now.
Well, here goes...